How to write about making black gold tachyons yourself?

The story about making black gold tachyons by yourself is as follows: "Today I am going to make black gold tachyons. I am such a brave girl! I believe that I will become better after doing black gold tachyons." Beautiful, my future will be better!" The reason for writing this way can express my brave attempt to make black gold tachyons, and it can also express my beautiful expectations.