If you let me continue

Lin Xi has a book called "So You Are Not Unhappy", which contains some Buddhist Zen thoughts. One of the articles mentioned that we are not dead yet, but we don’t know when we will die. Why not play a game and simulate a last message? If you survive many years later, looking back, it will be like looking at the truest side of yourself under a microscope.

Lin Xi wrote a song for Miriam Yeung called "If You Let Me Go On". One of the lyrics is "I'm afraid of death, can you please stop sleeping for a while?" It sounds like a little girl acting coquettishly, behind the scenes. But it is a sad story.

One day, there was a typhoon in Hong Kong. Lin Xi, who was sitting on the boat, accidentally fell into the water. It is said that the moment before death, the most important person will appear in the mind, and he will think of his old lover. After being rescued, Lin Xi, who was thinking about everything, made a call to her old lover. She wanted to talk about her feelings after escaping from death and a false alarm, and how much she missed the past in critical moments. But this old lover, who was already living with someone else, just lowered his voice on the other end of the phone and asked: "What's the matter with calling me so late?" Lin Xi suppressed the words and just asked softly: "Are you asleep? There is a typhoon outside. I want to chat with you." The reply was: "I'm already asleep. If you can't sleep, just write a song." Then Lin Xi wrote the song "If You Let Me Go On". In the lyrics, everything I want to say is written out. It is a very humble song.

You don’t dare to say you love or miss you, for you are afraid that you will become humble as soon as you open your mouth, and you will be embarrassed as soon as you express it. Emotions entangle in the heart, take root, sprout, and eventually grow into a hard shell that wraps the wound. You have been in pain, depressed, and indulged in negative emotions without knowing the way back, but you later came out.

Everyone will have some extremely difficult times. Life is not easy, work is frustrating, academic pressure is on, and love is a constant worry. If you survive, life will suddenly become clearer; if you cannot survive, time will also teach you how to shake hands with them and make peace with them. No matter how awake you are at night, you will still fall asleep, even if it is only for a few hours and minutes; no matter how long and difficult it is, you will still get through it, no matter whether it turns out to be what you want in the future.

If happiness is too difficult, I wish you peace.