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? I happened to see my father's hair half white yesterday, which made me feel a little distressed.

? People are old, even if they are young. People in rural areas are always older than their own mentality. Seeing that they want me to get married so badly, I don't mind marrying a woman. Let's settle it. It doesn't matter if one looks like a man and the other looks like a woman. Just worry, don't repeat what I looked like when I was 24. I don't want to repeat it.

? At that time, I was frustrated and had a bad life. Go back to my hometown and want to stay for two days. Who knew blind dates were allowed at home? Anyway, I left. That's what I thought at that time, and I can't live without it anymore. Then there are some trivial matters in marriage. The quarrel and trouble caused by the disagreement between two people are getting bigger and bigger. No matter who is responsible, I don't want this to happen again. Now, this is happening again. Is that all I can do in my life? I don't know what everyone says. All I know is that I don't want to make a comeback about the past. There is no need, because what I have experienced, whether it is hatred or painful understanding, will eventually be put down, otherwise you will just stay in the same place forever. Some people say that if you break through, it will be fine if you break out, and you won't turn again. What's bothering you? Is it necessary to compete with the past self?

This is me again. If it were someone else, they might say, you are so sad. Your 30-year life is so unlucky and miserable, one story after another, and you can't get well. So can I. Don't tell me if I've had enough. Can't say I don't understand, I haven't experienced it. I don't want to go through it again. I don't want others to control my life, so I should stand up and accept myself.

I want to continue my studies. Whether the degree is important or not, I can get a piece of paper for that degree. The point is that knowledge belongs to me. If I don't have enough energy and time to study and go to school, I really might as well play. It is true that people have a good attitude and are optimistic, and they can find fun everywhere. Don't pretend. Don't pretend. The same two people are on the road. Some people are bent on moving forward. Some people are happier when they see the scenery on the roadside. Some people say that you will miss time and goals. I want to say that in the past, I always set goals and made up my mind. Even if the scenery around me is no matter how good, I won't stop at a glance. Later, I found that I missed a lot of beautiful scenery and reached the end. I found that I was not so happy. Then you can go to other places to see the scenery. Other places belong to others. It is true that some roads can't be walked after they are finished. Can't go back to the original road, find yourself, and then walk. This time, walk slowly, look at the surrounding scenery, and slowly reach the finish line, which is also consumption. With my former self, there is a way to go, there is no way to go, I will open a road myself! Anyway, I just walk the line, unwilling to accept my fate, never going to do it, never going to do it again, that's failure!

If I marry a woman, it doesn't matter who tp is. I don't care about this. The man in my heart is a man, whose appearance can be soft and sweat can be sweet. There are many such girls, but I don't know whether to compete with myself. I'm just afraid that I don't want such a scene, which makes me feel particularly painful. It's the same picture. Going back to my hometown, urging marriage at home and forcing a blind date are all the same pictures. What do I want? I admit and confess that I just like women, and it doesn't matter if I get a few slaps. It's not that they didn't break up with me anyway. The obvious difference this time is that they know what's wrong with me and just want to cure my avoidant attachment. Maybe they think I'm avoiding, my behavior and thoughts, and I hide when I encounter emotional problems. I don't know, I just don't lack friends, I don't lack expression skills, and I don't want to speak indirectly. Impulse has happened to everyone. Now I always think before impulse. Can I bear the cost? What will be the consequences? If I can, I will continue. If I can't do it, there will be some damage, which is beyond the scope. Forget it, don't take any chances.

Some people always want to drag me down, as they say, I don't care if I can't see you. Who can't see it is someone else's business. My career is to constantly think about how to surpass myself and how to become better. If you do it with your heart, you will be rewarded by heaven. You don't need to teach, you need to give directions, you don't care, you can't teach, and it's a mess. Better prescribe the right medicine. You don't even know what's wrong with me. It's definitely not good to judge me blindly based on my own experience. I will also judge others according to my own judgment, some right and some wrong, which is normal. Later, I learned not to judge others and separate myself.

People who are not jealous are quiet inside. If they are confused, let them read. I haven't learned anything else in these two years. I have read many books. I have always wanted to improve my education. At least you have to graduate from college. After that, I will spend my own money to continue my studies. Nothing to do with others. It is a request for yourself, not to please anyone or listen to anyone, but to listen to yourself.

I want it, I can want it, I can just do it! First of all, I want to say that this is desire, which can also be understood as ambition in some ways, which proves that you have a pursuit and a goal. I can ask, this is the ability to prove that I have the ability and evaluate myself. If I know myself, I won't act rashly, I won't over-stimulate myself, and I won't overreact after gains and losses, resulting in imbalance and unable to calm myself down. It's possible. I can. It's confidence. I have all the previous requirements. Give yourself confidence and do well.

Only by ensuring the above three points can we better control the steering wheel of our lives and avoid all kinds of discomfort caused by acceleration and deceleration. Clean, indifferent face, you will find that there is no ups and downs, why bother to care about others? I have experienced those ups and downs, like a madman when I am happy, and like a deflated balloon when I am sad. Now I am trying to make myself peaceful, indifferent and calm. It doesn't matter if I find out, gain or loss. As someone said, if you regard your life as a K-line, you will find the law of twists and turns. If you regard life as a parabola, you will feel the taste of roller coaster more intuitively. As I have done, I now better regard myself as the lifeline and my own master. Many people are competing with others. It doesn't matter how good a child's grades are, how much money he earns, how strong his ability is, whether he is forced or conscious. This spirit of learning hegemony is worth learning. Needless to say, you will be conscious and you will know what you want. Other people's children are so naughty and disappointing. With such contact, you will find that they all have some light, which others can't see. In some ways, they are particularly excellent. I don't trust a man who has nothing. These people are either hidden deep or don't want others to see them. It can be said that there are people with low self-esteem, people who love themselves, people who are autistic, and people who are self-reliant ... Such a small-scale team will generally not be noticed by others. After all, everyone will pay attention to the first and second, and will not pay attention to the back. Find out with your heart that no one is excellent. It's just that the circle is different

So there is still a gap between what the mouth says and reality, or it may be the same, and we have not found it yet. Don't care about these problems. I am an eccentric person. Sometimes I don't talk for two or three days. Sometimes you can't stop talking too much. Some people say that the Internet is a boring group. Wrong, in reality, if you don't meet people of the same kind or get along well, you won't fit in. There's no need to blend into certain circles. If you like doing it, try it. If you don't like it, don't compromise and contact yourself. That's good. After all, forcing others to do things is not a good thing unless you have the ability to impress others.

Off topic, talking about blind date marriage, may be disgusted with this way, has nothing to do with people. There is no other way to get to know each other. Then let's have a blind date. I can do whatever I want. This is just a meeting. If it's for someone's sake, just to trick me into getting married on a blind date, forget it. If you really want to be together, just talk about yourself online in advance. I don't fight unprepared, so people are caught off guard. It's a woman anyway, or is it better to be alone all the time? I have seen it, so I have seen it. You have to think about it. What will you say when we meet again? We've met. I'm the one you're looking for? How long have we known each other online before? Forget it, just say it. Headaches are such things. It's up to you. I will stay out of it. If you don't let me listen, you will listen if you try to arrange it. I just want one thing, just a woman, like a man and a woman. It's okay. Anyway, both parents know, it doesn't matter, so do relatives and friends around them. I don't know what's going on. It's that simple. Don't always judge what to do according to my ideas. Emotionally, I am a weakness. I don't think too much about these things and consume myself. That's not true. As soon as we met, we confirmed the relationship and got to know it directly. Then I knew how to take the initiative, but I didn't know how to start at first. She is in Hebei? Can't stay in Hebei all the time? It seems that she can't get used to it here. Just say a word or two and you'll understand. Why do others think so much? It doesn't matter whether you are married or engaged, or wait for autumn or next autumn. I only read on the internet that I don't quite understand whether it's true that parents discuss getting married in autumn or spring. After all, what others say is uncertain. I feel like everything is avoiding me. Surprise me. That's up to you. Don't blame me. Don't say anything when you are upset. Then stop taking it out on me, or just tell me what's going on. You must know more than I do. I don't want to waste my time on a movie and experience it myself. My understanding is not that bad. You said, I can understand. Why not save time and do more meaningful things? What do you do every day?

? You are idle, I am busy in my heart, and I am still looking for a busy opportunity in action. If you have a date, go with her. Why bother? Divorced, childless? who is it? Who is unmarried? What's going on here? Others, divorced with children, who are they? Don't talk, don't talk, what's wrong with a married woman? If you don't want to talk about it, don't talk about it. Then stay out of my business and don't say how we met. I pay attention to real people, and it's nothing!

I don't understand. I don't even know her. Let me know her circle first, okay? It's nothing. Anyway, in the end, I understood everything

? Don't confuse me with this, no one will do it. I don't want people to say what they want. I am not an easy person to do. I won't ask others how to change, just be myself, don't have the shadow of my predecessor, and talk about my destiny and fate. Anyway, two women, one is just confusing me, and finally they found the right person, so they found it. I only know what I am suitable for.

? I won't say what happened, but I have to choose. If I knew more, I would say I was weighing the pros and cons. Then why not say that I don't have a basic understanding? Where did you get so much nonsense? I can't be a woman and have to fall in love with someone. I'm not that casual! Who do you take me for? Tools? Love well, don't force yourself if you don't love. It is ok to have requirements, conditions and purposes. I know it's good to be honest at least. The same is true of business. Is it useful to do something secretly? The competition is fierce, or what do you want? You have your own way, don't involve my interests. For example, a bar wants me to be a member. I'm not a clubber, so it's okay to invite friends or girlfriends unless there is a special dinner. All the brothers who work together in the world are fine. I don't want to go. I gave them membership rights, so they went. What's the big deal? Just don't harm my interests.

? If you think I'm like this or that, you can let me go out for a while and then let me change at home. Get out. Someone seems to owe me. When did you feel that someone owed me? Just to keep me at home and let my parents control me? Listen to your parents? See me change? Forget it, change it, change it. I used to be fine, and I'm just as good now. I just think it's okay to please them. That's good. No matter what you like, you have to find fault with me anyway, no matter what you want, you can say whatever you want. I want to stay for two days and leave, but I can't!

? Can't help but get married, okay? It's really ... trying to solve your own problems and asking my parents for money. People have to bow their heads under the eaves! have a headache

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