A letter to my grandpa on his birthday...

(If you need help in the future, please contact me at 383886613) My most beloved grandpa, how are you doing in the other world now? We really miss you during this year when you are not with us. Sometimes I often miss my childhood. How happy I was at that time. It was you and my grandma who took care of me. Now that I think about it, I really don’t want to grow up. There are really too many things to worry about when I grow up, and I no longer have the innocence and carefreeness I had when I was a child. Grandpa, grandma celebrated her birthday a few days ago. I didn't have time to go back. I heard from my mother that my grandma was very happy and happy that day. The only time she mentioned you was that my grandma's eyes were moist, and she kept saying that you didn't live a good life and left without enjoying happiness. Hearing this, we felt very sad and uncomfortable. In this life, you have worked hard to bring up your mother, uncle, and aunt. It is time to enjoy happiness, but you got an incurable disease and left us, entering another world. Sometimes I feel that your presence is still there, watching us, watching our every move, and smiling at us from time to time. We can't see or hear it, but grandpa, can you feel our voice? ? I remember that when you were a kid, you loved drinking. I was just over five years old at that time, and you took me out to drink with you. You even lied to grandma and said, "Take me out to play," but you took me to the pub to drink secretly. , I saw you going drinking and told grandma. But you pulled me and said you would buy me delicious food. At that time, I was so greedy that I couldn't move my legs when I heard that there was delicious food. In the end, I was "captured" by you. No matter how much you drink, you will never lose me. Every time you drink too much, you will hold my hand and take me home. When you get home, grandma starts nagging you, lest you lose me. I lost it, but you smiled at me and then fell asleep in bed. It’s really funny now that I think about it. I remember that grandma often told me about you when you were young. Grandma said that you were very talented, knew a lot, and were very handsome at that time. So grandma took a liking to you when she saw you. She laughed to herself. Looking at grandma's smile, I really feel that you are happy. Although you usually like to drink, grandma often nags you, but that is good for you. After your quarrel, everything calmed down, and you are still so loving. I am really envious of you now. Grandma often told me: A simple and ordinary life is the most real. I still remember this sentence deeply until now. Grandpa, you don’t have to worry about us now. Now that we have grown up, it’s time to talk about marriage. They are all very good, and they all have their own jobs and lives. Grandma is also very good. Now her second aunt lives with her at home. She doesn't want to go anywhere, she just wants to be in her hometown. Because she feels that your figure and footprints are still there, and she doesn't want to leave there. We also understand her mood very well, so we don't try to persuade her too much. We just hope that grandma will be in good health and let her enjoy more happiness, so you can rest assured, grandpa. Grandpa, you are no longer with us, but I have a lot to say to you. When I was young, I didn’t understand anything and would only make you angry. Now that I have grown up and become a soldier, I have never had time to be with you and have very little time to talk. But now that you are gone, I feel that my personality has changed. I don’t want to communicate about anything, and everything has become indifferent. I just want to say this to you, because you will enlighten me with sincere words and sincere words no matter what I do. Even if I make a mistake, you will not blame me, but understand my dilemma. Don't want to put too much pressure on me. I remember that when I was in middle school, I didn’t study well at home and often skipped school. Later, my teacher found out and asked me to call my parents. At that time, I was afraid of what my family would say about me, so I ran away from home. When you found me, I cried and made trouble not to go to school. When you found out, you insisted on letting me go to school in my hometown. After hearing this, I stopped making trouble, and my parents readily agreed. Grandpa, I remember you told me the year before last to solve my personal problems as soon as possible. You and grandma really want to see your grandson-in-law. I also know that you are very anxious, but there has never been a suitable one.

I met a girl recently, and I felt pretty good about it. However, after being together for a while, we often quarreled. I know that I care very little about her. When she needs me, I am not by her side. I usually don’t work at all. She is very busy, and I never have any personal time to take care of her. I know that she is a very difficult girl, she is very strong, and she has to be ahead of everything. But her heart is very fragile, she is a girl who is strong on the outside and weak on the inside. We have been quarreling again in the past few days. It feels like our quarrel is really true this time? I should give her some space to think about it, and give myself some time, right? Grandpa, you often say that you will never be happy if you force yourself. Marriage is a matter between two people, not just one, are you right? Grandpa, I know you can’t hear or see so much I’m telling you, but I just want to say these things to you that others don’t know. You must have a happier time in the distance and stop drinking so much. I will miss you forever.