Give me a concept of home

Home is the harbor of the heart and the place of family affection. Home is not a house, it is family. Home can give you warmth, comfort and help when you fail.

The concept of home may not only be your own "small" home, but it may also be a "big" home.

Home requires our own efforts and hard work to create. Sometimes, our home is our own house, and sometimes our home is like the world and belongs to everyone. It’s like our China is a “big” home, a home that belongs to the vast number of people!

Maybe everyone has different feelings about family and friends. In everyone's heart, they have a certain status and play a certain role in life. Family often brings warmth and is like psychological sustenance, while friends bring trust and happiness.

But more often than not, I always feel that home is like a palace, with a good material life but lack of warmth. I used to have a fantasy, hoping that my parents would care about me just like other parents. But as time went by, not only did they care less about me, they even gradually ignored my efforts. They don't see any of my good qualities. I feel quite conflicted. Everyone in the family is a good-looking person, but many times I think they are particularly hypocritical. I always remember that after the high school entrance examination, I was not admitted to Nankai University but only passed the experimental examination. My father ignored me for two months. Did he think I would feel better if I didn't get into Nankai University?

In my heart, the concept of home is gradually fading away, and I feel desperate for such a home. Every day is just a matter of two points and one line, school and home, and where to go when the time comes. Sometimes I don't even want to go home at all, I feel very bored. Either dad has a headache again and is in a bad mood, or mom has a dinner party and won't come back for dinner. (That day, the weekly diary asked me to write about my mother. I thought about it for a long time, and finally got some inspiration from the TV series. I didn’t even know who I was writing about.) So I stayed in school for a long time every day after school, and only came to school on Saturday afternoon. Study at school instead of going home. But this is quite helpful for learning... Hum, that's about it.

I don’t know who said that knowledge can change your destiny. Anyway, just study hard. If you leave, you will never come back. But what did my family give me when I was working hardest and most tired and confused?

I was chatting with Bi today, and she said that our cultural literacy was quite good since childhood. Yes, there is no shortage of music and art. From a young age, I have gone to concerts, operas, art exhibitions, and the so-called "big occasions and big people" (this may help me find a job in the future.) All the qualities that should be cultivated are Once cultivated, warmth is forgotten. Maybe you shouldn't be too greedy. If you have these, you shouldn't expect any more. So what is a home like this? I really don’t know.

In my mind, home is strict and deserted, just like a five-star hotel. Friends bring warmth and happiness. Only when you are with them can you feel relaxed and happy, so you always want your friends to be around you. Many times I feel empty in my heart, I hope I can find some psychological sustenance as soon as possible