Life? It is a process that keeps us growing.

Life is like a glass of boiled water. You drink it every day. Don't envy other people's drinks in all colors. In fact, you may not have boiled water to quench your thirst. Everyone's life is not so smooth sailing, and there are unknown growth and experiences behind it.

I am a nurse. Two years after graduation, I usually have a comprehensive personality. Sometimes I'm shy, sometimes I talk a lot. Anyway, there are many familiar people and few unfamiliar people. Usually, I am happy and unhappy. Can't talk, don't want to talk about male friends, and don't like socializing. I don't have many friends. Two years after graduation, my job is average and my salary is just enough. A state of life that has always been.

I still remember when I graduated as an intern, my family was arranged to work in the county public hospital. At that time, I went to school in the city, far from home, and went home in winter and summer vacations. Because at that time, most of my good friends who volunteered as classmates stayed in the city, and I was young and energetic at that time. I don't want to go back to the county hospital right after graduation. The profession of nurse is very busy all year round, and there are few holidays. I'm afraid I won't have a chance to get together with you after I go back, so I finally chose to stay in the city and choose the affiliated hospital of the school as an internship.

? Soon, my internship was over. After that, I stayed in the city and started looking for a job. Later, I found that I ran into a wall when I was looking for a job, because I took the exam after studying medical practice. It took 4-6 months to get a professional certificate, so I couldn't get into public hospitals at that time, and private hospitals didn't have security, and then I never found a suitable job. In fact, to tell the truth, I don't have strong strength and good connections in the urban area, and I can't get into a good hospital at all, so my work has never stabilized. At that time, I was really helpless, hiding under the covers listening to songs and crying alone. At that time, I also regretted not listening to my parents' arrangements to go home. Maybe my job has stabilized. As my parents said, it is ok for a girl to get married if she has a stable job and finally talks about a similar object. However, after crying, I went to look for a job.

In this way, I ran around. Finally, I worked in a fairly good hospital in our city at that time. My salary at first was about 1800. Rent your own house, and you have to pay for your own living expenses. After settling down, I go to work, get off work, cook, watch TV and sleep every day, and get together, eat and chat with my classmates and friends from time to time. At that time, I was very comfortable at work and lived every day.

Boiled water is tasteless, but we desperately sprinkle salt and sugar into it, add oil and vinegar, and add all kinds of flavors we want. It turned out to be hard to swallow.

Just after a year of quiet life, she was feverish and was introduced to work in her hospital by a friend. At first, the work was pleasant, but gradually I found more and more problems. Colleagues have complicated relationships and heavy tasks. I feel more and more stressed at work every day. A few days, I fell asleep in bed as soon as I got home, then woke up and hurried to work.

Actually, it's nothing. Later, the hospital was short of funds and owed employees wages for almost four months. All the previous savings have been subsidized, and there is not a penny left. Life is still relatively tight, and I dare not go out to eat. I didn't even go out. I'm used to it. Life was a bit tight for a while.

? The hospital's monthly living expenses are only 400 yuan to 500 yuan. Later, I stayed up all night, and my face was covered with acne, looking for prescriptions everywhere. Coupled with poor health during that time, I was always sick and caught a cold. It costs money to cure acne. The money in the hospital is far from enough. I really can't take my parents' money. Finally, I had to borrow money from my friends, because everyone just graduated and didn't have much savings at first. They are all moonlight people, and they didn't borrow much money. Finally, I had to borrow money from online loans. After a few months, I don't know how many times I turned around in it. Finally, until the Spring Festival, I changed from a person who would rather cling to something than make trouble to a person with a foreign debt of 6,000. Although I didn't have much money, it was really a lot of money for me at that time. I was also afraid that my brother and sister-in-law would know, and that my parents would know that I was not doing well and could not eat.

Then I thought about it for a long time and finally decided to resign. In the dead of night, I recall carefully that in recent years, most of my youth has stayed in this city, and I have nothing but the growth of my age. I suddenly woke up overnight. I used to be at a loss about life, and suddenly I had a desire and a goal, which also gave me the motivation to move forward.

? On the second Sunday of 20 19, I left the city where I lived for 8 years and came to Guangzhou alone to start a new life. I have gained too much from this long journey. I survived those hardships and started a new life, not just to see the world, but after seeing the world, I knew better what I wanted.

The future is an unknown, maybe I can't control my own destiny and opportunities, but at least I will "try my best and resign myself to fate". I know that life is not easy, so I cherish peace and go all out when there is no despair. Dreams don't happen overnight, but step by step. I hope you are confused at the moment, you can clearly know what you want, and I hope you can go on bravely in the future.