How did you spend your credit card repayment date? Still the lowest or in "hot water"?

I have ***6 cards, and the total amount is less than 200,000. I used five credit cards, and the remaining card was 38 thousand in full. You can use this credit card to write off the bills of other credit cards every month. The handling fee for pos machines is 700 yuan per month. No matter what happens, I won't use my remaining credit card to borrow flowers and small loans, and I won't use that card when I repay. Because I deeply understand that as long as I use that card, I will completely collapse and never get up again. My monthly salary is about 4.5k, and I'm just an ordinary clerk in xx tea shop. I am a failure in starting a business, and I know that if I work, I can't pay my current debt. But if I stop, I will only die more painfully. I must find a way out while working hard. I heard that there are more opportunities in first-and second-tier cities, so I came out and started from the bottom. But I am absent-minded all day and always wonder if there are other ways to make money. Now I am in a passive position. I don't know if anyone feels the same way. I always feel that I can, or do something, but I don't know where to start, although life is hard now. Even if I keep following, paying off the debt, paying off the debt, paying off the debt, I will still toss.