You are wishful thinking but you are happy with it

? You looked at your phone intentionally or unintentionally. From the moment you clicked send, you have been looking forward to his reply. It has been a while since I sent him a message.

? Sure enough, you still can't help but not mind, your own efforts, and his attitude towards you. This makes you feel very insecure and real. He chats very close to others and far away from you. You ask him whether his porridge is warm, and whether his body is warm, but what about him?

? So, you ask yourself, what happened? Why do you ask for more? You don't like yourself like this.

? You want to ask him, talk to him, talk to him, but you don’t want to disturb him with such trivial matters, and you want him to understand your thoughts. You begin to coax yourself in your mind. He is a straight man, but he just didn't expect it; maybe he was too busy and didn't see the message; or maybe he forgot. He will reply...

Just when it seemed to have some effect, your restless heart jumped out with another reply - it was just your wishful thinking.

As soon as this answer came out, you felt extremely uncomfortable. Then I thought about it, maybe he was too serious. You regard him as a very important person, so you talk to him about any trivial matters. As far as he is concerned, you are just one of many friends, you may or may not have them.

? Thinking about it this way, I feel better. After all, he couldn't be blamed, but who could be blamed? Who else could I talk to about this overwhelming melancholy?

You actually understand. This transaction of loving and being loved has been unfair and unbalanced from the beginning. From the beginning, the loved one has more leverage, more initiative and control. He uses himself (including body and mood) to unconsciously weave an imperceptible web, binding you sweetly and seductively with your attention and every move he makes. And you, knowing full well that there are tigers in the mountains, choose to go to the Tiger Mountains, and you are happy with all this.

? All networks are organized by oneself. Some are complete or missing, so we have to let nature take its own course.

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