It’s Chinese New Year, but I still miss the days of being a daughter the most.

The patter of spring rain seemed to extinguish some of the heat in a somewhat dull year. But starting at dawn, the sound of firecrackers coming and going, far and near, reminded the warm people lying in bed: It’s the New Year!

The children kicked off the quilt excitedly and shouted loudly, "It's finally the New Year! I can finally wear new clothes!"

The children's happiness, It's what I envy the most. There is less happiness after adulthood, but more gratitude and cherishment.

"The new year is passed away amidst the sound of firecrackers, and the spring breeze brings warmth to Tusu. Thousands of households always exchange new peaches for old charms." This poem will always be the best portrayal of New Year's Eve. .

I woke up early in the morning, washed up, had breakfast, washed my clothes, and then started dressing up the two girls.

The little girl still likes to wear her favorite Elsa sweater and pink bear coat, and I also specially asked me to put a pink tiara on her head.

The eldest girl put on the new Hanfu and embroidered red boots she chose. Her mother also arranged a bun on top of her head, and matched it with her own matching headdress.

My sister also bought a set, but she said she would wait until New Year’s Eve and take a shower before wearing it.

In addition to the sense of ceremony, it is full of ancient style. They are really two Chinese dolls. After getting dressed, I started hanging lanterns and pasting Spring Festival couplets. Only adults can do it at the top, while the two camellia trees at the bottom have become their best decoration objects.

The camellia trees on these two trees are already in bud. They just need to wait for the weather to clear up and the temperature to warm up in the new year to see the flowers bloom.

The two little girls were holding musical lanterns and jumping around, singing and dancing. It made the adults who were scrolling through TikTok on their mobile phones a little more lively and happy, and it also reminded me of When he was a daughter, he was a child.

"Dad, I want to come back to celebrate the New Year. It would be better for you to have your son by your side..."

"You are married and you have no control over yourself."

< p> "Yes, watching you and the soldiers warming up by the fire. I really want to go back and watch the New Year with you. When I still want to be a daughter..."

"Of course it would be great to come back. But you are married now, so don’t spend the New Year apart.”

“Okay...”

During the video call with my father and brother yesterday, I still said my feelings through the screen. What’s in my heart.

Even after the Chinese New Year, I still miss the days of being a daughter the most. I don’t know why, I especially miss my childhood. I thought I was the only one who would be like this, but recently, several friends and I, whether we were sitting around offline or chatting online, said this was the case.

When you reach middle age, you suddenly feel that time is moving too fast, and you don’t know how to adapt. Everything is pushing you to move forward quickly, unable to slow down. I just hope that time can slow down a little bit, so from the bottom of my heart, I don’t look forward to the Chinese New Year that much.

As daughters, the Chinese New Year is always what we look forward to and look forward to the most.

At that time, there were many delicious foods only during the Chinese New Year; at that time, the New Year's money was only 5 yuan or 10 yuan, but they were saved like treasures; at that time, the family gathered around the stove to watch the New Year, and they must After the fireworks were fired at twelve o'clock, I fell asleep as the roaring sound faded away.

In the family group, my sister-in-law shared a bunch of delicious food, all of which were my favorite foods when I was a daughter.

The first one is Xiangxiang egg roll. My father usually starts frying egg skins and making egg rolls on the night of the 29th of the New Year. In the past, we couldn't afford so much meat, so we mixed it with oil residue, but we ate it very well. Now that pure lean meat is added, the egg rolls are more fragrant and feel doubly precious.

"Let Brother Wen learn the craft..." I joked with my brothers and sisters in the group. Yes, everyone knows the subtext, but we just hope that time will go slower, and slower still, so that we can eat such delicious New Year desserts year after year.

The second one is pork breast. This is a big dish during the Chinese New Year, and it is also a tough dish. It was taken out from the steamer on the stove with enthusiasm and put on the table. It looked fat and oily, but it was fat but not greasy. The ingredients are the tenderest and fattest part of the pork leg. After blanching it with water, marinating it in soy sauce and sprinkling it with onion, ginger, garlic and salt to taste. I will eat it with the skin and meat.

There is another thing that is not delicious, but is beautiful, and that is staying up late on New Year's Eve.

After placing a plate of melon seeds, peanuts, candies and biscuits, and making a few cups of tea, they began to summarize the harvest of the past year and talk about the New Year's plans by the fire pit. At that time, I didn’t know what my situation would be like next year, I had no money in my pocket, and my creditors always just asked them to leave. After the New Year, tuition fees have not yet been paid, but the New Year is still full of hope.

It has been eleven years and I have not returned to my parents’ home to celebrate the New Year. As I thought about it, tears couldn't help but fall. Being able to write this article today is another stage of healing.

When I was about to graduate from graduate school, I wanted to apply to the school to study for a Ph.D., but my father told me that if I continued to study, I would not be able to get married. When my stepmother’s son came to celebrate the Chinese New Year, he actually grabbed the remote control from me. Being young and energetic, I went to talk to my grandma. But grandma told me that he was coming here to start a family and asked me to keep my brother's foundation. I had a quarrel with my father, and he scolded me severely. In a fit of anger, after crying loudly at my mother's grave, I ran away from home and never went back to celebrate the New Year.

Maybe it’s because my mother is gone, and my heart is full of desolation; maybe it’s because everything I look at is disgust. I desperately wanted to leave my original family, and I secretly made up my mind to find a suitable person, marry myself off, and leave this family forever.

Then I really met my love, and like lightning, I don’t know whether I was determined or confused, I got engaged, and then got married. My mother-in-law's family is very nice, and I seem to feel the unprecedented warmth in my original family. It seems that all my fear and hatred of my original family have been cured. What is left is only filial piety and pure love in the traditional sense.

Starting from the year I ran away, I no longer went home to celebrate the New Year.

I never thought that those things that I thought were cured would come up again. In fact, they were always there, but they had not been awakened. I have also become the mother of two girls. "Only when you adopt a daughter will you know the kindness of your parents." Although I have completely abandoned their education method of beating and scolding us, many of the things I have endured in my bones are still there, but I can only understand and then reconcile. .

Parents, it was so difficult at that time. In that kind of environment and conditions, how could they be as tolerant and patient as we are to our children now? Only beating and scolding is the best and fastest way to make us obedient quickly. The two of them always argue and even fight. It may only be during the Chinese New Year that the family can relax for a while.

When I was in high school, my mother passed away, and she really disappeared, leaving behind eternal thoughts.

"You have a pair of children, don't worry, I will take care of them." Full of guilt for his mother, his father fulfilled his promise.

The years when I was a daughter have become the warmest and most harmonious memories in my heart. After years of experience and training, I feel more grateful and nostalgic.

I miss you endlessly, but also feel a little helpless. In short, it is better to comfort yourself, the best is already in front of you. At least my family is safe and in good health!

(Wujie Academy)