You want the moon, sixpence is not enough.

"There were sixpence everywhere, but he looked up and saw the moon."

I first saw this sentence in Zhihu. This sentence sucks, but I don't like it for a reason. I think it can be used in many places. When I first read this book, I was moved to tears, and my unique understanding of society made me feel refreshed.

Many people regard the protagonist as Strickland, while others say that the protagonist is actually the author himself, and stick to himself. In my opinion, I prefer Strickland as the leading role, because I am deeply impressed.

Sixpence is the epitome of his life before he turned 40. Just like most city people are drowned in the city, his life is dull, but it is beautiful for the world. A stable job, a virtuous wife, two children, a dull and happy life, but no one saw the undercurrent surging under this calm river. Because I didn't expect it, I was frightened, so I was hysterical, so rumors spread everywhere. A lot of things are like this.

Strickland has a leading role aura, and it is not a matter of a word to change from a flash of inspiration of generate to his imminent demise, from obscurity to fame. Mao Mu wrote about this process. Strickland doesn't care about anything. The gossip, comments and emotions of the world are like jokes in his sarcastic eyes. This is a contradiction, because most people are right according to common sense, but the individual is the truth, and it is this contradiction that makes the truth become the truth. Everyone in the world is looking for sixpence, but they also inadvertently bow to those who look up at the moon.

He may have got something we call a gift, such as the apocalypse, which most people look up to but can't control. This may be luck or great misfortune. This kind of thing divorced from life is bound to be beyond common sense, so it is misunderstood, disgusted, sympathized and finally sought after. Only when people see Strickland's works will they feel unprovoked excitement and shock, regret their stupidity and miss the genius, and remember that the poor and eccentric madman turned out to be a genius. People always know what is behind them.

Mao Mu's love is full of despair and irony. Not that love is not beautiful. From the secular point of view, many strong relationships are faithful love, ignoring the collision and agitation of those two souls.

Strickland's original wife was gentle and virtuous, although at first she was suspected of being arty. It was not until Strickland fled to Paris that I realized that Mrs Strickland was "so vicious". Women naturally like to perform, perform their social roles, and seek comforting approval and applause. The bigger the applause, the more excited it is, and it goes deep into the heart, but the mood is blank. Perhaps Strickland and his wife once had a love, but in Strickland's view, it was a mistake. For him, love and desire are fetters and chains that suppress inspiration. For Mrs. Strickland, "I" is a very suitable audience. Because I am familiar with the background, I don't know much, so Mrs. Strickland can show her virtuous, sociable and reasonable skills here. Women, people, are like this. Obviously, they are destined to be a social role, but they have to perform it, not for themselves but for others.

"Women can forgive men for hurting her, but they will never forgive men for sacrificing for her." Strickland's words impressed me deeply. This is the despair of love. Stroeve loved his wife humbly, but it became a joke. Mrs. Stroeve fell in love with Strickland, which would have been a tragedy, just like a bird in a cage falling in love with the sea. It never loved cages, but lived in them. It longs for freedom, and the sea arouses its desire, but in the end, it will still become a victim of the sea. Stroff, a "good guy", spread his love regardless of the occasion, making people inseparable from him and making him a laughing stock. Even Strickland, who always asked him to die, laughed at and abused him, showed angelic love, but his family was destroyed and his wife separated. It's hard for you to sympathize with such an encounter, but you can't bear to be harsh. This may be another sad fate of despair.

I'm surprised that such a freak will end up spending the rest of his life with etta. "But women always get it." This may be Strickland's most sincere expression of love for Aita. In the Garden of Eden in Tahiti, he was lucky to find the key to the door of inspiration and found inner peace. At this time, he is doing an ideal thing in an ideal environment, and the nature accompanying him is also an ideal person. It may also be that Mao Mu turned his pen after standing outside and satirizing so many emotions, leaving readers with hope for love. No matter how strange and ordinary you are, there is always a right person who will hug you without reservation, and you will willingly throw yourself into this embrace.

This novel should support many people's ideals, such pure ideals, resolute pursuit and indomitable passion. Strickland should have been condemned for his indifferent personality and unruly behavior, but everyone who finished reading the novel was always full of sympathy for him, and it was for the sake of art that his feelings were sublimated.

So, what is art? Art is the sublimation of life, but when you see it, you will feel a clean soul that has washed away the dust, and you will be excited for no reason, like the darling designated by God. Many painters are mentioned in the book. They are either "everyone" who follows the rules in the genre, or "full pockets" who write exquisite photos to restore reality, or "masters" who are famous all over the world. Strickland was penniless at that time, and he picked up the brush at the age of 40, and he was eccentric. No one wants to pay attention to him, and even if there is, no one can guess him. For him, the ideal is only related to himself, even to his soul, and has nothing to do with others or two pence. Therefore, he painted not for fame, not for profit, but for emotional catharsis, or to convey God's will and save ordinary people.

So in the end, he chose to let Aita destroy his last masterpiece, and he finished it, and it was perfect. Others have something to do with him for a few pence.

The world pursues ideals, which are noble, and the way the world pursues them is vulgar. A few people can turn their backs. No matter whether a teenager becomes famous or a late bloomer, the ideal is always there, but how did you achieve it? Is it above everything else? How many things have you excluded from everything? In this regard, strickland's shining brilliance is something that everyone should worship. Worship does not mean that someone is willing to imitate.

"I think some people are born at a bad time, and accidental fate throws them into a specific environment, but they are always obsessed with a hometown where they don't know where." The last point is just about myself. I feel the same way when I see this sentence. All along, I feel that I don't belong anywhere, and I don't belong to anyone. Even at home, I feel deeply insecure; I don't even know what I am in front of my family. I always feel that somewhere in the world, that's my home, my family. It seems a bit unreasonable and unorthodox, but it's my true feeling. Just as Abraham gave up his official position to become a barefoot doctor in Alexandria, Strickland realized his long-cherished dream in Tahiti. At this time, who can clearly define what success is?

I always feel that I don't belong to my hometown, so on my 18 birthday, the word engraved on the ring is not "love", but "leave". This is my destiny, leaving, looking for and taking root.

Finally, let's end with a passage in the book, "I think only people with great personality will give up their thriving career after only half an hour's consideration after discovering that other lifestyles are more meaningful." Moreover, I never regret taking this step suddenly afterwards, which is even more due to my personality. "