Why did Lu Xun hide a short knife under the pillow? Exposure letter "I often want to commit suicide"

When Lu Xun was studying in Japan, his classmates gave him a short knife under his pillow, which he kept. For a time, my family was very busy. In order to amuse the girls, Lu Xun boasted that he had studied Bushido kung fu in Japan and had done gymnastics with a short knife several times.

The short knife under Lu Xun's pillow

"The bright steel knife under the mattress is an excellent weapon for self-defense. If it is used, it seems that the child is unhappy! "

1On March 2, 925, Lu Xun wrote Passers-by, a black-and-white film with allegorical nature. There are only three characters, the old man, the child and the passerby. My favorite opening subtitles are as follows:

Time, or the dusk of a day. A place, or a place. The old man is about seventy years old, with white hair and a black robe. The girl is about ten years old, with purple hair, black eyes and a white and black plaid robe. Passerby-about thirty or forty years old, in a difficult and stubborn state, with gloomy eyes, black beard and messy hair, wearing tattered black shorts, barefoot wearing a worn-out shoe, and a bamboo pole of the same size hanging beside him in his pocket.

The plot is very concise. If there were not too many dark metaphors hidden behind it, the play would be naive. However, the simpler things are, the more space we have to guess, fill, imagine, think and doubt. In this black-and-white film, the hero has no name and no source. He came to reality from a distant place he didn't know. He asked the way. "Do you know where the front is?" The old man replied, "This is a grave." However, the child replied, "There are many wild lilies and roses there, and I often go to play."

The scenery seen in each era is different, just like old people and children, who have opposite descriptions of the discovery of the world. Passerby is a middle-aged man, who experienced the collapse of the Qing Dynasty, the Revolution of 1911, Yuan Shikai proclaimed himself emperor, the May 4th Movement, the warlord scuffle, the Kuomintang came to power, and the * * * production party appeared. The world has suddenly plunged into unprecedented chaos, so it is realistic to temporarily lose sight of the future, or to have doubts and confusion about the future planned by the government. It is not so much a description of an injured passerby looking for the future as a self-state of Lu Xun.

1925 On May 30th, Lu Xun wrote a letter to Xu Guangping, in which he said, "Is your war of resistance a hope for a bright future? I think it must be so. However, my resistance is nothing more than making trouble in the dark. In my opinion, there are some ambiguities about imps because of the differences in age, experience and environment. This is not surprising. For example, I curse "human suffering" and don't hate "death" because "suffering" can be alleviated and "death" is inevitable. Another example is a letter saying that every death is related to me, and at the same time, I hate everything that has nothing to do with me. But I am just the opposite. Being alive has something to do with me, and I don't trust it. When I die, I actually, my opinion is not easy at present because it contains many contradictions. Teach yourself to speak, otherwise it will be the ups and downs of humanitarianism and individualism. Therefore, I like people and hate people. "

In Selected Works of Lu Xun, only male readers discuss death and love with Li, and only female readers are Xu Guangping.

Xu Guangping read Lu Xun's letter and worried that Lu Xun was afraid of death. Besides, after hearing some rumors in the market, she immediately wrote back and said, "naturally, my husband's opinion is higher than mine, so he is more' different'." However, even if you want to make trouble, you should stay as long as possible. How wonderful it is to defeat the enemy and protect yourself with a bright steel knife under the mattress. If you use it, it seems that the child is unhappy! "

In June 1, 1925 Xu Guangping's reply, Lu Xun finally committed suicide.

The short knife under Lu Xun's pillow was given to him by his classmates when he was studying in Japan, and he has always treasured it. After a quarrel, the Zhou brothers parted ways. First I lived in the courtyard of my sister's house in Zhuanta Hutong, and later I bought a house in Xisan Hutong. For a time, my family was very busy. Lu Xun boasted that he had studied Bushido in Japan. He did some gymnastics with that knife. When I was studying in Japan, there was a gymnastics class at school.

In the year of passers-by, Lu Xun did hurt passers-by and shed blood, but he was not equipped with suitable weapons. He walked forward, into the cemetery, into the thorny future, but dragged his painful body. So Lu Xun said in his letter to Li: "I often want to commit suicide and kill people, but I don't have the courage."

Have no courage to die. So I want to make a comment, which I mentioned more than once in my correspondence with Xu Guangping.

Naturally, that knife was not used to commit suicide.

Lu Xun wrote back the day he received the letter, explaining that it was just a rumor. Because many young students went to Xisan Hutong and Zhuanta Hutong, I don't know who talked about his knife and then left. So Lu Xun hid the knife under the pillow and there were rumors of suicide at any time.

The more false and absurd the speech, the easier it is to spread. Then, in Xu Guangping's ear, it changed completely. Lu Xun had to answer her directly: "I do have a short knife, but only to prevent thieves at night." Occasionally there will be bizarre' rumors' that are not credible. "

What is Lu Xun's real life like? A lonely passerby. /kloc-became a passerby in 0/898, changed his name to Zhou Shuren in Nanjing, and arrived in Japan by boat four years later. After that, he asked for directions many times. Nobody told him what was in front of the grave. It was not until 19 18, by chance, that he wrote Diary of a Madman that the name Lu Xun appeared. However, even if he had a full meal and washed his face for a while, he was quickly dyed black by the dye vat of social reality.

As a passerby, he needs a knife, not to cut himself and commit suicide, but to cut thorns and food on the road. 1925 In May, Lu Xun came to Women's Normal University. As a passer-by, he asked Xu Guangping what was in front of him. Xu Guangping told Lu Xun: "There are many wild lilies and wild roses in front of me. I often go to play. "

Lu Xun set out. He knew that there were graves, countless bones and thorns in front of him. Fortunately, Lu Xun has a short knife under his pillow. Perhaps Mr. Lu Xun wanted to bring this knife into his dream and pierce everything in the dark.

A symbol of Lu Xun's pain

Xu Guangping is smoking now. Teacher Lu Xun went to get wet towels. I saw him run away, very agile.

1June 2, 925, Lu Xun signed the letter to Xu Guangping, leaving only the word "Xun". It seems that the dignified face of the teacher has been washed away, leaving only the identity of ordinary friends, or trying a new name with the help of omitted words. This word omits clumsy eyes, which is a metaphor.

Just look at Xu Guangping's reaction.

In the 27th letter of two books, Xu Guangping's letter to Lu Xun did not show the intimacy he wanted, but he still told jokes in the letter like a child. There are some intimate contents, but the temperature is not enough. Lu Xun used enough torches to warm her before, and she admitted to burning it in her letter. But the temperature in the letter is still a little dull.

After receiving the first reply signed "Xun", Xu Guangping wrote a long reply, which usually means that she went to a college reunion. However, the situation is ridiculous. Students from Beijing University and Normal University argued about who was the boss. In desperation, she had to lead the team of the Women's Normal University back to school. On the way, she suddenly met the headmaster, Yang Yinyu. At that time, Xu Guangping was suddenly burned to death by a group of unknown people and sentenced to "ink punishment". She suddenly shouted "Down with Yang Yinyu", and some of her companions responded. It was not until Yang Yinyu's motorcade ran away trembling that the truth was completely revealed. Although some of them use power for personal gain, they still "enjoy it" in their letters.

In the last letter, Xu Guangping mistakenly thought that someone had opened Lu Xun's letter to her privately. In the letter, he cursed the authorities and said yes, he had reached the point of checking private letters. However, Lu Xun did this. After Lu Xun finished writing, he found that there were still a few words left to write, so he found the letter, opened it, added one or two words and sealed it.

Xu Guangping said in his reply: "When the envelope is ready, it's best to write' the more the better' so as not to arouse the boy's suspicion and bring disaster to Wu Dong. Looking at the first page of the previous letter, I did "add a little detail". In this survey, I was angry after listening to half a sentence. "

"If you have anything to say, you'd better write another letter, the more the better." This naturally means naughty and coquetry, but it does not meet Lu Xun's expectations. Lu Xun imagined the ending as follows: Xu Guangping would jump into his arms with excitement. If so, Lu Xun soon achieved his goal, that is another matter.

In this letter, Xu Guangping also wrote a symbol of depression. The situation at that time was really depressing. The school held a strike because of student riots. President Yang Yinyu resigned, and the provost and the general manager left together. So the school is a mess, so as a result, Lu Xun's weekly lectures at the Women's Normal University naturally do not exist. This is the most depressing thing for Xu Guangping.

She wrote in the letter: "Strike! I don't have a chance to watch Symbol of Depression every week! When will I have the opportunity to solve this trend and attend classes with peace of mind? "

After all, life is not a revolution, and inner enrichment cannot be filled by passion alone. Therefore, the pain will come naturally at any time. The summer heat crawled into the body with the cicada's cry outside the window. Well, doing nothing is boring. After writing the letter, Xu Guangping couldn't wait for Lu Xun's reply, so he was in a hurry. A week later, he wrote another letter. Written after drunkenness, it depicts a tragic life with naughty brushstrokes: "Little kids are soft-hearted and difficult to deal with. Everyone loses his temper every day, not getting drunk. In the long run, he will become a madman! Fortunately, it is humorous and reduces the depression in a lot of humor. This may be the sugar in bitter tea, but it is actually "the amount of bitterness is the same." " "

The exit of depression is drinking. When I was drunk, I wrote an article called "Alcohol Addiction" and sent it to Lu Xun's mailbox.

The wording in the letter is funny: "The Shanghai incident has been bothering me for a long time, so I feel very astringent." I hope to use the titles of' editor' and' sir' and cut it off with my axe. If he has to escape from' White Light' and run to 17, please give him the last place on the red list of Mangyuan 10: "It's my pleasure. Thank you!"

If you only read the books of the two places and don't read other works of Lu Xun, it will be a bit rough to understand here. It is one of Lu Xun's novels White Light, which tells the story of a loser. The protagonist is Chen Shicheng, who took the 16 county exam, but none of them were accepted. So Xu Guangping said that he could escape from the "white light" and enter the Seventeen Harmony, which means that he could be selected by Lu Xun.

If depressed days turn into drinking, it's really young, interesting and happy.

Lu Xun wrote back immediately after receiving the letter. Naturally, it is necessary to appease the loneliness and pain of children. This letter is very long. I made a comparison. The longest of the two books is this reply. This letter was written on the evening of June 1925, and it was five pages long. Lu Xun said in his letter: "There are four articles that could have been finished, and the fifth article has been sent out. It is getting late. It has to end. That's all. Xunzi. On the evening of June 13th. " I thought the signing was over. I think so. No, I thought for a while, but I felt it was a pity that the fifth letter was half empty, and Xu Guangping's pain seemed to be still very strong. So I scribbled a few words and generally discussed the gossip written by a woman.

Although these rumors are not important, complete stationery is not important.

This is exactly what Xu Guangping said: "The more the better". If you send five pages to any woman, you will be branded as a lover.

However, Teacher Lu Xun didn't. In his letter, he only advised Xu Guangping not to be crazy, because in the real world, people with bad temper are always vulnerable. Mr. Wang is naturally worried that Xu Guangping will suffer.

Caring about Xu Guangping's troubles is a typical feature of this letter. After some gossip, he returned to Xu Guangping's distress: "Some young people in China are too eager for success, so it is hard to bear, and it is easy to hit the nail on the head and lose their temper.

Yes, don't worry, take your time, even if you have love in your heart. Lu Xun didn't say anything ambiguous in these five pages. When Xu Guangping reached out his lonely hand for comfort, Lu Xun left slowly. After the course, I lost the opportunity to stand on the podium. But stationery was used as a platform, and five pieces of paper didn't finish the digression. This course hasn't started either.

Depression continues, like smoke from an extinguished fire. If you are far away and can't smell your breath, you can only see beautiful shadows without frowning. If you are surrounded by this kind of smoke and have difficulty breathing, all good things will be lost.

Xu Guangping is smoking now. Teacher Lu Xun went to get wet towels. I saw him run away, very agile.

If you love a woman, you will run faster. What's the point of getting her a wet towel?

Excerpts from Scream and In Zhao Yu, published by Wuhan Publishing House in September 2009.