What kind of experience is it to secretly love someone for more than ten years?

Secret love is just a very painful thing. I like someone, but I dare not confess for various reasons. I like him, but I can only keep him in my heart. This feeling is extremely painful. In my opinion, he may be the most unbearable pain for a person in this world.

? I have liked him for many years, and I have always kept him in my heart. I once had a crush on a boy. He is young and handsome. He plays basketball, guitar and sings well. He is a male god in the eyes of many girls, and receiving love letters is a daily necessity. I like him, but I just don't have the courage to tell him, for fear that he will refuse me, which may not even be possible for our friends.

Second, in order not to let him see it, I tried to suppress my emotions. I thought I could give up my love for him by suppressing myself. However, with more and more contact with him, I like him more and more, so I began to avoid him and find various reasons not to see him. At first, he was confused. He thought he made me angry, so he bought me snacks in various ways. I felt the scene was out of control, so I stopped hiding.

3. I am angry to see others confess to him. Once, I prepared an activity plan with him. Suddenly, a girl came to him to confess. This girl is very beautiful and gentle. She stood in the crowd, and the boy I like didn't even give him a corner. At that time, the boy I liked didn't reject him directly, but said, I have to think about it. At that moment, I had the guts? Your house is falling down? I went to drink alone that night, and my friend called him to pick me up. Seeing him, I put down all my reserve, grabbed him by the collar and told him, you know, I like you and wrote you hundreds of letters. I thought he would be afraid. Unexpectedly, he said calmly, I knew it long ago, just waiting for you to have the courage to tell me face to face.