When I was a child, I didn't like my mother at all.

Text / Aunt

01

When I was a child, I didn’t like my mother at all. I thought she was stingy, utilitarian and nagging.

Even if you quarrel with her, you will never win.

At that age, what adults say is the truth.

First of all, I lost a lot of momentum. In addition, the logic is not systematic, and it is easy to fall into my mother's sophistry.

And she took it as a matter of course that she was "for your own good", and she easily conquered the immature me.

For example, I asked her not to read my diary and not to invade my privacy.

She said, "I gave birth to you, and there is nothing I can't see."

For another example, I asked her not to dislike my friends and not to judge them by their grades. them.

She said, "You hang out with these bad students all day long! How can your studies not be affected?"

I was so angry that I vowed to never talk to her again. The next second she was called out to eat.

The only chance she had to resist was during the Chinese New Year, when her relatives asked her whether she liked her father or mother.

"I like my father, but I don't like my mother. My mother is so cruel!"

This sentence is really fatal, and its destructive power is no less than dropping an atomic bomb in her heart.

Because her expression changed immediately, she barely ate the whole meal, and rolled up her sleeves to settle accounts after returning home.

She called me heartless and a white-eyed wolf, but she couldn't help being a simple child who "told the truth", so she lost her temper with her father who was away on business all year round.

"I can't live anymore! I am in charge of this family! You don't care! You don't want this family to be good!"

She couldn't bear such grievance, so much so that In the joyous festival, I cried until I was out of breath.

"I don't like my mother" is her destiny. To this day, I have only said it twice.

02

The second time was when I was sixteen years old.

My mother dropped the disc I bought secretly. Not only did she break the plastic cover, but she also trampled the faces printed on it to pieces.

We were both furious, eager to stab each other in the heart.

She lost this time, her body was shaking violently, and her lips were trembling so much that she could not speak.

Because I said, I don’t want to be her child at all, why is she my mother? If I have a choice, I must choose an aunt I like.

A long, long time later, when I was called "Auntie" by a kid on the bus, I realized how cunning my dad was. He avoided almost all the contradictions in the first half of my life.

For example, you have cavities and want to eat sweets, you are afraid of leg pressure in dance classes, you don’t want to go to class after holidays, you steal family money to treat guests, etc.

My mother spent all these development points related to physical health and personality quality with me. She played the bad part and the bad part by herself.

After saying harsh words, he wanted to cook for me again, "Eat more vegetables, you will be constipated."

And my dad only needs to take me when he comes back. Eating KFC, carrying my luggage and waving my hands every few days, you can gain all my admiration and love.

Sure enough, there is a reason why KFC has not closed down. All the children love it, and I guess I will also love it when I am 50 years old.

03

The video “What is Page” hit the screen today.

A grandfather who lives far away in the countryside is looking forward to his children and grandchildren coming home for the New Year, so he goes out of his way to find out what his grandson’s favorite Peppa Pig is.

There were a lot of jokes. Some people said that Page was a female internet celebrity, some said that Page was their own name, and some said that Page was a hair conditioner.

Finally, it was found out that Peppa Pig is the protagonist of the cartoon.

A (hairdryer) pig, her father is a pig, her mother is a pig, and her brother is also a pig.

Later, the grandfather actually made a Peppa Pig out of parts and iron sheets and gave it to his grandson.

Many people commented that they cried after watching it, wanted to go home for the New Year, and missed their grandparents.

And I miss my mother, even though I only saw her in the morning.

After the fatal stabbing at the age of 16, we didn’t speak for a long time. She treated me as a transparent person and never looked at me.

She would rather admit seeing a ghost than admit seeing me.

I even feel that I no longer have a mother. She will hate me forever, and she will win over my father and make him dislike me.

Since high school is a boarding school, I have to attend evening self-study on weekends. I was very happy when I returned to school and could finally breathe freely.

As soon as the bell rang, others took out the main subject homework from their schoolbags, and I took out a... new CD.

What the hell? Where did it come from?

Okay, let’s be honest, I liked Fahrenheit in high school.

I buy them all, including notebooks, stickers, and photo cards, even if I don’t eat.

I saved the money for the disc my mother broke by drinking dew in a month.

When she stepped on it, I felt heartache secondly and stomachache mainly.

So this disc reflects my sincerity? Come back to the light? The broken mirror is reunited?

I was staring at "Fahrenheit" in a daze throughout the evening self-study.

Real or fake? Who has a crush on me and is willing to spend such a large sum of money on me?

Two conclusions were drawn.

The bad thing is: no one has a crush on me.

The good thing is: my mother still likes me.

04

She decided to reconcile, but she still felt awkward.

On the one hand, I feel like how can I apologize to the child, and on the other hand, I feel like the child doesn’t apologize to me.

On the surface, she was knitting sweaters as if nothing had happened, but she was actually brainstorming "how to please people without losing face."

She was not good at multitasking, and accidentally knitted her collar high. , Oh, my daughter doesn’t like the high collar, so I took it off.

She remembered a strange three-letter word.

So at night when her daughter was sleeping, she quietly sneaked into her room, turned on her desktop computer, and typed:

"What is Fahrenheit?"

"How to sell Fahrenheit?"

Just like in "What is Peppa Pig", the old man who inquired around finally proudly moved out the "hair dryer" made by a novice in front of his grandson.

She finally stuffed "Fahrenheit" into her daughter's schoolbag without anyone noticing.

I was lying on the balcony watching my daughter carrying it and jumping to catch a ride.

On Wednesday, she received a call from her class teacher. It was from her daughter. She wanted to get a higher pillow from home, but the one at school was a bit low.

And...

"I saw the disc."

"Do you like it?"

"Always like it."

05

“I’m talking about you.

"

"It's you. ”

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