Aaha Kalyanam

D is my wedding planner. Her wedding company is really great. From wedding planning to wedding dress design, even the floral arrangement is perfect and can't be picky.

My receptionist Xiao Liu said that Mrs. D, as the boss, spared no effort to participate in every detail of the wedding client. Therefore, every month, she only receives a couple of newcomers. Mrs. d's purpose is not to make money, but to hope that every couple can have the most perfect wedding.

What a pure idea, I admire Mrs. D from the bottom of my heart. So I'm especially glad that I can choose her wedding company to host my own wedding.

It is not because of whose wife she is that she is called Mrs. D. Actually, I've never met her husband. I've been wondering why there is no host to help her with so many complicated things except employees. Xiao Liu, who has worked in this company for 10 years, told me privately that Mrs. D has always had the final say in the wedding company. As for whether she was married or not, no one really knows.

Don't doubt Mrs. D's appearance. She is the most delicate and gentle woman I have ever seen. However, why is such a woman still lonely? It's really puzzling.

Today is the day to choose a wedding ring. My husband and I made an appointment to leave the company and go to Mrs. D's shop separately. Yes, even the wedding ring is custom-made, and we are going to give it to her. Mrs. D has customized resources for European jewelry, and has shown me several unique wedding ring designs with considerable cost performance before. My husband and I are very satisfied with several of them. Today's past is the final choice.

As soon as the car passed the intersection, I slammed on the brakes. What appeared in front of me was not a red light, but a gentleman kissing a lady. He was flushed, half open and half closed, and very intoxicated. Yes, this is the expression on his face every time he kisses. Once I secretly opened my eyes and admired the way he kissed. He is half blind and has a pious face.

I want to jump out of the car at once, rush over and punch his fist hard and blow his face off. But the car behind is already honking its horn desperately. I had no choice but to step on the gas pedal and pass by them.

My mind went blank and I kept asking myself if I was wrong. That man is not a gentleman, but that half-baked expression, like lettering, lingers in my mind.

What shall we do? Should I call him and ask him? Does he still want to get married? When did he start?

Mobile phone music suddenly interrupted my thoughts.

It's Mrs. D.

"Hey, Vita, I'm sorry. Today-I may not choose the ring. "

"Are you crying?"

I didn't realize that my words were full of tears, and my vision became blurred.

"I'm sorry-Mrs. D, I really can't come today."

"..." She was silent, and I was about to hang up. She said, "Miss Chen, I'm sorry, maybe it's impolite to ask, but please come to the store today."

"D too-"

"If it is not convenient for you, it doesn't matter. Please tell me where you are, and I will come to you now! "

I don't understand her insistence on meeting. However, at the moment, I am utterly confused. Indeed, I don't know where to go or what to do without a companion. Maybe, I will kill people!

"Well, I'll go to the store now."

Pushing open the door, I didn't expect that it was time to go to work, and there was no one in the shop.

D invited me into her private lounge too early and was not prepared enough. A pot of scented tea and a stack of delicate biscuits and chocolates have been prepared inside. There is a faint smell of essential oil in the room. At sixes and sevens mood seems to be instantly smoothed by one hand.

She poured me a cup of flower and fruit tea and handed it to me.

"Have a drink first, and then, can you listen to me tell a story?"

I nodded and took a sip of hot tea. The fragrance of flowers and fruits impacts the taste buds.

"You all call me Mrs. D, but as you know, I have no husband."

I smiled awkwardly. Yes, people who come here to attend the wedding will probably be curious about D's past.

"Yes, I'm really not married. D is my first boyfriend. " She tilted her head and frowned, looking like a confused girl. "Oh, no, it's a bit self-righteous to say that the first love is actually a childhood friend who grew up with me. He has never been my boyfriend. "

Mrs. d still carefully observe whether my mood is stable, and then continue to speak.

"D is my friend who grew up together. When my parents bought a wedding room, D's parents were also newly married and moved. The two families were pregnant at the same time and were born in the same hospital, so it's not surprising that we were ordered to get married early. But, ah, I am a clumsy person. What childhood friends, childhood friends, always feel particularly rustic. Besides, he is a coward. I was bullied by my senior classmates when I was a child. Don't look at me like that. When I was a child, I was a big sister. I am not afraid of anyone when fighting. " When she spoke, she giggled, as if something interesting from the past had come back to her eyes.

"I often help him. Sometimes, he took my hand and cried and begged me not to be so tough and not to cause him more new troubles. But I wouldn't listen. Although, I didn't think I liked him at that time. But perhaps because I grew up together, I always felt that I had an obligation to protect him. So his situation at school became more and more embarrassing, and he was even ridiculed as a soft meal. I know he is unhappy, but I am happy! Because, I think I am cool and stylish. I even said to myself, great, let him hate it, so that my parents won't mention that silly doll kiss again. "

"But, the really stupid person is actually me. I am so proud only because I'm sure he likes me. In fact, I have been secretly thinking about it for a long time. He actually likes me very much, but he has been silently suppressing me because he is afraid that he will be rejected and lose me. He actually likes me very much, so he doesn't want to be protected by me, because in his heart he really wants to be the one who protects me. He must like me, so he can't do anything to embarrass him. He loves me and hates me, or he loves me enough not to hate me. Because, every time he sees me, he is still so gentle and kind. I can never say a harsh word. "

"Does he love you?" I asked.

"We have been together for more than ten years. If a boy likes you for more than ten years, how can he hold back and not reveal a word? " Her smile is so helpless and sad, and her gentle eyes are full of sadness. "Men and women are different. If your relationship is so close and he likes you, he will definitely let you know that he is willing to swear to the world about your sovereignty, not as repressive or ambiguous as you think. That is the reality. The kind of man we misunderstand is probably only found in TV dramas or novels. Or he doesn't love you at all. "

"How can you be sure of this?"

"Because he soon got a girl with a completely different attitude." D came to an abrupt end. It was so sudden. She looked at the hot flower and fruit tea in front of her, lost in thought, as if lost in endless painful memories. "I'm sorry," she continued, smiling apologetically.

"She is his classmate. I always thought he was a cowardly boy. But in front of her, he is actually more like a man than anyone else. It turns out that he is not shy at all. He can play love songs for her in the auditorium of ten thousand people regardless of the teachers and students of the whole school. It turns out that he is still good at fighting. In order to protect her from harassment, he can beat up four hooligans, even though his arm was cut off in the end. "

"You know what? I didn't know how much I liked him until I saw him at school that day. He was surrounded by four hooligans and tried his best to make Saburo. My heart hurts. The reason for the pain is not because he desperately strives for other girls, but because he can't deal with those vicious hooligans alone. That day, I also rushed up to help him. Regardless of the danger of the other side having a knife. It turns out that I have always been protecting him with this mentality. However, I thought so ridiculously that I wanted him to hate him and get rid of this young marriage. "

"Sometimes, people are stupid and don't understand their feelings. Girls are always thin-skinned. I dare not admit who I like easily. Always find various reasons to deny such feelings. On the other hand, he tried to find the details of the clue and told himself, yes, how much he likes you. "

"D is too-"I can't bear to listen to it. She obviously has such a peaceful tone, but she seems to hear the sound of her inner split.

"But when I figured it out, I found it was too late. He finally won the girl's heart in that battle. And I managed to get rid of the shackles of young marriage. But I began to fantasize that his parents would interfere in this relationship. They clearly said I was their daughter-in-law. But I was wrong again. From beginning to end, I was the only one who took jokes like early marriage seriously. His parents warned him to study hard when he was in love. Fortunately, the girl he likes is the top student in the school, so this puppy love has not been stifled. My parents have a new topic to make fun of him. It seems that I am the only one in the world who takes it for granted to be with him. It turns out that this agreement is just a joke. But I have been serious for so many years. "

"Later, because he had a girlfriend, our relationship was no longer so close. I retreated from walking next to him to walking behind them. Slowly, I don't want to go with them. Their relationship is getting better and better, and they plan to enter the same university. The closer they get, the more my heart feels stabbed. It hurts too much, but this kind of pain can't be said and can't be known to anyone. I can only hide, farther away from them. I chose an excellent school far away from him. I study like crazy. I want to be a better girl than his girlfriend. I want to go to a better school than them. I want to prove that his choice is wrong. But this is still my wishful thinking. What if my school is better than theirs? He just gave me some blessings and congratulations, and happily went to the new school with his girlfriend. Only then did I know that he could not see this contrast except myself. Because of love, she is the best. Whatever he does, he loves. And I, no matter how excellent and perfect, am just a neighbor, the child of others in my parents' mouth. "

"Did they finally get together?" I asked softly.

"Well, still married. It was the first time that he called me after we separated for many years. Asked me to have a wedding banquet. But I heard some concerns on his phone. I asked him what happened, and he said that he wanted to give the girl a perfect wedding, but in the process of preparing for the wedding, they always had various differences. He is afraid that he will break up because of these trivial things. You see-he's never worried about quarreling with me. This is a proof that a man loves and doesn't love. But even so, I quit my job and flew to him. I told him I would be the wedding planner. He was surprised at first and disagreed. Later, I talked to their husband and wife very seriously and finally agreed to this matter. "

"It's cruel of you to plan a wedding for someone you like." I'm panting.

"Because from that moment on, I knew I should never get married. I planned the wedding for them wholeheartedly, but I thought to myself, well, this is a wedding planned for us. At first, I thought this process would be very painful. But it seems not. I pay more attention to every detail than the bride, including her wedding dress, bouquet and diamond ring. I try my best to find the best. The bride was very moved and thought that he had the best friend in the world, but she didn't know my selfishness. You see, she doesn't even notice my selfishness. He must have reassured her, so she wouldn't doubt my selfishness. It turned out that I was so completely abandoned by him. "

"The day before the wedding, I secretly went to the wedding reception. Wearing the bride's wedding dress and holding the bride's bouquet. I close my eyes. Humming the wedding March. I walked step by step to the center of the stage and held him in my arms. Say an oath. I finished reciting the vows I wrote for them, and then I opened the ring. I put a carefully selected diamond ring on myself, but I froze when I put it on him. I hung there with the ring. What shall we do? I just want to have a wedding with him in my heart before their wedding. However, the fake is fake after all. I can pretend to wear a wedding dress, I can pretend to walk the red carpet, I can pretend to say my wedding vows, and I can pretend to put a wedding ring on myself. But how can I pretend to put a ring on him? That male ring can only fall to the ground. If he is not here, he is not here. He doesn't love me, he just doesn't love me. I can't lie to myself no matter how much I lie to myself in my heart. Even for a second. "

My tears can't stop. Mrs. d is still so calm. However, I seem to see a girl curled up in the corner and slowly broken. Because she can't love the boy she loves. She couldn't even fool herself with an imaginary wedding, and it broke down slowly. But even so, she still calls herself Mrs. D. She knows that she will never be D's wife. Therefore, she also fantasizes about deceiving herself with a name. Is this the reason why she insisted on living?

"So, you carefully planned each couple's wedding. You plan every wedding with him, right? " I asked.

"I'm really sorry." D laughs too much. "The thing is. Otherwise, I don't know how to have the courage to live. Every time I plan a wedding for a couple, I do it as a happy thing. Because it's a dream that I can't realize no matter how hard I try. Man, love is not everything. I can't die because I can't love someone. But I can't learn to love another person. Therefore, I always want to do one thing and give myself a reason to live. For myself and for my family. "

"D too ..."

"I heard you crying on the phone today. I don't know what happened with you and your husband. But I just hope you can calm down and really face your feelings with your husband. Maybe you will take marriage for granted. But in fact, maybe some people, because they can't combine with you, have been silently enduring the pain of emotional disability all their lives. Therefore, please face the practical problems of this relationship instead of making any decisions impulsively. "

"I, I today-"

"Miss Chen, you don't have to tell me your privacy." She stood up. "I have something to do. You can have a rest here and say goodbye. " She left the room and I heard her footsteps coming downstairs.

I took a deep breath. Think back to my relationship with my husband. Maybe it's because our relationship is so smooth that we take marriage for granted. Have we really decided that each other is a lifelong choice? If I'm sure, is he so sure?

I dialed the telephone.

"Hey, it's me-"

"I'm sorry, Mrs. D., this wedding has bothered you, spent so much thought, and finally made you busy in vain." I bent down with regret.

"Don't say so, Miss Chen. Marriage is a serious matter. If your hearts are not so sure about each other, you can't keep going. After all, the perfect wedding is just a formality. The belief in my heart is the answer. "

"Well, we take it for granted that we are self-righteous, but it is not so easy to be sure." I smiled, "Mrs. D, I will definitely come to you again. Next time, I will definitely come to you. "

"Good," she nodded with a smile. "I will also create a perfect wedding for you."