The right kind of love is love, the wrong kind of love is youth

The writing seems to have stopped working. It has been a long time since my fingertips were active. Recently, I started to feel itchy after watching many movies about youth.

Regarding puberty and love, I am simply tired (you read that right, tired). It's true that I said, my woman has died long ago, the person has died, and the account is ruined. There were long and dark days, when everything was really not going well. (Speaking as if I have experienced a lot, speaking as if I have emerged from the darkness...). If you work too hard and care too much, evil elements from all over the world will come to snatch you. After a struggle, you will lose it, leaving deep scars.

Let me first describe the legendary sacred secret love experience. In the first grade of junior high school, there were four rows in the middle of the classroom. The boy sitting next to me had excellent grades, excellent handwriting, and an awesome look in his eyes. Super handsome, every time he finished writing the calligraphy, my eyes couldn't see the Qianzi. I didn't know what happened, and the roaring waves washed over them hard. They staggered and staggered, but they kept holding hands. The table was full of clouds. Qiao Chu's mother asked her to go back, but she refused. The two of them quarreled on the phone, put down the phone and cried. I hugged her, and my heart was as sharp as a knife. I really hope I can give her the best. life." Dark clouds. I still remember that he was extremely venomous. Our daily interactions with him were nothing more than attacking and humiliating each other. Of course, when we had the same hatred and the same enemy, there was a kind of tacit understanding that you really understand me so well.

I don’t know if anyone has watched "Secret Garden". He is just like Jin Zhuyuan in it, arrogant, conceited, and indeed has his own capital. I like his "so what if you don't like me" attitude. Well, to be honest, I like him just because he is handsome. I really don’t want to admit that this pretty boy Naisheng was the person I liked when I was a child. It seems that I am no longer superficial!

Even though I have liked him for a long time, I never expected him to like me. I just hoped that he would not like others. In the second grade of junior high school, a girl was transferred to the class. She was transferred from another town. She had big eyes, a tall figure, and a refined temperament. She was gaudy, casual, and casual. Everything she wore would give off a holy halo. The boys must be roaring in their hearts, "Goddess, please accept me." What has something to do with me is that she and I became roommates.

I really want to talk to the teacher at that time. You squeezed a goddess and an ugly girl together and made me listen to the troubles of beautiful women every day. Teacher, if children with low psychological quality have gone to see Oh my god!

Before I was 19, I never cared about dressing up. Wearing it every day can be summed up in three words: retarded, explosive, and invisible. And my deskmate, at that time, looked exactly like the one in the idol drama. Focus the camera on the two of us, and I will be the cannon fodder. (Yang Jiaming, the voice of "Er Quan Ying Yue", has a very wealthy father. Ten years ago, his father divorced his first wife, married a young woman, and soon had a younger son. After that, Yang Jiaming and his father seldom However, not long ago, his father found him again. It turned out that his youngest son had died, and the Yang family's property needed an heir. No one would be unmoved by the property that came to his door, so Yang Jiaming decided. Returning to his father. But his father had a requirement that Yang Jiaming would only have inheritance rights after he got married. But since Yang Jiaming witnessed his mother being abandoned, he had been thinking about not getting married, and he came up with an idea: Since marriage is necessary, why not find a girl to complete this task together in a cooperative manner? Of course, the condition is that the other party not only accepts property notarization before marriage, but also accepts family economic AA system after marriage. Certificate, they don’t even have half a dime of relationship. 乐)

The saddest thing is that the male god only spent ten seconds in this place with green mountains and green waters, and a couple moved from Jintan City. The couple who came here have been "reclusive" here for nearly three years. The husband’s name is Xu Jianguo, he is 55 years old this year, and his wife Xu Guomei is 4 years younger than her husband. They raise chickens and grow vegetables here, and live a happy life. Zhong, fell in love with my deskmate, and I must have been an unknown object in his impression for so long. It turns out that the reason why he is so cold and venomous is because he has not met her yet.

Once, he told a joke to the goddess. The goddess was suffering from a cold at the time, and when she smiled, huge snot bubbles appeared. The scene was extremely embarrassing, and I was a little secretly happy (I am quite obscene). Thinking about it, the boys must have become disillusioned by now. Then I heard him say to the goddess, you are so cute! Damn it. *** I, before this, did not understand the true meaning of life: as long as you have good looks, you can be forgiven for anything, and everything can be turned into nutrients. It is said that he confessed his love to her, and then the prince and the princess were happily together? Please beg me, I will tell you... (let me pretend to cry first!), I can only lock myself into the white lotus or green tea bitch in my youth, and in the end I will become a passerby. When they were in the third grade of junior high school, they were no longer the same. They met at the foot of Namjagbarwa Peak, the most beautiful mountain in China. After that, they gave up their original lives, both quit their jobs, and spent 40,000 yuan in 10 months to travel across Asia for 18 years. country. They went out to see this lonely world together like a couple of gods. They said: "The most beautiful life is not controlled by elders or prescribed by society. It is when you stand up for yourself bravely, gently overthrow the world, and change the world." "Become ours." Class and high school are different schools. All the stories come from hearing...

Later, all the emotions will fade away in the undercurrent of time. I secretly made up my mind, I will never like someone who doesn't like me again. uh-huh.

When we met again, it was during the college entrance examination, and he was at the table behind me. Damn it, why is this guy the guy I've liked for so long? He's short and lackluster, with a sea of ??beans on his face, and he pretends to be very familiar with me. I want to be quiet. I once thought it was the vast sea, but I didn’t know it wasn’t dark clouds covering my eyes.

Interspersed with a paragraph, it is not that no one has liked me. I think that many people admire me because my composition is very good. (I’m sure it’s not me!) There is a person who carefully studies my diaries, weekly diaries, essays, and novels every time. He said, you can definitely be a writer in the future. Once, a classmate made a joke about my name, saying that my name had a weird pronunciation in the local dialect, so he chose an even weirder homophony. Throughout the year, everyone knew that there was a person named qun (fourth tone) xiang second tone) , this name followed me to college, drunkenly.

By the way, who are you talking about just now? When did I start collecting information about what he likes? When Mr. Su spoke, he was really emotional and his eyes were red. Zhou fell silent. Mr. Su continued: "This reopening, we deliberately made it a little bit public, and may even be considered too outrageous by the outside world, including journalist friends. However, I don't care. We hold this event, which is half hotel, half For our employees, especially our heroes. Don’t you want to know who plays this emperor? He is not me, nor is he a celebrity boss. He is an excellent employee. Now, please let me know who is the most respectable person. The best staff emperor actor this hotel has ever seen makes his grand entrance! "My proof. I accidentally said that I hate the smell of cigarettes, and he quit. One time in class, my deskmate and I were watching "Story Club". At that time, we regarded "Story Club" as a pornographic article. When I saw the main part, the book fell down and fell behind my desk. The teacher was very angry and asked, who reads extracurricular books in class? who? This teacher's teaching skills are first-rate, but he is also extremely fierce. He is particularly good at personal attacks and can scold you until you cry. As a man, I rarely say "I love you" from the bottom of my heart. It is either forced by the situation or I want something else. I guess there are very few men who can guarantee that they can say this. I have been waiting for you to contact me. Me, but you never found me. During that time, I often inquired about your news. I know that you are not a heavy drinker or smoker like at your sister's house. When writing a word, it is not dry. But women are emotional creatures, and they like to listen even if they are dry. All illusions will eventually be shattered, including the mirages once built with sweet words. It may not take long for women to understand that, to a greater extent, "I love you" is a tool rather than an emotional bond that can sustainably increase in value. Aihe yelled at me? Aihe spent the whole night drinking and sleeping? Aihe lied to me? Forget it, that's not love. Shi was so frightened that he peed, even imagining the situation of being tortured to death.

Just when I was thinking about the top ten tortures of the Qing Dynasty, he stood up and directly admitted that he had watched it. They were divided into different classes, and he was in the regular class. He "Senior Zhou...Zhou Yun!" sent me a sketch. I thought it was the most beautiful thing in the world. He liked to write me letters (not love letters.) and my replies became his biography.

At that time, we seemed to have to listen to the school leaders’ instructions every other day, and many times their class was right next to ours. Maybe when you like someone, your eyes have built-in GPS. No matter how many people there are, you can always find them in one second. He said in his letter that he can see me hugging the girl in front of him every time. One day, I heard a piece of news that he liked a girl, exactly my name, it was over. While blaming him, I felt secretly happy. I actually don't know what my feelings are for him. I am very confused, should I tell him that I already know that he likes me? And then...

Until one night in the first half of my freshman year, he sent a message: You are so smart, you should know that I have always liked you...

Sophomore year After it was over, I went to their school to find him.

I knew he was the one from a distance (he was too tall and conspicuous). Outside the basketball court, I saw a girl standing next to him. He handed her a box of bear biscuits. The girl naturally Take it and get ready to eat the biscuits. Her hair fell down, covering her face. He naturally reached over and helped her tuck her hair behind her ears. Later I found out that this girl was a schoolgirl he met online and had been chasing him for a long time. Later, I received a call from this little girl who is three years younger than me. She said that she could not live without him. She said that she gave it to him for the first time. She said that as long as I quit, they would be happy... (I also suspected that it was I'm filming a TV series, so I'm wearing the wrong set).

As arrogant as I am, I never ask, it doesn’t matter why. I have heard many jokes about planning a future together. He is indeed a warm man, he said that he just feels guilty towards her. However, if there is no egg, what does it have to do with me? Even if I think of it, it is only in the past. Some people will say that not fighting for it is cowardly, but many times I must have weighed whether it was worth it. It may also be that I am not confident and rarely deny others, but I deny myself.

Later, I also started working, and after hitting the wall countless times like a headless fly, I also understood why I stayed in Hangzhou. Was it because I met Ye and continued my history of blood and tears. Ye is the only person I have ever felt that I have zero quotient. He has a scholarly appearance, gentlemanly manners, just the right amount of sweet words, a high income, a good family background, and a well-educated appearance. What I like more is his carefulness and gentleness (emphasis added) Music from "Damn Tender"). I said that he liked me because he had aesthetic cancer, and he said that it would never be cured. 5 I thought he was the right person who could see my dark side and was willing to circle around me to see my shining side. I never thought it would be a catastrophe.

Maybe every girl can’t stand the gentle offensive. He is a very meticulous and romantic person. The only consolation of this love is probably enjoying the beauty of me making trouble and him laughing

That night, I suddenly had two more movie tickets in my pocket. I looked sideways and saw that Ye's profile was slender and delicate, with a proud smile. The movie is very good, but I didn't watch it very seriously. I felt distracted when I smelled the unique and pleasant smell on his body. I can feel that he is always looking at me. A few days later, when I was in my clothes, he was only sixteen years old, and his parents were killed by a sudden shell after they finished making steamed buns. He had nothing on him except ten steamed buns left by his parents. There are two more movie tickets in my pocket. It was still this cycle, this kind of date, which actually lasted for a month.

There are also plots in the story: the boy said: "Close your eyes", the girl closed her eyes, and the boy kissed the girl.

While watching "Tiny Times", he said: "It would be great if you let your hair grow this long! You must be more beautiful than any of them." After that, he asked me to carry it on my shoulder Climbing straight up, I stretched my hair with my hands and said, "Look, your head is like this." Xu Xiaonian answered the question quickly: "Girls who frown age quickly, don't you know?" "The hair only reaches the shoulder blades." But until we broke up, I didn't have long hair that reached my waist.

In fact, there are many more beautiful things in my memory: he was responsible for shelling and I was responsible for eating; he sang and I told jokes, and he sat with me on the bus for a long time; when I was angry, he would also act pitiful to make me happy; it was raining heavily. He drove more than forty minutes to see me, and every time he would buy me a lot of snacks and put them in my room! Maybe the party boss knew about it! The adjutant asked, and the boss shook his head. When Miss Ouyang could not be found, Qian Dajun lost interest in dancing and had to leave the ballroom angrily. In the room; when it got cold, he bought clothes and hung them quietly in my closet; he held the mousse tray in his hands and used it as a small table for me, and I ate it with a fork in full view of everyone. Maybe love is always ups and downs, all-encompassing, and we don't know that we will become strangers to each other later.

He doesn't believe that I believe in him, and I probably really don't believe in him.

"I really loved you, but now I no longer feel love for you. You know what I want is love, and I know what you want more is marriage. So we should calm down for a while. "When he said this, I realized that some people can be very gentle and cruel. Men don't take the initiative to break up, they are better at forcing girls to say it.

My colleagues have always said that I can’t hold him, which is a true prophecy.

"Did the leaves leave because of the wind's pursuit or the tree's unwillingness to stay?" For Ye, I really want to blame him, but in love, we have all done such stupid things more or less. Because you like someone, you will be extra friendly to everything related to him. Because I never learned to love and be loved, I couldn't grasp the boundaries. I can only tell myself that it’s okay. Youth means: you can afford to lose. Even when we are hurt, we never lose the ability to love again. Time flies by, and I don’t know if I can still wait for someone who believes in me, stays with me, and loves me, but I still believe that there is still true love in this world. The past remains dormant in memory, just like the slogan of a movie: Right love is love, wrong love is youth.

Youth Love