I am a procrastinator

Have you ever heard of the term procrastinator? It is the hopeless way to carry the lazy cancer to the end. I have been suffering from procrastination for many years, and this is the case during this time. I slept late at night and felt cold and sleepy in the morning, not wanting to get out of the warm bed. I really couldn’t sleep, so I would just sit under the covers and update every day. When I couldn’t continue writing, I would read other people’s articles, and then go to the headlines.

Since joining the literary exchange group, Toutiao’s daily updates have been relegated to the sidelines. The number of fans has dropped from more than 2,000 to 1,800. I wrote a micro headline about this matter, and unexpectedly some fans liked it and gave me a friendly reminder: Daily updates are like sailing against the current, if you don’t advance, you will retreat.

This is not an exaggeration at all. The fans I finally gained little by little have left me because of my laziness and procrastination day by day.

Likewise, I was on the list some time ago and I was greatly encouraged. The daily updates are more than 1,000 words. After insisting on it for a few days, I suddenly felt confused that "I have exhausted all my talents". Why did I keep writing about things related to myself? It seemed that what I wrote was not articles but diaries.

As a result, I became less active in daily updates. I looked at the time at the end of each day while rushing to write. It happened that my son was making trouble at this time. One moment he asked for water, and the other moment he called me to tuck him in.

I can't help but feel a little anxious and impatient in doing things. My son asked me: What do you do during the day instead of writing? Do you have to wait until now? Besides, is it important to me that you update your articles?

Of course not as important as you. I said, but I can't send it out before twelve o'clock today. Without daily updates, all the previous persistence will be wasted.

The most typical example of my procrastination is to think about one thing in my mind and say "I have to go to the supermarket to buy a bag of rice in the afternoon", "I have to exercise tomorrow", "I want to write a novel" every day ” and other such words.

I said today that I will definitely not go today, and I will not do it tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. So when will we wait? When I wanted to make rice at noon one day, there was not a grain of rice at home, there was not enough salt in the bag to stir-fry a dish, and the soup was ready without a drop of sesame oil. I went to the bathroom and found no paper. We really can't delay it any longer now. If we delay it any longer, the couple will have to fight. Fortunately, there is a store at the entrance of the community. You don't have to go far, just buy it first and use it.

Lao Zhang said: It’s okay for you to procrastinate when you’re a family. But if someone comes to your family one day and you don’t have what you want, people don’t know and think you’re not willing to entertain them? You are not procrastinating, you are brainless.

I completely agree with Comrade Lao Zhang’s objective evaluation of me. I feel a little unhappy, but I have to endure it. With all my conscience, I swear that I am a warm and hospitable person, and I will never do anything to make people feel indifferent. I'm just a procrastinator to the point of being hopeless.

Later, every time Lao Zhang went to the supermarket after work, he almost had to move the supermarket, and the 100-square-meter house was packed everywhere. After that, I didn’t forget to sarcastically say, “I’ve bought everything. Let’s see what else you can delay in the future.”

The other thing is that I want to write novels. I had this idea many years ago and wrote a lot on paper. Now that we have mobile phones, writing is so convenient, but I feel timid. I am afraid that no one will read my writing, I am afraid that people will laugh at my poor writing, I am afraid that I will not be able to persevere and it will end up being nothing. So I put it off again and again, and until now there is still no progress.

There is a saying that goes well. It’s not that you can’t write because you don’t know how to write. What you lack is just the courage to write and send it out.

I sincerely admire those writers who update thousands or even all of them every day. Even if I didn’t sleep for 24 hours a day, I still wouldn’t be able to achieve such results. In the Xiaozhu Shenmo advanced group, I feel so envious when I see so many friends enthusiastically creating high-quality articles every day!

Especially our group leader, Ms. Congrong, published 233 articles in 54 days. To me, such an amazing speed is like a god. I'm afraid that a mindless procrastinator like me won't be able to reach that level in my lifetime. Although in my heart I also dream of becoming someone like her one day. You have to have dreams, what if you succeed! What do you think?

As I am about to bid farewell to 2021, I am another year older.

Although I once vowed to say it, can I still achieve it with my procrastinating mentality? Will I really regret it one day when my eyes and ears can no longer function? Is regret useful?

In fact, all procrastination is an excuse for laziness. In order to cure procrastination, I must finish writing and publishing today’s daily update before lunch.

Starting from tomorrow, no, starting from next year, I will...

Look, it’s coming again, what can I do to save you? My procrastination.

Having said that, I will reply to your friends’ likes and comments as soon as possible without any delay.