I never think that the first thing in life is work.

Before, in my life, I never felt uneasy until I left my first job in tears.

The first job after graduation, the industry is the characteristic industry of Q city, marine sports, the work content is planning, brand-new team, friendly leaders, and customers are also high-level people.

The only drawback is that it is a small enterprise. This deficiency was not a disadvantage in Q city at that time.

There are no big enterprises in the same trade, and it is very likely to develop into a unicorn of sea sports in Q city. Coupled with my love for the sea, I can find such a job. At that time, it seemed to me that if there was destiny takes a hand, it should be like this.

To my surprise, this job has only been done for one year. Although it was only a short year, I experienced the happiest summer and the most painful winter in my life.

Fortunately, I met a brand-new team. The leaders are very friendly, and the partners in the team are like-minded, cooperate tacitly and get along well. In order to share weal and woe for the same goal, study together, grow together, and meet the most difficult problem, even if it is dead, we must chew off the bones.

That's the team I'll never see again, the working partner I'll never see again, and that's the work spirit I devoted myself wholeheartedly to the same goal, and I've never seen it since.

Maybe it's because young blood can only be spilled once.

The intimate interaction with the sea after work is the most enjoyable.

Sail against the wind and go to sea; Wipe the coach's paddle out of the waves; Walking in the bay at night arrival; Catch the sea along the beach at low tide; When you are free to sail, you can also sail out to sea, sail all the way along the coastline, punch in the landmarks of Q city along the coastline, and enjoy the beautiful sunset of the old town on the sea.

So far, the excitement of swaying on the windsurfing with the ups and downs of the waves; When I fell off the board to the bottom of the sea, I was still fascinated by the short isolation.

That summer, the summer with real sea, was the best summer in my memory, even better than watermelon, air conditioner, iced coke and white shirt in summer.

How much happiness there is in the early stage, how much pain there is in the later stage, and how much disappointment there is when you leave.

At the end of the summer, our team's main business went offline because of disagreement among the internal management.

The team owner took us to find another way out. During that time, we kept setting goals, trying, overthrowing, setting goals again and trying again. At that time, the glass wall of the office was full of our plans to reinvent the wheel. I don't remember how many times I failed to come back.

Gradually, the small partners in the team are becoming less and less confident. The previous discussion turned into expressing one's own opinions and becoming opinionated in forcibly persuading the other party.

Try again and again, fail again and again, gradually obliterate our ambitions, and the small partners in the team are less and less confident, and we don't want to stick to it anymore.

Things always start to get better when you want to give up. The team boss has been persevering and finally found a way to see hope, which can immediately become a road of hope for real money.

And my once shocked heart is also stable because of this hope.

How beautiful hope is, and how hurtful it is when it is broken before my eyes, especially when it is broken by two leaders I have always trusted.

Until now, the heartbreaking scene of "stop fighting" mixed with women punching and kicking is still printed in my mind.

All our efforts were dashed in such chaos, and all our persistence became a joke.

Seeing the embarrassment of the leaders, how can we continue to work together? I cried the day I left my job. No matter how hard I tried before, I never shed a tear.

And when the moment came when I had to give up, regret, pity, disappointment and sadness were intertwined and tears filled my eyes.

Those tears are regrets. I regret that I shouldn't "exchange my heart for my kidney" in the workplace and pay my feelings outside the interests in this job; I don't want to. I gambled for a year and ended up with nothing.

What's more, such regret and unwillingness are actually caused by the vulgar "little three" incident that does not know the truth.

On the night I left the company, I made an appointment with my friends to have a drink. Another advantage of this job is that my drinking capacity has been improved qualitatively.

That was the last time I got drunk at work, and I put all my regrets and unwillingness into the wine and poured them into my stomach one after another.

At the beginning of April, when was the COVID-19 epidemic under stable control? After all, I left Q city and came to H city.

In this southern city, another hot summer has come.

The sea breeze in Q city, the white sail on the sea, us under the sail, and the dozens of seconds when we fell into the bottom of the sea, that is the time we can never go back; The first job I did my best, but ended in unwillingness and regret, became the first job in my life.