Why has my room become a mess?

I have lazy muscles and want to smoke. The house I live in is estimated to be eighteen square meters, and the actual usable area is estimated to be fifteen square meters. Not big, a room, a kitchen and balcony, a bathroom. It used to be easier to clean up, which would make the whole room clean and bright. This is not the case now. I always feel more and more chaotic. In fact, everything is arranged neatly, but the overall feeling is a mess I don't know what changes can make it simple and bright again, maybe it's because there are too many things piled up at home now. I'm changing my temper recently. Whether it's my arrogance or my stubbornness, I still have self-righteousness, stubbornness, prejudice, paranoia, and laziness that has been stubborn enough to blend into my bones. In the past, I couldn't stand any injustice, a little criticism and doubt, or a little imperfection. Now, I can accept this. As long as I do something, I will recognize it. As long as I am wrong, I will change. Just, don't throw dirty water on me, okay? I always lose my hair. I used to think it would be great if people didn't lose their hair! Hair used to be fine. After pulling, perm and dyeing, it has been cut off, but the hair that grows back really looks malnourished. The hair near the head is oily, and the hair at the other end is too dry. I really don't know how to maintain it. Every day, dozens of hairs can be harvested on the ground, on the bed and on the comb. So I'm more used to wiping the floor with a rag. It's really impossible for the mop to take all my hair away. The hair left on the wet mop may make more hair stick to the floor. Speaking of mopping the floor, I remember an old joke. A girl said to her best friend, "I like Totti very much", and then her mother curled her lips and whispered, "I've never seen you mop the floor." . Of course, the most cruel thing is that after you have happily cleaned the room, there are obvious new hairs falling from the places you have obviously cleaned. Hey, really going crazy #? @@#! @? % # ... I like sleeping very much. I can't sleep at night and I can't wake up during the day, which has become my habit. I tried to change it, too. The alarm clock was set to wake myself up at six in the morning. However, most of the time, I will turn off the alarm clock and go back to sleep. Even if I can get up occasionally, I'm still sleepy. I can't fall asleep standing up. If you really go back to sleep, you usually don't get up until twelve o'clock or one or two. I might as well wake up naturally. My poor sleep quality is also the reason why I sleep for a long time. I am always dreaming, and it is rare to have a very stable sleep. Sometimes, I am more tired when I sleep than when I am awake. My dreams are always strange. Once, I dreamed that I was pulling my menstruation and my brother on a tricycle, and I struggled for several kilometers. I guess I woke up before stepping on my head. I had to feel sorry when I woke up, but I woke up. It's really hard in my dream. I've been fighting cockroaches recently, and I've been tortured by cockroaches. In the house where I used to live, there were mice and cockroaches. But the goal of the mouse is too big, so the cockroach is ignored. The house I live in now is actually quite clean, and it is cleaned every day. I guess those cockroaches were brought from my old place. Last night, I saw my box full of cockroaches crawling. In a rage, I put on a coat and threw things away with the box. Then, busy until midnight, rushing to wash, throw, throw, it is estimated that the cleaning is almost the same. I cooked hand-torn chicken at noon today, which was very fragrant and attracted a few remaining cockroaches, and then I handled it again. In other words, it is the same to change your temper. I always feel that I have changed and become very good, much better than before, but there are still many places that really need to be corrected. So there will still be problems, contradictions, mistakes and misunderstandings. It doesn't matter. You need to ponder slowly and communicate with your heart. Although there is still a long way to go, I always believe that I can improve. In fact, I am a person who likes to blame myself, at least before. I used to regret and complain most of the time. If I do nothing, I will do nothing. If I do nothing, I won't do anything, at least I won't do anything. Now it is meaningless to find that blaming others or blaming yourself can't change any facts and status quo. We can't change the past, only the present and the future. Now, I begin to study, calm down, face problems, think about problems and solve them. We can't change things, but we can change the way we look at things; We can't change things, but we can change the mentality of dealing with things. I don't want to be arrogant, I don't want to be strong, I don't want to be arrogant I prefer to be considerate, considerate, considerate and good to everyone. Perhaps, in my true heart, I have always been so soft and gentle. Love may not be command and conquest, nor suspicion and contest, but more tolerance and forbearance. After countless hardships, setbacks and tears, it took countless detours to understand this truth. Now I should be able to learn to love better.