What was I thinking when I was running?

12.8km is neither long nor short. Ironically, everyone, including myself, thinks that such a length and such a long time is the limit. Before we set off, our classmates and I passed through many people and squeezed behind more and more people. Then we held our breath and couldn't hear clearly what the speaker in front was saying. We knew we cheered, we cheered, we waved, we waved enthusiastically, so we started running, and we started walking slowly with the crowd. There are too many people moving. Can I run this 12.8 km? This is a problem that I have been maintaining before running. Yes, I am not confident. This lack of self-confidence is formed over time, but since I am not confident, why should I go running? People are abused animals, and when they are at ease, they will think about things that make them less peaceful. Okay, I admit it, at least I admit it. Will it be like this? Although I think I may not be able to run down, I may give up halfway, I may fall down after sprinting, and I may run to the afternoon, but I still hope I can be less depressed. I think miracles may happen. Although we won't win the lottery or meet Gao Fushuai, we can still expect this kind of thing. When I watched Batman 3 before, there was a saying in it that the real despair was because there was hope. Hope is the catalyst to make despair more desperate. But at the beginning of life, sex is interesting. Everyone is actually a born optimist, because there is still desire, that is, optimism, because there is still expectation, although it may be disappointing. I believe this thing is manual labor, and sometimes the weight I need to bear will make people suffocate, so I choose to give up. Giving up is not always difficult. How long have I been running? When I ran for about three kilometers, I felt that I had been running for a long time. How can it be three kilometers? I won't be running for long. More than two hours? There are no fewer people around. Although some people keep surpassing me and the people in front of me, I am also surpassing more people intermittently. Time, at a certain moment, became nothingness. A minute can be long or short. When I think of skipping rope before, I always feel tired after jumping for a long time, but it only takes two or three minutes to look at my watch. Time is sometimes incredibly short. But when I ran, I didn't bring my mobile phone, watch or any timing tools, so I was separated from time, and I ran farther and farther. God knows what time it is and how long I have been running. Really, it's just god knows A little anxious. How did the ancient people feel about the previous time when there was no time tool? Or are their lives only days and nights? They eat when they are hungry and sleep when the sun goes down. Instead of having lunch at eleven o'clock and keeping in good health at twelve o'clock to three o'clock in the evening like us, the division of labor is so fine that it inexplicably depends on the invisible time. Why do we believe in time so much? No, I believe the time I was told. Is it because everyone believes it? The clock says three o'clock. Is it really three o'clock now? What if one day they cheat collectively? Well, this assumption is based on my evil, and unbelief is my essence. Finally, I saw the sign of five kilometers. I think it would be great if I reported 6.8 kilometers. Isn't this coming soon? There are no children running around, only the whole journey, the half journey and our short distance. But I am also an optimist. Wouldn't it be too easy if I reported 6.8 kilometers? Then won't you regret it when you reach the finish line next? Sometimes people always have to set a higher level for themselves. Even if they can't step on it, it's good to see it. If not, it will always be smooth. It is very likely that one day they will go down and never come up again. I asked a volunteer. I ran five kilometers for nearly an hour. It's nine o'clock. I began to believe in my heart that I could not finish running. Fortunately, I told them before, don't wait for me, I will run to the afternoon. A person running, of course, will feel that people around you are companions, although they don't know each other. I started running for a while, then stopped, walked for a while and ran again. Run a few steps when you see a handsome guy. If you are tired, walk slowly. It didn't take long to run for seven kilometers before I entered Su Causeway, and then I disappeared. I want to cheer for myself, and I can only cheer out of thin air. Fortunately, I have always had a super ability to comfort myself. Although I have no sense of time and distance, I am glad that many people are running behind me. At least I'm not the last one. At least many people don't think it's late or slow. Seriously, many things are not so fun when they are serious. For example, institutional problems, such as when to go to bed and when to get up, are really serious, and sleeping is a luxury. If everyone is serious about the marathon, running hard and afraid of falling behind, should I stand in the corner and repent accordingly? Oh, no, we should face the West Lake and lament how the white snake fell in love with Xu Xian, the love between man and beast. So, fortunately, everyone is still thinking about themselves. Everyone silently agreed that marathon, persistence is the true meaning, and it doesn't matter before and after running. People are more popular than people. Does this mean that everyone has bad taste? You look happy, so I think I should be happier. Of course, some people are rich to a certain extent, and they can only look at the ocean and sigh, and then think to themselves that they may die alone, or have any quirks, such as turning a blind eye when sleeping. I heard that the marathon comes at its own pace. Although I ran a short marathon, only 10,000 meters, I forced myself to follow this advice. So my rhythm is to leave when you are tired and run later. Later, the leg lift gradually became mechanical, so I started to run one song, then strode for a while and ran another song. So I saw a group of elderly people with an average age of over 60. Alas, I can't bear to say that they are old, because I think they will silently despise those who surpass them. They shouted loud slogans and overtook me. I am deeply touched. I suddenly seem to see my parents. When I saw my old age, I was able to take part in the marathon in high spirits and surpass the flowers of my motherland. That is a withered flower. That should be a great pleasure in life. I wanted to run with them, but I didn't follow them in the end. Their drifting away makes me feel that the marathon is really worthwhile. Although I can't run with them, they just hope. Do you find yourself a goal from time to time? For example, when I run, I always aim at people or things not far away, then run over at one breath, and then look for the next one as if I had completed one goal. Comparison is a kind of nature, and greed makes the world progress. Just like the handsome guy who is not far from me, he is my short-distance companion, because he is a small coordinate of me. Overtaking him, being overtaken by him, or walking the same distance and speed as him are all small pastimes in my short journey. Of course, the goal should not be set too high. For example, I can't stretch my legs and compete with a man who ran past me. So do what you can, and this time will be brilliant. Turn a corner, turn another corner, and see the sign of two kilometers. Who can understand my excitement at seeing it? I think if there weren't so many people around, I would jump up and kiss the sign. However, after all, I am still an introverted person, and all my emotions bloom like fireworks, making my heart bloom. I proudly believe that nothing is difficult and impossible. Then, I blew myself a kiss. Although I don't know what time it is and how long I have been running, there are only two kilometers left, two kilometers and five laps in the playground. However, I have run for ten kilometers, and the rest is a piece of cake. What should I do if I give up without seeing this brand? Think about it and feel that your life should not be so bad. Can't I last a few hours? I think I may be a little paranoid. I often wait for a bus for a long time, but I'm still willing to wait all the time, because I've been waiting for a long time. Since I have persisted for so long and have not seen the result, why should I give up? Why bother to do nothing and work hard? Life is so long, much longer than this marathon. Isn't it sad to give up before you reach the finish line? Life has experienced many ups and downs, but the final outcome has not yet been seen. As long as we continue, something good will happen, but we give up early, and then we are alive instead of alive. Although life is the epitome of pessimism, I want to live like a child, not as naive and ignorant as a child, but as innocent and cheerful as a child, questioning, verifying and expecting, and treating everything in life, good and bad, as a rare opportunity, which is different from others. In this way, you will see the sign of two kilometers, then jump up happily and continue to run to the finish line.