The last four words, the story of your crying.

The last four words are stories that make you cry:

In the summer of 2007, I dyed my long wine red hair back to black and put on black-rimmed glasses. My bangs hung down to block my eyes and hide my refusal. Small earrings with 16 on their ears are shining. I wear a string of beads on my left wrist and keep chanting Amitabha. I have a tattoo in black on my ankle. I walked all the way alone, being careful not to lose it. It's like I've never called your name right. From the first time I saw you, these three words were the reason for my inner fear. Do you know this story? When Kelpolo and Genghis Khan talked about countries all over the world, Genghis Khan asked him why you never mentioned your hometown Venice. Kelpolo said with a smile, I'm afraid it won't be my Venice after I say it. Me too. I'm afraid that once I say it, you will no longer be my secret. I'm afraid it will lose its original color and meaning in everyone's eyes. I am afraid that the introduction of countless people will disturb it and destroy it. So I'm going to write down our story, put it in the corner of the drawer, and let it remain so dusty for a lifetime. In this way, even if my life ends, it will still be a story about me. I 16 years old, and entered senior one in 2003. I didn't know you at that time, and all the tears and scars didn't appear on the stage. I don't know what it feels like to be heartbroken. I was so unlucky that I was assigned to the classroom of Grade One in the mid-term exam. What's worse, I sat at your desk. There are pictures of you and your girlfriend on your desk. There is no deep smile on your face, but you are deeply surly and evil, and your brow is decadent and rebellious. I stared at your photo, and I don't know why your face suddenly turned red. You are really beautiful, really, really beautiful. I don't know how to describe you. On weekdays, those adjectives don't seem enough to express your beauty. I just suddenly remembered a sentence. When I saw Yang Guo, I missed my life. About you, I-you are a formidable juvenile in school. All the teachers mentioned that you have a headache, but you have a strong father, so even if you can't go to school three days a week, there is nothing you can do. I hurriedly finished the test paper, and when I got up to hand it in, I felt something was wrong. Looking down, I don't know what happened, and a large piece of chewing gum was stuck on my pants. I was shocked and subconsciously pulled it with my hand. This is even worse. I left my pants everywhere. Seeing that these trousers were all ruined, I was so angry that my tears almost fell. I opened your drawer to find something useful, but I saw the note you left, which said, Is the gum delicious? There is a smiling face next to it. I know you are sitting in your position on purpose. I can only sigh that there is a gift from you on my pants. By the way, I even tore off the photo of you and your girlfriend and put it in my wallet. Don't blame me for itchy fingers, CHO. I know your girlfriend has gone abroad, and you can only miss her in photos every day, but who asked you to defile my favorite? I am unfair. I didn't expect you to take a photo with our class. When you stood at the door and called me, the eyes of the whole class shone on my face like dozens of light bulbs. I see everyone's face is full of curiosity. No one understands how I can associate with someone who has always followed the rules like you. When I walked slowly towards you, my nervous hands were sweating. After many years, I remembered the original uneasiness. However, what I feel contradictory is that I have a little expectation. You stared at me for a long time, and I promised you a visit with innocent eyes. None of us spoke. The wind in October was already very cold and my hair was blown in a mess. You suddenly laughed. You ask me, are you Lin? I nodded, and then you asked, do you like chewing gum? I still nodded. Your smile deepened. Did you wash it? I shook my head, but I couldn't get it off. Are you here to make it up to me? I never thought that this seemingly ordinary sentence would make you laugh for so long. I look at your eyes and eyebrows full of joy, as if I had told the funniest joke in the world. You reached out and hit me on the forehead, Lin. I never knew what compensation meant. In addition, you can actually put your pants in the refrigerator for a few hours, and then the chewing gum will be easily removed once it is frozen. I gave a silly "Oh". I left without saying anything. I was just about to breathe a sigh of relief when you turned around and said, keep that photo as a souvenir. Seriously, I didn't like you at that time. Do you think you are a star? I don't know why I stopped to watch you fight that day. I always take a distant attitude towards such scenes. I don't know why when you were ambushed from behind, I would not hesitate to rush forward to block that beer bottle for you. When the group dispersed, you hugged me and shouted at the top of your lungs as if I was going to die. Lin, don't scare me. I push you as hard as a pile of cotton. I wanted to tell you not to be so rude, but I felt a warm current flowing from my forehead before I said it. You put your hand on my wound, and I feel your whole body shaking. You whispered in my ear that you would be fine, I promise. When you brought those people to apologize to me, my head was wrapped like a mummy. I watched them covered in scars and humbly apologized to me. Your eyes are clear and sharp. After they left, I asked you, were they beaten? You light a cigarette, white Marlboro. You have your back to me. I can't see your expression, but there is an unusual indifference in your voice. You say it's light to hit them, but I want to kill them more. You turn around like a naughty boy. You said, come on, little beauty, you are wronged. I sacrificed something to let you take advantage of me. Anyway, my ears can just lean against your chest and hear your heartbeat. I feel my face burning. Your chin touched my head, and I smelled your faint fragrance. You said thoughtfully, why did you ... didn't say that, so you rushed to answer. I don't know. I really don't know why I shielded you, but if I go back in time, I think. I'll still risk my life to rush over. I can't say clearly what that powerful and firm force is. It was a long time before I knew the name of that power, called sex. But at that time, you simply called it impulsive, and you hugged me and said, don't be so impulsive in the future. I answered you stupidly, but I didn't know how to defend myself. Twilight, how do you know how brave I was at that moment, and what happened afterwards? How to explain our relationship to the teacher who saw us hugging in the corridor? In the teacher's office, the head teacher looked at me with a sad face. I looked at her stubbornly, and I said that we were really just friends. She said, in that case, why embrace together? Everyone in the office is staring at me, and I'm at a loss. I don't know how to speak. After a long time, I walked out with heavy steps. You wait for me at the door of the classroom. When I saw you, I tried to squeeze out a smile. You took my hand and left without saying anything. I didn't ask anything. I followed you quietly all the way. You took me to the bar. In the afternoon, there was no one in the bar, and the waiter played an old song. Faye Wong's ethereal voice sang it a thousand times: I want to be with you all my life. At least there is no reality in this world. I want to rely on you to be the last angel in your relationship all my life. If I am still together when I wake up, please allow us to live together. You're drinking Jack Danny. I'm drinking Smurfs. You said it wasn't wine, it was soda. Then why do I have an impulse to cry? You hold my hand and call Yiqing, the girl who is already on the other side of the Atlantic. The girl with a touching smile, you asked me why I betrayed you. My head hurts suddenly. I think there may be some misunderstanding. It's sunny outside, so I'll go to the place where I sell earrings to get my ears pierced. I had a 16 ear hole, but I didn't even put down the cochlear tragus. It looks like a broken heart. The next day, you came to me and looked at me swollen like a pig. You don't even remember what happened when you were drunk. I smiled and said nothing. Rumors about me became the talk of everyone after school meal, and a friend came to ask me what is the relationship between you and me. I looked at them stupefied, eyes more innocent than anyone else. I'm not pretending, Twilight, and I want to know what our relationship is. We are so close to ambiguity, but so far from love. You always call me beauty. But when I heard your name was Su Yiqing, I called her honey. Dear, dear lover, I seem to be 10 million light years away from that title. You are still very kind to me. On April Fool's Day, I called you to lie that I was hit by a car and was lying in the hospital. You hung up the phone and hurried to the hospital, only to find me laughing. I jumped in front of you and said, Happy April Fool's Day. I thought you were going to play me with your middle finger again. But you just looked at me blue and didn't say a word. I'm afraid you don't even know how terrible your silence is, as if the clear sky suddenly darkened and all the colors faded to gray in an instant. I shake your arm and you shake me hard. I called you piteously after you, but you ignored me. I don't know what happened to you. This is just a joke. Do you really want to see me lying in the emergency room? You finally looked back at me. I was pale and sweaty, and my hair was wet on my forehead. It looked like a broken kite. You were scared by me, and you anxiously asked me if I was uncomfortable, but I just smiled at the moment you spoke, so it's good that you weren't angry. You have forgotten me, and something is shining in your eyes, as bright as the morning star. People come and go. We had a serious conversation in the noise. You said you were back. You arrived this afternoon. I promised to pick her up, but you called to tell me about the accident. I didn't expect you to lie to me. My tears can't help falling. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to. You sighed and patted me on the head with a frown. Well, that's all right. You are a child. I should not blame you. All my tears fall in your palm. At least once, right? At least this time, you chose to see me first. As long as you have this time, you should be satisfied. It should be like this. My voice is so hoarse, but my tone is so calm. Do you have feelings for me on Monday morning, even if you like me for a minute? Look into your eyes when I say this. You stared at me for a long time, then turned your head to one side. I clearly heard you say, I'm sorry, I'm sorry April day on earth, why do I feel the cold wind seeping into the bone marrow? It turned out to be my own illusion, but it turned out to be a wishful misunderstanding. You seemed to think I would cry, but I forgot your anxious expression and breathed a sigh of relief. I like you more than anyone in the world, and I like you more than anyone in the world. Your expression has become very strange. I have never seen you so sad. At ordinary times, a sad arc hangs from the corners of her mouth with a smile. You take off the beads on your wrist and put them on my wrist roughly, then adjust the tightness. You said while doing this, this is when my mother was alive to help me keep me safe. Now, you wear it honestly and never take it off. I finally cried with a wow, and my ears were inflamed. The pain of 16 hole reminds me that I am 16 years old and I can't love. Su Yiqing is more beautiful than in the photo. Seeing you holding hands together, I will think of a sentence: they are the only people in the gray servant group who wear red clothes. Then you called me beauty, and I felt guilty. They all say that it is difficult for the sea to touch water. I can't get into your eyes with a beautiful woman like her around. She went back to school to visit the teacher, and many younger sisters went to pay tribute to the most talented school beauty in the history of the legendary school. The teachers all praised her. Just look back and sigh why such a good girl is with you. You have never been a good boy in the traditional sense, but you are an obedient boy. After a long time, I learned from others that Su Yiqing was your mother's favorite girl, and you didn't want to go against her dead mother's wishes, so you chose her instead of staying with me. I know that being in the right place at the right time is not just happiness. There are also nostalgia and regret. For example, you and I invited a lot of people to dinner at night, and you called me, and I wouldn't die. You were on the other end of the phone for a long time, and then you whispered, Lin, even if I beg you. Now that you mention it, I don't have the courage, but I can't eat anything at the dinner table and look at me with some doubts. I felt so guilty that I had to dress up and do nothing. On the way, she asked me to accompany her to the drugstore opposite to buy some stomach medicine. When paying, she casually asked me if I had any change. I quickly opened my wallet. The moment I opened it, I knew I had made a mistake. Your picture is in my wallet. The two people in the photo look so close that I instantly become a clown. I was the first supporting actress. I want to add a little plot when the heroine is away. The director said that the script has been written. When the heroine comes back, the play is over. Her face is facing away from the light, so I can't see her expression clearly. She asked me indifferently, do you like him? But it's no use. Your love has no result. I smiled. I like him as much as I like my own business. What is the result? You made me understand that love can never be forgotten, love can never be abandoned, and sometimes love can be a personal matter. When Yiqing asked me for that photo, I hesitated to hand it over. Her words broke my hesitation. She said, no. My heart will not be sad if I die completely. I froze, and then I felt a sharp cramp in my heart, and there was a huge roar in my ear. There seems to be a big hand around my throat, and I can't make a sound. I don't know how long it took me to recover. My voice was so strange that I didn't even know myself, and my throat was covered with dust repeatedly. In that case, I will leave this photo as a souvenir. You were in the bar all night. I ordered a lot of Long Island iced tea. I always thought it was tea, because I didn't want to get drunk and talk nonsense. But after a few drinks, I realized that Long Island iced tea is not tea, but wine. All my memories floated to the surface. I still remember clearly that when you first came to see me, you asked me if I was Lin with a big smile on my face. At that time, I didn't think you were a rumored wild child at all. You are so nice, and your smile is as warm as a winter afternoon. Reach the deepest part of the soul. You came to see me, and I forgot to laugh at you. I left a silver jar tonight. I'm afraid that meeting was a dream. You said you were drunk. But I know I'm not drunk. I'm more sober than ever. I rolled up my trouser legs to show you my ankle, a black word. Honey, this is your last name and my story. That was the last time you were by my side. You boarded the plane to Bordeax with Su Yiqing. You finally left me completely. After you left, I locked myself up. I can't like anyone anymore. You look like a specimen, frozen in turpentine and turned into a crystal amber. I grew up all the way, and gradually lost my original clarity, but still kept the mark you brought me. In the summer of 2007, when I saw your engagement photo with Yiqing online, I heard that you were all wearing ordinary clothes, but there were two shiny rings on your interlocking fingers. I was thinking while smoking your favorite Marlboro. It seems that you took me to a bar for a drink in the afternoon of 2003. You ordered Jack Danny, and I ordered soda. Then you drank too much, and your mind gradually blurred. You took me for granted. You caught me and asked me why I betrayed you. You were so drunk that I couldn't break free, and then you brought me back to your house. Yes, in your home, you did this to me. But you don't remember who I am. You call me sonny, sonny. After coming out of your house, I went to get my ears pierced because I was shy and had a red tide on my face. My most precious thing is my favorite. I am responsible for my own affairs. I have 16 ear holes, which means I met you when 16 years old. I dedicated my best years to you. Then on April Fool's Day, I called you to pick me up at the hospital. When you saw me standing in front of you unscathed, you flew into a rage because I delayed your cleaning. When I chased you, I felt that I was going to die. It's a good thing you weren't angry with me later. You look terrible when you are angry, so I will never tell you that I actually went to the hospital for surgery that day. What kind of operation is the operation that gives birth to a child but can't give birth? I told you, I really don't blame you. What's wrong with you is all my own will. After you gave me the beads, I thought you were really good to me. So I got a tattoo. I thought about it and decided to stab your last name. A simple sentence is all my love. Time will gradually bury these secrets, and all my hopes are that you will be happy. I find your blog in various ways and peep into your life every day. Every time I read your blog, I smoke Marlboro. I know its other name from a friend in France, that is, men should not forget women's love. Your life is really quiet, but in a recent blog, you made me cry. This is a game to answer questions with names. The last question is, what is the biggest lie you have told in your life? Your answer is that a girl asked me if I liked her, and I said I was sorry. The real answer is four words. I love her very much.