She just envies "moths to a fire"

The scorching sun, the scorching sun in June has cooked people.

Chen stood outside the railway station, staring at the exit. His eyes seemed to be searching for prey, only a pair of eyes shone on his calm face.

When a big suitcase appeared in Chen's sight, he breathed a sigh of relief, his frowning brows stretched out, and there was still a little sweat hanging on his forehead, which he had not had time to wipe off.

At the same time, Yang Zixin saw him, waved his arms at him happily, rushed out of the crowd and gave him a big bear hug.

Chen firmly believes that this is his warmth and sunshine.

"Let's go!" Chen said coquetry with luggage in his hand.

02、

Yang Zixin, who has just entered the university, is full of freshness to everything around him, so Yang Zixin came to the school two days in advance.

These two days, I have never left Chen's side. She drags Chen around every day, and Chen Ye is willing to accompany her.

Every day, my heart chattered and laughed around him. Chen almost completely buried the darkness in his heart and enjoyed it greedily.

The military training arrived as scheduled for 14 days.

At first, Yang Zixin was still full of interest. Every night, she talks to Chen about what happened that day. However, after the novelty, Yang Zixin couldn't stand her temper. She went to the hospital to open a fake medical record and asked for leave until the end of military training.

The night sky is starry, and two people are sitting side by side on the playground. Yang Zixin confided innocently. "I faked it to escape military training. I am a deserter. Don't abandon me ... "

Chen patted her on the head. "Everything is so impulsive, and three minutes of heat will suffer sooner or later."

Looking at Chen's smiling face, I turned to blush and whispered, "I like you for more than three minutes."

Chen's every word is thumped on his heart, but his face is still smiling, which makes people feel like the same.

Yang Zixin's small mind, he already knew, and he once thought about their future, but he is as kind as Yang Zixin, as simple as Yang Zixin, and he is a man with a dark heart. Even if she is sunshine, Chen Ye doesn't want her to find the forbidden area and illuminate it.

Without responding to Chen's words, I felt something strange in the atmosphere. She looked up and looked at Chen with her trademark big smiling face.

At the moment, Chen Zheng looked at the distant moon, and was looking at his side face, angular.

"In fact, you don't know me. In five years, I will let you know the real me. You are not a child now, and I have stopped teasing your brother since I was a child. If you still like me like this after five years, we will be together. "

When Chen said these words, he always smiled, but the firmness in his tone made him take it seriously in an instant.

I have never understood Chen since I was a child. He always looked cold, but after she got into trouble, he stood in front of her. No matter what happens, he will smile at her and never get angry. He helped her solve one thing after another, and when she took the initiative, he quietly pulled away.

Chen Zhou Mu turned, looked at her heart, looked at herself, gave her a hug, and then took her hand, walked through the mall and sent her back to the dormitory.

Yang Zixin spent the whole night digesting his words, and the next morning she appeared in the student union with breakfast.

Sitting next to Chen, I watched him eat breakfast intently, then cleared my throat and said firmly, "I believe I can, and I will definitely marry you in five years."

Chen chewed the food in his mouth silently. Hearing these words, he looked up and gave her a smile.

He always smiles at her, and she never understands the meaning behind this smile. One gives actively, and the other accepts passively.

03、

Chen used her status as the president of the student union to successfully send her to the student union and let her stay with her all the time.

Others are not without complaints about this matter.

"Why should we give her face? She knows nothing. "

"Are you giving her face?"

……

……

Yang Zixin often heard arguments behind his back, so he chose to hide. She has no confidence to argue, so she can only escape.

At noon, when two people were eating together, Yang Zixin looked down at the plate, and chopsticks poked at the white rice. He asked cautiously, "Isn't that good?"

"Look up!" Chen put down his chopsticks and said in a cold voice.

After Yang Zixin heard this, he looked up mechanically after a few seconds of leng. Chen looked serious in front of him and began to panic.

"This is the first lesson. You can enter the student union because I am the president of the student union, and you can have an equal dialogue with the minister. The anger of others may be out of reluctance or jealousy, but since you are sitting here, don't care about other people's opinions, but use your own strength to prove that you are worthy. I will help you naturally. The student union is a small society, and it is inevitable that someone will rely on it. "

The sharpness and helplessness in Chen's tone made me uncomfortable. Although I pricked up my ears and wanted to be as powerful as him, I also wanted to give him a smile back, but the radian of the corner of my mouth was not outlined correctly.

Sitting in the classroom in the afternoon, Andy's eyes were glassy and the teacher was happy, but her heart was always wandering.

If you want to be worthy of him, you must stand on the same level with him. Even if the process is painful, this is what Yang Zixin is willing to pay and bear.

The scorching sun flushed Andy's white side face. Finally, the bell rang, and she figured everything out and ran to Chen panting.

"Maybe I'm not as bad as you think. I have my own cleverness and prudence. Growth is a necessary stage for everyone. I'm just a little late for you. I will try to catch up with you. Wait and see! Also, I will show you my strength, and your promise will be fulfilled within five years. "

Andy blushed and anxiously expounded her hard-won views.

Chen looked at her, his hearty laughter kept beating his little heart, while he looked at him with ecstasy.

Chen nodded in agreement. "I believe and witness."

04、

At the freshman orientation party, Chen Rang reviewed his lessons instead of himself. Despite the drums in my heart, Yang Zixin still crustily skin of head took it.

The first trial selected some excellent performances from the performances of freshmen in each class. Yang Zixin, Minister of Literature and Art Ray and Vice Minister of Literature and Art Liu Xi are sitting behind the desk together. Although she represents Chen, she still feels despised. Fortunately, she kept smiling, and now she understood the meaning behind Chen's smile.

Before he came, Yang Zixin heard that Zhang Rui had a wide network of contacts. Finally, when the program was decided, Yang Zixin saw the strength of Ray, but some programs that Yang Zixin was optimistic about fell.

Some things are understandable, like this, Yang Zixin knows something more or less. Although some stereotyped programs are not as exciting as they continue, they will not have a fault effect. But looking at the disappointed expressions of those who have good programs, Yang Zixin's small universe is still stirring.

As a newcomer, Yang Zixin was embarrassed to veto Ray in front of everyone, so he wanted to discuss it privately with Ray.

I am full of disdain for the arrival, plus some things that Chen and I have done in the campaign, which can be described as new hatred and old hatred.

Ray looked at Yang Zixin, eyes a pick, sarcastically said: "If you have something, say it here!"

Yang Zixin's angry little flame has been burning, and she has reached the limit.

"Are you deaf? Everyone can hear that the singer who goes down sings better than the singer who comes up! " Yang Zixin has a tough tone.

"I think it's a good song!" Ray, with a deserved expression, "I'd like to see who can help you in this play ..."

Everyone around us became silent. Yang Zixin saw everyone's attitude, but things have already started, so we can't give up!

Yang Zixin sneered: "Joke!"

When Ray heard this, he burst out laughing.

"I have never heard what others say about me, but compared with someone, I am just a drop in the ocean."

Hearing this, Yang Zixin's face was red with anger, but he couldn't speak at the moment, so the scene was deadlocked.

Chen pushed the door and came in, looking serious and smelling cold but not angry.

"Why are you standing here if you don't rehearse quickly?"

At this time, all the people who heard the sound dispersed in an instant.

"Enough singing, come with me!"

The two of them followed Chen He to the study room next to them. Chen pointed to the chair and motioned them to sit down.

Chen conveniently sat in the chair opposite them. After a few seconds of silence, Chen smiled and said, "You seem dissatisfied with what I did. However, you have been in the student union for two years and know nothing. Today, you stand there and let freshmen see jokes! "

Although it is a smile, but the sharp tone, even Yang Zixin heard.

Ray seems to have never heard of it, but calmly replied, "Some things are tacit. You asked her to come instead of you. Although it was against the rules, I didn't say anything. You naturally understand why I chose those people. If you want her to have more experience, you should teach her some basic things. I gave her a free lesson today. If it is embarrassing, then her arrival is a wonderful joke in itself. "

In this conversation, Yang Zixin is on his high horse, playing the snake seven inches. Ray hit the nail on the head in every word, which made Yang Zixin feel ashamed. She held back her last anger.

After listening quietly, Chen restrained his smile and his tone was icy: "Don't talk too much. If you want me to give him free lessons every day, you can continue your lessons. There is no airtight wall in the world. You know that he will be my staff in the future, regardless of the student union or future work! "

Ray looked slightly stunned: "I know!" Then, he turned away indifferently, but the coldness in his eyes deeply hurt Yang Zixin's heart.

05、

The air smelled of silence, and Chen resumed his smiling face: "I was wrong this time." I was so busy that I forgot to say something! " Don't be so impulsive next time. There is no absolute fairness in this world. Don't abuse your sympathy. The edges and corners have been used to smooth out since ancient times, so don't be too real! "

Yang Zixin looked up with tears in his eyes and opened his mouth, but he just said, "I know!" "

Then she turned and walked, and when she reached the door, she clearly heard Chen's sigh, which slammed into her heart again.

Although change itself is not an easy thing, it is not impossible, it is only a matter of time.

At first, Yang Zixin was disgusted with the hidden rules and intrigues in the student union. She resisted, but now she is trying to find the law and handle it with ease. Gradually, she became Chen's right-hand man, and the complaints of others gradually disappeared.

In this year and a half, I seem to know Chen, but she doesn't seem to know him. However, she felt that she was getting closer and closer to Chen.

In the second half of her senior year, Chen began to practice and find a job. Everyone is speculating about the position of president of the student union. In fact, Yang Zixin probably guessed in his heart that it was probably her. But when someone asked her, she smiled and replied, "I don't know."

When the final list came down, Yang Zixin gave a long sigh. She earned this achievement through hard work, and she deserved it.

From the beginning, Chen didn't tell her who the chairman was, but told her that no matter what the outcome, you should be calm, behave lightly, be a joke teller or try to please others, then you can stay away from them, get a panoramic view of others' performance, and finally tell the good and bad. This is what you should do.

Under Chen's experience, his temper has become more and more calm.

Sometimes two people play Go, sometimes they sit on the grass or in the classroom, and in the afternoon they only read some books about philosophy or dealing with people.

At first, Yang Zixin was absent-minded, unable to bear loneliness, and fumbled for the opportunity to go out.

But gradually, accompanied by Chen, I began to enjoy this life. There is a smiling face in disguise outside, and everything must be weighed. But here, she can calm down and think about many things, or let her tired heart have a rest.

Chen is careless in finding a job and helps with the student union every day. Sometimes I tell you a few words, and sometimes I teach you how to live comfortably.

Finally, Andy got impatient and asked, "Did you find a job?"

Although I know he is so calm now, there must be a way out, but I can't listen to him personally, Yang Zixin's heart is always uneasy.

Chen put down his work and turned to look at it with a smile in his eyes: "Worried that your future husband can't afford to support you without a good job?"

Hearing this, Yang Zixin's face involuntarily began to turn red, more and more red, like a ripe apple, making people want to take a bite. At this moment, Chen gave her a sweet kiss.

One afternoon, Yang Zixin felt relaxed, but she was very relaxed. At least Chen took her to heart. Occasionally, when I hear her roommate talking about her private affairs with her partner, I think she is far away from Chen. Now she clearly knows that she and Chen are one step closer.

Jin Chen entered a third-rate securities company in X City, which was a big surprise.

"Can you have a better way out?" Yang Zixin asked tentatively.

"This is just a transitional process. Don't worry about me. " Chen comforted.

Yang Zixin didn't ask more. Since Chen didn't want to say anything, he didn't ask anything. Time will naturally give the answer.

In the months when Chen left, those who just took over felt powerless.

Yang Zixin found that she had never set foot in many things before. She doesn't care about those who are dissatisfied with her secret troubles, or the existence of those who are incompetent but can't let him go, but she cares about Chen's attitude and she can't let him down.

Occasionally, I will call Chen to complain, but she can't bear to listen to the fatigue in Chen's tone.

From then on, every time I called Chen, I said something happy just to hear his laughter.

Occasionally, Chen can't be contacted for a long time, and he will also ask anxiously on the phone.

"Wooden boat, how have you been recently? I can't even contact you, so I'm worried. "

"I am afraid that I will find another woman." Chen's joking tone is full of fatigue.

"Of course not, I'm just afraid something will happen to you." Yang Zixin lowered her voice like an angry little wife.

"I am very busy every day. I took a big project and didn't even have time to call you. Next time I pay attention, I will inform you in advance, lest you worry. " Chen's tone is full of spoil.

Yang Zixin sweetly replied, "Good."

Two years is neither long nor short, but it is enough to experience one person.

When everyone is trying to find a job, Yang Zixin is no exception. She resigned as the president of the student union.

Occasionally go for a walk by the lake when you are idle, and occasionally go to Chen's work place to ask about the military situation. His life is quite comfortable.

06、

Every time Chen looks at it, his heart is always tangled.

Chen will think he is selfish. He will change Andy's mind according to his own preferences, and he will force her to enter this deceitful world.

Without him, maybe Yang Zixin would never contact her, and she would live a simple life forever.

But this idea is just an idea. In reality, she is living the life she wants, and Chen Ye is confident that she can protect her.

As expected, she successfully entered Chen's securities company.

With the help of Chen, he became his private secretary directly, and Chen was already the marketing director of the securities company at that time.

Only when I really stepped into a securities company did I know that the things on the original account book were almost useless. Every day, I stay with Chen. At first, I was confused about it, but later, with Chen's careful teaching and hard work, she was able to be independent.

In the evening, Yang Zixin sat in her rented house, opened her diary and saw the promise she had written.

"July 2, 20091day, sunny. Today, Chen agreed and made a five-year agreement. I'm so happy! Hey hey ... "

Close the diary and look at the calendar. There are still six months and five years to go, and Chen will definitely be hers.

07、

The arrival of the Olympic Games as scheduled has added a bit of interest to the busy life every day. Chen seldom drags him to his home to watch football matches. Tonight is China versus the United States.

Sitting on the sofa, Andy was stiff. It was the first time he was so close to her.

Seeing Chen's calmness and calmness, the remaining embarrassment disappeared. Another quiet night.

Occasionally, I wonder, doesn't Chen have any physiological needs?

Halfway through the game, the score was 37 to 49. Chen watched, and his slightly dark skin was slightly red.

"In fact, whoever can control the rhythm in the game will win the final victory!"

Yang Zixin looked at him and knew he had something to say. For a long time, Yang Zixin felt that they were very close, but there was a distance. There is something about Chen or a certain field in his mind that she has never set foot in, but she doesn't mind waiting until he tells her one day.

Chen shook his glass with his hand and stared at the TV in front of him with a sad face.

"I remember when I was very young, I always asked my mother why everyone else had a father and I didn't. My mother will hold a financial newspaper and point to a man in the newspaper. He is your father, but he doesn't want us, so you don't have a father.

After saying these words, my mother will cry at the top of her lungs and beat me up so that I can remember this man and hate him.

Most of the time, I would sit there with empty eyes after my mother finished playing. I am not a child who grew up in love. I have my unknown darkness and different meaning of existence. "

Yang Zixin looked at his deep eyes, eyes with endless desolation. She doesn't know what to say. Her lips replaced all languages.

When the first ray of sunshine fell on the bed, I subconsciously shrank into the quilt and saw Chen behind me. At the moment of skin contact, Yang Zixin could not help blushing.

At this moment, Chen Ye woke up and looked at her with a smile on his lips.

From this day on, their relationship was completely close, and everyone in the company understood it. Occasionally, when you see two people together, you will show a clear expression.

08、

A group of people took their seats in the conference room. When Chen came in, he looked around at everyone.

"Our securities company will be the largest securities company in this city in the near future, and they will hold a test. Your future depends on your own ability, so be prepared. The meeting is over, let's do our own thing! "

In the evening, sit beside Chen. "Can you leave me after the exam?"

Chen touched his chin as if he was owed a beating. "I don't think it should be a problem to help you stay with my ability!"

With a surprised expression, Chen held her in her arms. "Don't worry, I'm here for everything!"

Everyone spent a month in a panic, and the decision to stay or stay was on this day.

Yang Shoucheng, the boss of Feiyue Securities, held a video conference and then released the topic. On a virtual trading platform, he will let people in his company speculate on stock prices. All we have to do is keep the stock price down, but we can't be noticed.

At first, Chen kept trading, but in the analysis, other employees were also actively working.

After all, working in the largest securities company in this city is undoubtedly the best choice for everyone present.

As time goes on, the situation is always urgent. Although everyone is very nervous, they are doing their work in an orderly way.

Gradually, the situation began to become clear, but at this time, Chen began to do something I didn't understand.

Everyone also projected their own doubts. Chen seems to be blind. Finally, he handed over the transaction to Yang Zixin and told me that there would be a video conference later. Yang Zixin can only smile and nod.

As a result, Yang Zixin and others failed.

At the video conference, Yang Zixin smiled: "Yang Zong, our junior students are not good at this, and we will shake this tree eventually. However, the back waves of the Yangtze River push the front waves, and gold will always shine and leave us at the right time. It is definitely your right choice. "

Laughed loudly and looked at Chen. "It's really awesome. Today, ginger is still old and spicy. Wait for the personnel transfer of the personnel department! "

In the evening, I wanted to ask, but when she saw Dignā ga's carefree expression, she knew that Chen would not tell her the answer.

As the days go by, Chen's fame is getting bigger and bigger, and his status is getting higher and higher. At the same time, there are more and more things about Chen, and they have begun to lose contact with them. Occasionally, he became impatient and asked Chen, but in any case, Chen kept silent.

Time is about five years in the blink of an eye. On this day, a sumptuous dinner was prepared at Chen's house, but Chen didn't come back. She called Chen and Chen Mei answered. Therefore, Yang Zixin waited from night till morning, and time was eroding her confidence and expectation.

Finally, there was movement at the door. Chen came back with a smell of alcohol. When he saw Yang Zixin, he asked curiously, "Why are you here?"

Yang Zixin was completely angered by his appearance. She is the only one who cares so much about this day.

Looking at Chen, tears flowed down unwillingly. "This period of time, you ignore me, don't tell me anything. This is possible. I try to understand you and not get angry.

But you personally promised me this day five years ago, but you don't remember it. If you don't want me, just tell me clearly, don't tease me like this.

I am not a mangy dog. If you tell me clearly that you don't want me, I will turn around and leave! "

Although she was angry and said these words, Andy's confidence was still insufficient. At least when the last sentence was said, she hesitated, but she decided to make it clear.

Chen looked at her, then at the dark window and sighed, "Well, I don't want you!" " "

With that, Chen turned and walked to the bedroom.

One door, two worlds. Chen's firm eyes saw a fuzzy world; Yang Zixin's blurred eyes looked at the road ahead.

After a day of precipitation, I admit that she is reluctant to break up with Chen. She made a good excuse for herself. Chen was drunk, so she had to talk to him when he was sober.

Chen looked at the caller ID of the mobile phone, hesitated, and picked it up. Yang Zixin's voice came from the receiver, and his heart still hurt.

"You drank too much yesterday. You don't remember what to say, do you? " Yang Zixin tried to make his tone sound relaxed.

Chen closed his eyes and was silent for a few seconds. "I didn't drink too much. I remember everything I said. Shall I repeat it? "

Yang Zixin put down his face and self-esteem, but it was so easily crushed by him, and his whole body was full of grievances and anger.

She shouted into the phone: "Chen, what makes you?" I tried so hard to be with you, but your words denied me. I disagree, I tell you it's impossible! "

Chen listened to her intermittent voice because of crying. Although she was distressed, she made up her mind. "I and the deputy general manager's daughter are getting married, and you have heard the rumors, which is true. Think of it as between us, and don't contact again when there is no need! "

Yang Zixin hold the phone, there was a beep, one by one to knock on Yang Zixin's heart.

Yang Zixin just sat there thinking about what he had cried before and repeated it many times. She finally realized that she was gone! Stay away from this place and forget him.

On the wedding day, Yang Zixin stood in the corner of the lawn and looked at a couple with tears in her eyes. She fantasized about how beautiful the scene was countless times, but it was a pity that the protagonist was not her.

09、

Andy was heartbroken. She summoned up the courage to pack her bags and began to travel.

She went to the seaside first. In the dark sea, there is an infinite hole, as if in an instant, she would be swallowed up by the sea.

I met a mountain on the way and started my mountaineering trip. When I climbed to the top of the mountain, the world was so small when I looked down, so Yang Zixin laughed at himself, "My pain is nothing, and time can heal it."

When she came to Tibet, she recited a poem by Cangyang Gyatso: "At that time, I searched 100,000 mountains, not to repair the afterlife, but to meet you on the road; However, on that night, I forgot everything, gave up my faith, and gave up reincarnation, just because the rose that once cried in front of the Buddha had already lost its former glory. "

Yang Zixin thought the pain had healed, but she still cried.

Although the past, but the memory can not be erased. It doesn't hurt because it's healed, and it doesn't touch because it doesn't touch, and it is gradually sealed in a corner, pretending to be forgotten.

Yang Zixin has traveled through many cities, enjoyed many landscapes, learned a lot of folk culture, broadened our horizons and increased our knowledge. She felt strong enough inside, so Yang Zixin decided to return to the city where she had been away for seven years.

When familiar scenes appeared in front of him, Yang Zixin realized that time was no match for memory, and the memory was still so strong that Yang Zixin burst into tears again.

Back home, Andy felt guilty about his parents' old faces that he hadn't seen for seven years. She knew from the bottom of her heart that "parents are here, not far from Wan Li." It means that she wants to spend the rest of her life with her parents.

Yang Zixin decided not to work in finance. She opened a flower shop with a little savings on hand, and the business is not bad.

On this day, a strange woman's visit broke Yang Zixin's originally peaceful life.

This strange woman is Yang Xue, Chen's wife. She dresses well and talks elegantly.

"In fact, the wooden boat doesn't love me. He has always loved you. He used my father to marry me to get back at Yang Shoucheng. Although I learned about it afterwards and I hated him very much, he finally broke away from my father about it, and I am still grateful to him.

You don't know, do you? Zhou Mu died. He was sentenced to death for financial operations involving a large amount of money, illegal fund-raising and insider trading. Yang Shoucheng also went bankrupt because of Zhou Mu, so he committed suicide in despair.

By the way, Yang Shoucheng is Zhou's father, and Zhou's mother committed suicide because she couldn't accept her son's case, knowing that the appeal was invalid and upheld the original judgment. "Yang Xue expression indifferent, the past is also a kind of don't want to touch the pain for her, her eyes expressed her love for the boat.

Yang Xue calmed down for a while and continued: "I just feel that life in Zhoumu is too bleak to tell you this. At least he deserves your forgiveness and love. "

"I have said everything I want to say. This is the address of the wooden boat. If you forgive him, go and see him. "

Yang Xue turned to wipe the tears from the corner of her eyes and left.

Yang Zixin's brain stopped working. She sat in the flower shop and remembered the past vividly. Blurred eyes show distorted colors. Yang Zixin stood up and began to carefully select one flower after another.

Standing in front of Chen's tombstone, holding flowers carefully selected by this book. When he looked at the photo, he finally understood why the woman in Sorry, I Love You committed suicide at the grave. Now Yang Zixin also has this impulse, but reason finally overcame it.

Yang Zixin stood quietly, crying silently. Time seems to have stood still. Chen's voice is in his ear, and his shadow is in front of him.

Suddenly I remembered a story she told Chen: "A moth puts out a fire, and everyone says it will destroy itself, but who would have thought?" At least, it saw the light and got warmth before it died, and even after it died, it was happy. "