You must grow up alone.

The weather in Xi suddenly turned cold. The speed of adding clothes is far behind the speed of cooling. In this way, I am honored to catch a cold. A blocked nose, full of tears, the whole person inexplicably became sad in the spring and autumn.

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In my impression, it seems that I haven't settled down to chat with myself for a long time. Life seems to be busy every day, but when I turn off the lights and hide under the covers, I feel very empty and always feel that I have wasted another day.

Since I cut my hair short, life is not as "starting from scratch" as I thought, but more confused. The former target self seems to have been discarded along with the cut hair. I want to change, but when I get up every day, I can't help but want to have sex with the bed.

Maybe this day will come to an end. But at present, I have lost myself. It seems that nothing has been done this year. We agreed to take the driver's license test, and we agreed to go to more cities, but we were all defeated by various excuses.

Although there are always people around, I feel something is missing in my trance. Maybe it's a lack of oneself, or it may be a loss.

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At the age of 2045, I should have fought for a better life in the future, but I live like a "turtle" in a comfortable campus and just want to spend it in a shell.

Sometimes, it suddenly becomes very sad. I feel that all this seems to be less important than I thought, and there seems to be no value in living. Life can't stand the word "death" after all.

Once you have these ideas, you will always tell yourself quickly, "life is still very beautiful." You haven't eaten all the delicious food in the world and experienced all kinds of interesting things, so you can't be so sad. " It seems that I am afraid of myself and dare not relax and do stupid things.

In fact, those pessimistic emotions have always been there, just like cancer cells exist in normal cells, but they are subconsciously amplified whenever they are depressed.

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There are some things you can't say to others. Even in your heart, others may sound like a joke, not to mention a pot of cold water will make you chilling.

Gradually, I realized that there was no need to say a lot. Everyone just plays hip-hop together, so why exchange their real ideas for others' ridicule?

The persistence and persistence in my heart is enough to tell myself. Maybe they won't understand until they realize it one by one. However, at that time, their understanding was not important to you.

Where is he? Always grow up on your own, and slowly digest the good and bad things until they are internalized into your own energy.

Those things, good and bad, always have to be experienced personally. In that case, whether you are hard or happy, you will eventually grow up. You should know: the best years people claimed were actually the most painful, and in retrospect they were so happy.

Those sufferings may be wealth or scars, but these are the experiences in your life after all.

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The older you get, the more you find, the more friends you have, and the less people you can talk to.

When I was in high school, I heard a saying, "There is always a way to go in life." Now, I realize that I have to walk more than one way by myself. In fact, I have to walk on my own all my life. Even if you have a group of people around you, it is only a short-term companionship. Just like, the wound needs to heal itself slowly, and external interference will only be counterproductive.

Well, if you go alone and grow up alone, at least you can feel at ease.

When you are confused, immerse yourself in the sea of books, talk to the characters in the books, and fantasize that you are the owner of the books. Or, write some words that no one appreciates, and it will heal slowly. Life will always get better, and people should be responsible for themselves.