I began to lose my memory in June.

Since then, every June, my amnesia has started.

I often think that somewhere in my brain, there must be a lack of memory of June. So far, I have been trying to remember what happened in June that year, but I can't continue, scattered, upside down, mixed and fragmented.

I remember two years ago, five of us went to Yunnan because of our graduation trip. Before leaving, we prepared a lot of anti-mosquito spray, sunscreen and rhodiola.

On the second day of the trip, Memory was lying on the train in go to dali, and my friends were lying on the sleeper, snoring everywhere. Listening to the sound of the train pressing on the tracks, I also began to be in a daze. I came to Kunming, by the Cuihu Lake. Looking at the place I visited yesterday, I found that there were no other four partners, so I had to look around. Before going to the red-billed gull for the winter, there was no gull slapping scene in the travel notes on Cuihu Lake, which filled the whole lake.

The sun is dazzling, facing the cracked light, I vaguely feel someone coming towards me.

"Hey, you're here? I just can't find you. " A voice said in front of me.

Blinking and wiping away the sunshine, I saw Xiao Chang standing in front of me.

"I have been looking for you for a long time. Where have you been these days? " I forgot to find my little friend.

Xiao Chang smiled and said, "Don't be silly. I just went to buy a ticket and you disappeared. Where were we just now? "

"I forgot what I just said." When I was thinking vaguely, Xiao Chang took my hand and began to walk into the crowd. "I tell you, Kunming, began to enter the rainy season in June. We will buy an umbrella in the street later. I wonder how many umbrellas there are at home now. They are all bought temporarily. "

Before I finished, it suddenly began to rain, and my feet felt cold. I vaguely realized that this was probably because I pushed the quilt away from my feet again. Before I could react, Xiao Chang pulled me up and ran away quickly. Walking fast on the street washed by rain, walking towards a shaved ice shop.

Kunming, there is no night arrival at eight o'clock. The pedestrians in the street are very annoyed, and now they are all looking for shelter from the rain. Xiao Chang brushed her hair in front of her forehead and said proudly, "Look, it's rainy season." Then I looked up at the rain on the eaves. I looked at her sideways and felt that her outline had blurred the boundaries in the light. I said to her, "I seem to have been here."

"When?"

"Not long ago, I remember that several of our friends came together."

"What about your little friend?"

"I don't know, leave me in go to dali. Leave me here. " I joked.

"What a melon."

"What melon?"

"Melon is silly, silly is melon. Are you stupid by the rain? " Xiao Chang looked at me with a smile, and his teeth were particularly beautiful. "Just going to stand like this? Guawa! "

So we went into the store and ordered a glass of shaved ice, Jiahua shaved ice. I remember the name of this shop! This is the small shop where the five of us rested when we landed in Kunming that day!

As the first stop of a graduation trip to a strange place, Kunming is beautiful. I didn't find the difference between Kunming and other cities at first. It was not until I ate a bowl of rice noodles that I found myself in a strange and beautiful city. Watching, my nerves tell me that it's slow here, as if many things don't need to be done in a hurry. I remember someone told me that in such a slow time flow, I can only love one person in my life.

After eating rice noodles, the five of us went to Cuihu by car, crossed an alley, turned several corners and saw Cuihu. A green lake, sunshine at 25 degrees Celsius, four friends from the same trade, everything seems just right. Walking in the green lake, I felt sleepy and had a rest in the pavilion. Everyone's words floated in the air one by one, which aggravated sleepiness.

After waking up, I began to look for my four friends, and went back the same way, along the original tree, and began to look anxiously.

Until the sun blurred my vision, a hand began to shake in front of me.

"Hey, what are you thinking?" Xiao Chang said a little, "I don't care about others. If I don't eat shaved ice, it will melt. Don't let me eat alone. "

"Oh, I seem to remember something."

"What? It's not a little girl, is it? " Xiao Chang looked at me.

"I miss you." I feel sad.

"glib." Xiao Chang lowered his head and scooped up a small piece of shaved ice.

"That day you took French leave, parting to send me, in the green lake. You bought a plane ticket through to the airport, where we met for the last time. Say goodbye and never see you again. You disappeared. You just left, it's been two years now, and you haven't contacted again. " I said, and looked at the person in front of me. Make sure she's Chang or just an illusion in my memory.

Xiao Chang looked at me strangely and shyly with puzzled eyes. "Do you really miss me that much?"

I have nothing to say, just staring at her stupefied. I feel that my tears will soon live up to expectations.

Xiao Chang suddenly said, "Don't be silly, I didn't leave again. Were you dreaming just now, huh? Nonsense? Look, "I looked in Xiao Chang's direction and saw the rain flowing backwards on the glass window and pedestrians walking backwards. "What do you think of Kunming? This is your second visit to Kunming, right? It feels different. "

"The second time?"

"Yes, you forget? You said you were here not long ago for a graduation trip. Have you forgotten? "

I don't know if I was sitting in a shaved ice shop in my dream, or lying on a bus in go to dali, or now two years later, or dreaming of amnesia two years later, but that "I" remembered something. I did go to Kunming on my graduation trip, and then I met Xiao Chang when I left. Then, for Xiao Chang, I came to Kunming again. My memory began to get confused. In June, my memory began to be vague, intermittent and confusing. I must have confused time and space again. I haven't made it clear yet.

Xiao Chang often said, "Look, I like Kunming. When I was a child, I grew up in Kunming and followed my grandparents. "

As soon as I woke up from a confused memory, I ignored it. Say, "Then you love this city very much."

"Yes, don't you think that in such a slow time flow, you can only love one person in your life."

"Then watch the rest of my life pass slowly." I took Xiao Chang's hand.

"glib."

"When I am old, I will come here to support the elderly."

Xiao Chang looked at me and said, "Lie in a rocking chair and shake it slowly?"

"That was a generation ago. We are: you are my little apple. Play in the square and spend your old age. " I'm proud of my jokes.

"Who wants to be with you, us and us?" Xiao Chang said to Chen Jiao.

There are fewer pedestrians outside the window, the rain is getting weaker, and the wet streets reflect the lights of the whole city. Xiao Chang often said, I will show you the old streets in Kunming. So we jumped on a double-decker bus hand in hand. It was hazy outside the window, and the raindrops drew a beautiful sliding curve.

In a trance, I remembered that the five of us had a graduation trip in this car. When we got off the bus, we got on the train and went to Dali that evening. Memory is a complex thing, sometimes you remember not only the past, but also some things in your future will rush into your memory in an instant. The past is vague and the future is unknown, so sometimes, I can't tell whether these memories have ever happened.

But I heard that if you miss something very much, your memory will be woven and then meet in your dreams.

Can't tell whether it's a dream or a wake-up. Just hold the hand of the person next to you. I turned to confirm that a strange face with rain on it looked at me in confusion. I was shocked, let go of my hand, and found that she was no longer an ordinary person.

"Do you know where I'm taking you now?" Xiao Chang turned from my seat and said.

I was startled again. It's always like this when I'm with Xiao Chang, and a lot of casual things will happen. Soon after, she left without saying goodbye, that's all. I calmed down and said, "Where to?"

"Go to the flower, bird, fish and insect market first, and buy more meat with me first. The pot at home needs new partners. "

As soon as I promised, I saw that the sky began to brighten and the rain on the window dried up instantly. The sun began to shine, and the man next to me just now had disappeared, leaving only me and Xiao Chang in the whole car.

Here we are! Xiao Chang reminded me that I got off the bus after her and came to the crowded market. There are selling voices everywhere, car stalls selling all kinds of snacks, shops selling jade and chirping birds. Xiao Chang took my hand and began to wander. She said: This is an old street in Kunming, which smells like old Kunming. The sunshine was warm, and we watched the flower and bird market together.

"Kunming is like this. When the rainy season begins, I hear the rain outside the window at night and wake up in the morning to see the sun. Sitting on a stool in the street eating rice noodles in the morning, it's going to rain suddenly. Walking in the street in the afternoon, you have to hide in a shop and watch the rain fall in front of you inadvertently. " Small often say.

I suddenly feel sick. I feel like I'm dreaming. Everything in front of me is just a memory of my past. I feel my feet are getting colder and colder. I really pushed the quilt away. So, I'm sure, this is a dream. So I said, "Chang, I know you have left me, and you will leave soon." After visiting the market, you take me to the bookstore, and then I buy you flowers on the roadside. "

"What's wrong with you today? Have a fever? " Xiao Chang touched my head and wondered what I said. "If you want to go to a bookstore, I'll take you to one of the most distinctive bookstores in Kunming later. Come with me first, melon! "

I am more and more sure that everything now is my memory and my dream. I shook my head and found Xiao Chang had disappeared. Instead, I saw four classmates around me asking me where to go next. There are still a few hours before the next stop, go to dali. Find a place to kill time.

I looked around, but I didn't see Xiao Chang, so I was put in a taxi by my classmates and came to a bookstore, which is the most distinctive bookstore in Kunming, just below the ground floor. Colleagues said that this is a good strategy that they checked before they left. Xiao Chang once again left without saying goodbye, and even disappeared without saying goodbye. I simply ignored Xiao Chang, was dragged by four classmates, took a group photo in front of the bookstore, looked at the strange cities and streets in front of me, and the familiar parting surged up inexplicably. At this moment, I suddenly feel that after graduation trip, everyone will be separated. I bought a book, The Flower of Pessimism. I'll check out and ask them to wait for me outside first. I will arrive at once.

"Where have you been just now? I went to see the book on floral art, and you left. Pay the bill here now. What did you buy? " Xiao Chang suddenly appeared behind me and slapped me heavily on the shoulder.

"Didn't you go? I'm going after my companion. Why are you here? " I'm surprised.

"I have been with you. You said you would come to the bookstore, so I took you there. Anyway, I have bought a good book now, and it's getting late. Let's go home. "

"Back to where? My classmate is still waiting for me. "

"Which classmate, which little girl? Okay, don't tease me. Since this is your second visit to Kunming, you must have had a bad time last time. Now you can relax. I'll take you there. Go home and listen to me first. "

So I inexplicably went out of the bookstore door with Xiao Chang, ready to drive back. Seeing the old woman buying flowers in the street, she bought a bunch of flowers and held them in front of Xiao Chang. Xiao Chang was ecstatic and said, "No one has ever sent me flowers." Then he jumped up and kissed me.

I looked at her with a smile and bowed my head shyly. "It's my first time to send flowers, too."

"Deception."

"I lied to you that it thundered."

The weather in Kunming is ever changing. It was sunny just now, and suddenly it flashed. I hugged Xiao Chang and even said not to be afraid.

Xiao Chang looked at me, bulging his cheeks, like a puffer fish, pretending to be angry: "You were struck by lightning."

"Kunming is not suitable for vows of eternal love, but I am really eternal." I'm kidding.

The street lamps along the way began to light up gradually, and the yellow color filled the night sky, like the Milky Way falling in front of us, and the pedestrians in the street became warm.

I hugged Xiao Chang and whispered, "I came in the rainy season, and I can see you in Kunming." I don't know what will happen in the future. I don't know if it will be a dream, but I think it is worth it. You said, time is slow here, and we still have a lot of time. But I can only reproduce it if I keep dreaming. I remember a song that goes like this. You have to leave your love to the person you love most in your long life, and ask if you can lend me a gentle night to give it to me who loves you. "Say that finish, a bitter throat.

Xiaochang held my waist and smelled the flowers. I don't think I heard you. She took me to the street, shaved ice spots, fish and insect markets, and bookstores. Then, turn into a residential building and walk into Xiao Chang's home.

Xiao Chang brought out a bowl of Mapo tofu and said, in order to see you, I started cooking in the afternoon. This is my first time cooking. If it's not delicious, say it's delicious. I asked her curiously, where are you from and how did you suddenly come back here? She didn't speak, just smiled and said to me, this is called being caught off guard.

It took me a while to calm down before I saw a ray of light from the network of memory. It turns out that this is the dinner that Xiao Chang cooked for me when I came to Kunming for the second time. But just flowers, fish and birds, bookstores, are the days I spent in Kunming and Xiaochang. Memories are upside down again.

Xiao often says, get off the plane so late, you should eat something first. I water my meat first. Say that finish, Xiao Chang carefully put a piece of Mapo tofu to my mouth. Say, you have to remember this smell. I asked, why? She said, because it is unique. I nodded, feeling very spicy, and then a little bitter. I asked her how the bitterness came from. She said, maybe today's chef is in love.

I smiled and stared at the beautiful girl in front of me. After dinner, Xiao Chang pulled me into the bedroom, and both of them were lying on the bed, like two sauries. Listen, it's starting to rain outside, and the leaves are rustling. There is only a desk lamp beside the bed, and the light softens her outline. I looked at Xiao Chang silently and affectionately for the last time, because a week later, we broke up at the airport where I came today.

Xiao Chang looked at me and hid in my pillow like a frightened deer. I kissed her forehead, bit her ear, and began to touch her and touch her back. Suddenly, I touched Xiao Chang's back with four raised bags.

She seemed a little shy, saying that there was something wrong with her skin. I made an appointment with a doctor this summer and cut them all off.

I stopped and said, "You won't die."

"It's too easy to die. I have a long life. A minor illness is a piece of cake. "

"That's good." I am secretly worried.

Xiao Chang holds my face. "Guawazi, look at me," Xiao Chang looked at me with a smile. "You can't die, it's hard to die, it's hard to live, and it's hard to die. Whether you are dead or alive is up to you. " Say that finish, bury your head in my chest.

Accompanied by the sound of rain and the wetness of banana leaves, we rolled together, wandering freely in warm water like a pair of puffer fish that swam up the earliest when spring came.

Then I fell asleep with Xiao Chang.

Then I had a dream that I was lying on the train from Kunming to Dali and dreamed of Kunming in June. The rainy season began, and I heard the rain outside the window at night. In my dream, I met a girl and I asked her who you are. As soon as she turned around, she ran into the rain, smiled back and said to me, Guawazi. Then, it seems that I suddenly entered the Inception space, and I don't know if it was a dream or waking up. Before I knew it, she took me and started running. Suddenly it began to rain, so we stopped running and stopped in front of a shaved ice shop. Looking at the rain, I dare not look at her face. I just watched the cars coming and going in fear, and the crowds were in twos and threes. Wiping the rain on my forehead, I asked her, how long will it rain? She also looked forward and said, I don't know, but Kunming is like this. The rainy season began in June.

I stood beside her, a little overwhelmed. So I ran into the rain and said to her, look, the rain is getting smaller. She looked at me and said nothing. We started walking, she was on the steps and I was in the drizzle. When I reached a street corner, I turned in and found it didn't rain here. She seems to have come to another world. She jumped down and took me to the flower, bird, fish and insect market. Then she went into a bookstore. She is holding the book I sent her in her arms, a pessimistic flower. I bought her a bunch of flowers after I went out. Then we walked slowly in the alternate time of sunshine and rain. Xiao Chang often said, "I tell you, in such a slow time flow, I can only love one person in my life." As I walked, I said, I decided to come to this city for retirement in the future, and then slowly watched the rest of my life pass.

Xiao Chang ignored me.

Slowly we came to Cuihu Park. It seems that I have just been to a familiar place, or I don't know what level of memory I have been to.

Xiao Chang often says, I'll buy the ticket first, and you wait for me here.

Lying on the railing, I said June would be great. In this city, there is always sunshine and rain. You can dance together, with relatives and strangers; You can buy red roses and white roses in the street; You can eat white rice and spicy rice noodles.

I don't know when Xiao Chang jumped out and flew two tickets in his hand, saying that the tickets were all bought. Now I'll take you to eat rice noodles, but I have to hurry. Don't miss the plane.

I looked at her and said, I can meet you or leave you.

Xiao Chang touched my head and said, "What are you talking about? Don't give up on me Hum. " Smile.

I looked at her and said, I have a hunch that this is my dream, and the dream will wake up, but I can dream again. If you are in my heart, just like I was in this city in June, neither you nor I will leave.

She said, "Guawazi, eat quickly, and get on the bus after eating."

I said, okay.

We talked irrelevant words all the way in the car. She asked me if I knew Kunming was rainy in June. I said, yes. She asked, how do you know? I said, you told me. After a short silence, I squeezed Xiao Chang's hand. Then she said that if it is winter, there will be many red-billed gulls in Cuihu for the winter. Come and see Kunming in winter again when you are free.

Arriving at the airport, night gradually fell. We sat side by side on the bench and said nothing. I said, the green lake in winter must be beautiful, too. She said, you will know when you come later.

When the airport started security check, I got up and turned around, only to find that all four friends were around. One of them said that if there is an opportunity in winter, the five of us will get together again in five years. The other said, why five years? Another is that five years has changed a lot, and five years is also very long. Let's make an appointment first The other said, in five years, will you bring your children? !

We laugh together.

When waiting in line, we first found a bench to sit down, with five people side by side, and the queue in front was very long. I asked the person next to me to move over there.

The man looked at me and said, "You just got back from a business trip?"

I said, "Just finished. Graduation trip. "

"I just sent my parents off and they went to Hainan. Leave me here. "

"Then come back, you can be a tour guide. Hello, nice to meet you. " I said.

"Hello, Liu Chang, you can call me Xiao Chang. Take care of it when you meet for the first time. "

Xiao Chang looked at me with such a smile on his face. From her eyes, I saw the sun-covered grass, myself as happy as a fool, and memories from the future.

"done"