(6) People who leave will eventually leave, even if they are close.

"In fact, we didn't contact later. I don't know if I remember it occasionally, but I just fill it with my old memories. All I can do is not to bother me no matter how much I miss it. "

Goodbye, our lost love.

Goodbye, we love each other.

? ( 14)

It's been a long time and I can't sleep at night. I hid under the covers and read about her in Weibo. I read chapter by chapter, which shows how much you love her. But, uh, she can't see you now. You are the only person in the world who knows that you have a crush on her.

Why do you think there is such trouble as being trapped by love in this world?

A Xin used to like listening to Eason Chan's songs, but since we broke up, he no longer likes listening, even afraid to listen.

He told me that on the day he said goodbye to Liu Yue, Eason Chan's Long Time No See was lying on the side of the road, and the lyrics sang "Take the photo you gave me, the street you are familiar with, but we just don't have your photo. Will you suddenly appear in the coffee shop on the corner ... "

He said that this song has the kind of loneliness he likes, at least he can find the love he has paid along the way, at least deeply, and he can let go.

This time, Eason Chan sang "We" and A Xin, and the lyrics sang "When I doubted the world, you gave me the answer. My biggest regret is that your regret is related to me. It's perfect, with no period. Why do you misunderstand the story is not finished ... "

He said that his biggest regret now is the loss of Xiao Tian. He broke his word and gave him a sense of powerlessness and heartache.

I don't know how to comfort him. Fortunately, there is wine and cigarettes in this world, which is enough to offset half the sadness, but what can I do to make up for my emotional weakness?

That night, I didn't say anything. He said everything.

Emotional problems are hard to judge.

It's just a pity that we can't continue to the end together, which is also a relief.

"Sometimes, the separation of a relationship happens to be the beginning of a turning point in your life. It's a little difficult. After all, people who have loved for so long are broken and still have feelings for raising dogs. But when they think about those desperate things, they really can't get married. "

"I said, A Xin, have you ever wanted to go to her, make things clear, and then stay?"

"I have been there."

"What about the result?"

"I lied to the leader that day, saying that my family came to the team and then went to her city. I waited for her downstairs for a long time, but she refused to come to see me. I thought I couldn't forget it, even if I waited for a day, I had to wait and ask, you know? Liang Xu, before I met her, I practiced what I wanted to say in my mind, but when I met her, I forgot all about it. I don't know what to say. I was too arrogant at that moment. I know from her appearance that she is not doing well either. I am very distressed, but I can't say anything when I am distressed. The first sentence is "How are you?" ——

He spoke with a wry smile for a while, unable to say how pale he was.

"I wrote more than ten pages on the train. I wrote down what I said and cried as I wrote. Awkward, isn't it? I can't say why. In just a few months, I really felt for a long time.

"Maybe, when I met someone who had nothing to do with time and distance, I really loved them. Even if I love them for a day, I will recognize them. At least she is a girl who appeals to me. At least she cried for me. When she was this age, the first girl sent me away and cried for me. How can I fail others? I think I should be kind to her, so that I can live with her and make her feel safe enough.

"Maybe, I just can't stand the care and care. The weather turned cold, and she said to me,' Put on more clothes'. I will really be happy all day. When a friend says' put on more clothes', I will only say thank you politely. You say, the same sentence, different people say to me, but have different feelings. Perhaps, the person I like is happy with everything he says, while the person I don't like is redundant.

"I'm probably not suitable for talking about feelings, talking about how tired feelings are. Besides, I have no time to accompany her. She must have been wronged to be with me. If it is good for her to be separated from me, she will choose to quit if she doesn't say it. "

This time, he finished and smiled alone.

In this way, I feel that he is heartbroken when I look at it.

"I asked her why she separated? She told me the answer. What I gave her was more touching. Touching is not love, nor can it give her everything she wants, but what does she want? I really want to know. You say, Xu Liang, am I a failure? I'm so ugly now, right? "

"Brother, why do you say that about yourself? You're already fine. What you pay in your feelings is actually voluntary. Don't worry. Since you don't love, love yourself. "

"I want to, but I can't forget her. I can't fucking make people fall in love. If I can, I can't wait to get to know her, then nothing will happen. "

I was silent. Xiao Tian was introduced to him by me. I really don't know how to face him now that he is like this.

"Brother, I don't blame you. Xiao Tian was introduced to me by your girlfriend. It is too late for me to thank you. At least I loved you, and a clear conscience is enough. "

He is always so considerate.

He planned the future step by step.

He has his own ideas about feelings.

About yourself after being lovelorn, like a child, someone needs to listen and tell him.

He thought about how to keep it. He bought a hundred letters and a thousand kinds of stationery. He wants to write her a letter every day until she changes her mind.

I said, do what you want, at least don't let yourself regret it.

He nodded and said, "Thank you."

I have so much to say to him about this moment, but what's the use of saying it? Not loving is not loving. If you love too much, you will suffer more. If you can keep it back, how can you get rid of the scar left in his heart?

( 15)

Maybe time is the antidote.

Or perhaps, a new love can also be the antidote.

Calculate the next day, A Xin and Xiao Tian have been separated for six months. In this half year, how is A Xin and Xiao Tian doing? I don't know, and I can't ask.

Xiaotian's old place, she moved away and changed to a new place, a place that no one knows.

In the days without Xiaotian, there was no telephone porridge, and the comrades in the class didn't make fun of A Xin's jokes. Life is still going on, training is still needed, and the mentality should be restored.

A Xin's family arranged a blind date for him. I thought it was a happy thing. A Xin only said two words "no need" and hung up the phone coldly. His family never mentioned it again.

Later, A Xin really changed.

There was once a joking A Xin who lost him.

He didn't come on my wedding day. He said he was afraid to meet Xiao Tian, and Xiao Tian didn't come. Probably this is the best result. The most tacit thing two people do at the same time is that you don't contact me and I don't contact you. No one ever loved anyone.

I can feel a little change in his inner world.

Saying no love means no love. It's all self-deception jokes.

He once loved a person deeply, thinking that she would lie in the arms of others and smile at others in the future. How can he easily resolve this pain? He just didn't say it, which is the biggest harm.

My brother A Xin.

These days, you are used to walking alone, even if you are sick, you are so strong.

If drinking can forget the pain, why drink stomach bleeding?

Was sent to the hospital for treatment in the middle of the night. I'm pale and confused. My name has always been Xiaotian. What a sin this has caused. I can't afford to love or hurt.

My brother A Xin.

You see how ridiculous and pathetic you are.

It's okay now, the wine can't touch you, and the smoke can't be smelled. Now your dog has only interesting things left. However, your dog is also sick and dead. You said it tortured you like a joke. I sent you some books, but you still said "thank you" to me as usual.

Having said so much, only you know.

Those who should leave will leave eventually, even if they are close.

He is on vacation. He said that he would visit Hoh Xil.

I said, are you alone?

His answer was so positive, right, just one person, it was originally two people before-

"Well, brother, maybe it would be better to go out for a walk."

"Thank you."

He said, patted me on the shoulder and smiled.

I don't know how relieved this smile is.

He went to send me many photos about Hoh Xil.

I said, "A Xin, you can't just tell me that you went to Hoh Xil. Just send a circle of friends. "

He smiled over there and said, "No, some things have been done, as long as you know."

"Then where are you going next?"

"I want to go to Shiyan City and climb down Wudang Mountain."

"Then have a nice trip, A Xin."

He still said that kind word: "thank you."

I have fewer and fewer opportunities to meet him. He is still alone, and I am two people. Sometimes I call him to come to my house for dinner, and he thinks it's too much trouble to come.

Including his comrades-in-arms, he is the only one left in his world.

I asked him, where will you go for your holiday next year?

He said, go to Gulangyu Island in Xiamen.

I'm still saying-"Maybe I'll feel better if I go out for a walk."

He also said, "Thank you."

When did we become so polite?

What happened afterwards? A Xin only told me that he is doing well now, reading books every day and working when he is busy. Same as usual, but he can't drink any more. Fortunately, he has music as a companion and can comfort himself.

I don't know whether to be grateful or sympathetic. In short, it would be nice if he could get better gradually.

During the chat, I asked him jokingly.

"A Xin, have you met the right girl now?"

He hesitated for a moment and said with a wry smile, "I'd better not look for it now." Don't delay the girl. I have no time, and I can't speak sweet words. "

"Well, don't think so, meet the right first, find a girl who loves you more. It's fairer to you, A Xin. "

"Uh-huh, I see. Let's talk about it when I retire. "

"How many years have you left the army? How old are you then? "

"Not long after, what are you afraid of when you are 30 years old? You know, before the age of 30, choosing the right road is more important than choosing it for people, right? "

"Aren't you afraid of your parents?"

"Emotional things, which have so easy to do, and get married and divorced. Therefore, I must improve myself first, and I must love myself more. "

"It's very kind of you to think so! A Xin, if you are unhappy, let me know. "

"Thank you."

I was about to hang up when he suddenly stopped me over there.

"Liang Xu-"

"A Xin, what's the matter?"

He hesitated for a moment and had something to say.

"That is, if Xiao Tian is married, please tell me, I want to see who is the happiest groom in the world-Xiao Tian is a good girl, she must be happy, she must be happy-"

On the other end of the phone, he was a little depressed.

I didn't know how to answer for a long time. It turned out that he still couldn't forget her. The charming smile that made him fresh in his memory intoxicated him and still called her name in sleepless nights.

"Well, don't worry, A Xin, you should take good care of yourself, too, okay?"

"Thank you."

? ( 16)

We are destined to look for lost things all our lives.

Writing down the story of Ashin, about his sweetness with Xiaotian, became a memory in my mind, but it happened that that memory was the most unforgettable. How much he loved before, and how much he wants to forget now.

For A Xin, the antidote can only be time.

Any new love or old love is superfluous.

What you want is not a living opposite sex, but a soul to communicate with.

Including why he stopped looking for her, obviously revisiting familiar places, obviously so close, she was upstairs, he was downstairs, and there was no contact.

It is not that his heart is dead, but that he is afraid.

Time will tell you the answer to many things.

And this answer is actually given by herself. The choice she made was correct by default. Don't think about it. Everything will pass. Don't regret what you said before. Don't swear easily in the future. Don't be too full of love and don't hurt yourself.

"I hope everyone understands that it is not that more and more people around you are getting married, so you should find someone to get married as soon as possible. Marriage is never a task or something that can be solved in advance. This is a natural thing. You may not see it now. In a few years, you will all be divorced. "

Next time you meet someone you like, remember that if she likes you, will she take the initiative better than you?

Some people are human, and some people have no news.

When some people have never lived in the future, when some people never loved you.

Some people will never forget it, and some people will never forget it.

At the end of the story, it's time to end.

Good night, world.

Good night, A Xin.

Good night, Tian.