A joke cost me everything.

Isn't all this caused by the landlord himself? Everyone has his own control ability. I am not feudal or conservative, but you should know that even if you love deeply, you should pay attention to this, which is why teachers and parents disapprove of puppy love and premarital sex. There's nothing anyone can do now. As far as the present situation is concerned, you are completely passive.

However, judging from the information you introduced, you really think a little more. Because he has been very kind to you so far. What you're worried about is that he won't treat you as well as he does now. Remember, love sometimes depends on fate. It's no use being afraid of you. In short, since you have chosen him, you should trust him and get along well. As for him being a joke, don't worry about it. After all, he also said that he is serious about you now, and you can go your own way. After all, you are an adult. Trust him. I hope you can get along well in the future.