"Human Disqualification": "I please everyone, but I still can't live a good life."

Life can be long or short, but frustrating things are always inevitable;

The pessimism of depression is too strong, but when I think of Japanese writer Osamu Dazai, he is the spokesman of my thought of "depression".

As a representative of Japan's postwar rogue literature, his posthumous work Disqualification on Earth is full of sadness and depression from the aspects of the protagonist's identity, thoughts and life experiences, and is considered to be close to the author's true autobiography.

Life in Osamu Dazai is like a play. He brought his own reality into the novel and dared to tell the ugly side of human nature in life.

What kind of life does this truth in the cloak of literature present to us? He is not only Osamu Dazai, but also Ye Zang. So here, I want to analyze this sad novel with Ye Zang's attitude that "sorrow is greater than death": How did Ye Zang fall into the whirlpool of life step by step?

Even though he was born in a wealthy family with no worries about food and clothing, Ye Zang seems to be an alien born "afraid of human beings" and incompatible with the people around him. Coupled with the depressed family atmosphere and many brothers and sisters, as the youngest, he hardly gets the attention of his parents, so he has been trying to "woo" and "seek attention" all his life because of lack of love since childhood.

His nature is sensitive, fragile, melancholy, insecure and afraid of everything around him; He always thinks too much and is extremely unconfident, so he is self-taught and plays his innate ingratiating nature.

He did not hesitate to vilify himself and won everyone's laughter and love with funny images.

In order to do this, he obliterated his personality and completely twisted himself into a funny freak; This is sad and pitiful, but he succeeded and made himself have a sense of existence in this big family.

In order to please his father, he asked for a lion dance mask that he didn't like;

In order to please his family, he danced Indian dance with ugly tunes;

In order to please his classmates, he draws cartoons and writes interesting stories.

Under his own deliberate ingratiation, he knows more and more how to make everyone laugh, using his superior conditions as a child to disguise his innocence, and deceiving people around him with his funny behavior.

This shows that his ability to please people when he was a child was too skillful and did not match his age. Moreover, in this big family, he seems to have been fighting alone. He not only lacks the care of his parents, but also lacks the friendship from his brothers and sisters. No one really understands his ideas, so that even his servants will please him.

Gradually, he grew up and had the ability to understand human nature, but he was always imprisoned in the name and identity of "Ye Zang", unable to get rid of it and afraid to get rid of it. Because once he is "independent", his spirit will be weak and he will lose the protection of his father.

For this refuge, he hid his nature and relied on the carefree life and money provided by his father. Even though "the funny skills have been perfectly mastered", when studying in a foreign country, he was more afraid of people than before. The more funny and skillful he pretends, the stronger his deadly fear and emptiness will be; Once someone sees through the disguise, they can't stand the idea and get out of control easily.

This is precisely because he lacks the ability to take responsibility, and he is even less confident. Therefore, when he later fell into financial difficulties, his whole life began to derail-giving up on himself, learning to drink, smoke, prostitute, pawn things and participate in left-wing thoughts. Life is full of decadent and frustrated atmosphere, nervous, and always in the thoughts of being suspicious or muddling along.

During Ye Zang's cheating life, many women left traces in his life, both good and bad, but all of them just led him to a different fork in the road. Coupled with his cowardice and indecision, tragedies always repeat the same mistakes.

Especially after he "learned badly" from Horimu, he also honed his ability to communicate with women by dealing with prostitutes.

People are grouped, probably because of this magnetic field. He is good at flirting, pleasing jokes are handy, and he shows a lonely and dissolute attitude from time to time. A woman can "smell" him as an old hand in the field of romance. Since they are "people of the same kind", they will flock to them, or they will be like moths to the fire.

Therefore, when he was in financial difficulties, he began to rely on women because he could not rely on his father.

The novel focuses on his past with three women:

The eldest son of a prostitute was not only the first woman he loved, but also the first woman who committed suicide with him.

Shizuko, a single mother, took the homeless man in and introduced him to the work of drawing cartoons to make money.

His wife, Yoshiko, whose pure and beautiful breath makes him yearn for it, and he is willing to give up drinking and start his life again.

They all seem to have one thing in common: loneliness, dependence and affection for Ye Zang. About female sympathy in our nature, who is the weak and the loving mother; But yoshiko still has the good qualities he yearns for. Unfortunately, this kind of beauty was finally destroyed.

"Disqualification on Earth" wrote: When Yoshiko was insulted by others, Ye Cang, as her husband, did not rescue her, but hid on the roof, with no resentment, disgust and sadness in her heart, only strong fear!

But he was not afraid because of guilt, but because of his cowardice and absconding, afraid of being accused by the gods; This incident shows his natural cowardice more vividly. He didn't have the courage to protect his wife, and he was still a "giant baby" who didn't grow up and take responsibility.

He cried for this and lost confidence in everything, but it was not because he loved Yoshiko deeply, but because his "innocent heart of trust" was defiled. The more unreasonable he is, the more he feels inferior and suspects that his wife has something to do with the rapist, and the more he indulges in life and death. He was addicted to drugs and alcohol, unable to escape from self-abuse and indulged in hell. Finally, after the second narrow escape, he became a cripple and lived in a mental hospital.

The full text vividly describes Ye Zang's sad and twisted mental state, and his "mourning" way of thinking runs through his every behavior. So his tragedy can be avoided?

Probably there is, but unfortunately, there are always villains around him who keep doing evil. They can't tolerate him living a happy life and living better than them. So he put on a mask of hypocrisy and stretched out his sinful hand.

Ye Zang probably never lacks fair-weather friends around him, but he never seems to think about why there are always such people around him-it is too much to say that it is a ghost.

Like Mr. Setian, a speculator.

This man who tried to please Ye Zang's father and was teased into a "flounder"; After Ye Zang's first double suicide, the "flounder" took him in, as if he had caught a big handle and instantly revealed his two faces, but the "flounder" always had only one purpose-greed.

"Flounder" embezzled the money given to him by Ye Zang's family and preached and restrained him in a false way, but the most stupid thing of "Flounder" was to express that Ye Zang's family wanted him to continue his studies.

"Flounder" is pretending to be an elder with righteous words for "unspeakable vanity and face concept", trying to influence Ye Cang with a seemingly painstaking conversation. In fact, I just want to get Ye Zang's humble gratitude and add an invisible "glory" to myself.

However, this is a lot of good things. Beating around the bush in "Flounder" Yuzryha was ashamed of himself. This conversation that didn't talk about the key points completely changed Ye Zang's later life-he was wandering both physically and mentally.

Then there is the loss of friends.

In fact, Ye Zang knows that Horimu is using himself and despises himself, but he can't resist the temptation. It's easy to get drunk and dream of death, and then go on to another unfortunate start.

When Ye Zang still had money, they squandered the pocket money given by Ye Zang's father together and indulged their body and mind under the temptation of Horiki. When he had no money, he learned to sell his possessions and pawn women's clothes in exchange for expenses at the instigation of Horimu. It is no exaggeration to say that all his bad habits were established by Horiki.

So should we blame bad friends?

In fact, no matter how bad the people around you are, if Ye has an independent mind and a firmer attitude, then in a relatively stable marriage, he will not be easily hurt again by Hori. His mind is vacillating and he has no ability to distinguish good from bad. He doesn't care much about quiet days.

Drinking, taking drugs and being in a fog, he also knows that this is a shameful, filthy and sinful thing; However, the development trend of the situation has made him irreparable. Even if he wants to die, he can't make up his mind. He can only live while hating himself.

At the end of Disqualification on Earth, Ye Zang's life is summed up in the words of the bar owner: "It's all his father's fault. Ye, as we know him, is upright and follows the rules. Drink if you don't drink ... be a good boy like God. " The proprietress appeared briefly in the novel several times, but she was probably the bystander who knew Ye Zang best. Through the impetuous and chaotic surface, she saw the essence of Ye Zang's uneasiness, lack of love and loneliness.

From the time Ye couldn't hide from the group dormitory, staying in different women's homes, to marriage and infidelity after marriage, his body and mind have been going out; Although there are many women around him, their love and Ye Zang's natural pessimism are doomed to be irreconcilable.

Whether passive or active, Ye Cang is always too worried about life and human beings; The words and deeds of trembling and struggling to please have been buried in his bone marrow, so he has to wear a clown mask to wander around the world all the time.