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Love is robbed by Qian Qian —— I, a civil servant's extramarital monologue

You have no weakness, but I do, and I like it.

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Busy for half a year, no time to write.

I have always been a serious bystander. I am such a person, a bystander of society, not a participant in society. However, I have been thinking about a question, whether there are so many people in the city now who have so much time and feelings to have sex and extramarital affairs outside marriage.

How many emotional components does an ordinary man have during sexual relations or extramarital affairs, and what percentage of other components do they have?

Many times, we don't believe in feelings, and we dare not talk about feelings, but we are eager to have feelings.

How much pressure a man has, how complicated his heart can be.

For writing convenience, I used the first person. Please put me and Xiaolan in the right place.

In addition, because I am busy writing online, I update it once a day (maybe I will be free in a week). Please try your best to remind me ... some questions in the post may not be answered one by one, please forgive me. ....

lingering light of the setting sun

( 1)

When night falls, the neon lights on the street outside the window flicker. After dinner, make a cup of tea, turn on your mobile phone and surf the Internet. Looking for the lost answer in reality in the virtual ... switching input methods, but I don't know what to type. I never know how to say it. I have wasted many years and watched countless prosperity, but my heart is still very calm, because this world does not belong to me and I do not belong to this world. But sometimes it is not calm, because the world belongs to me and I belong to this world.

The silent night sky is always dark, and the darkness is dotted with people's eternal fresh dreams. How far is the distance between reality and illusion? Maybe no one can answer. But I know the distance is not far. When I went to Qiu Lai in spring, my life was only a few brief autumn coolness. Looking back, I can see everything falling in front of me. The shortness of a life and the emptiness behind it often make people lament.

I am often used to listening to CDs quietly by myself, such as this song "Sunset on the Peak". A good movie often has a good piece of music. Very gentle, but slightly bleak. The flowers of two trees are eclipsed, and those who prosper will decline if they have vicissitudes. Flowers bloom and fall, even the brightest stars disappear, not to mention the world we came to in an accidental moment.

It's a big dream in the world, and life is cool in autumn several times. ......

(2) Every morning, I will get up at 6: 30, make breakfast and wake up my wife Wei. I always looked at her lovely face carefully and kissed her gently, but she still didn't wake up, so I scratched her neck gently. She opened her eyes and looked at me, crooked her mouth and said, stop arguing and go back to sleep. So I said, "get up, piggy, the sun is beating small PP!" " "She will open her eyes and look at me angrily:" I am not a pig! " "I continued to laugh at her pink pajamas:" pink pig "! When she got angry, I washed and ate, and I sent her to work.

At that time, she was sitting in the back seat of a motorcycle, hugging me tightly with her hands and sometimes rubbing her face against me. Sometimes she is late and runs a red light. She screams, "What are you doing?"

I didn't look back: "otherwise I'll be late."

Wei said, "I'm afraid."

I said, "Don't be afraid."

At the door of her office, I always watch her disappear into the corner of the hall and then leave.

That's how her day with me began.

I am Lan, an ordinary national civil servant.

I looked at my watch when I arrived at the office. At 7: 58, I was relieved. I'm not used to being late and I don't think it's a good habit to arrive early. Our parents often warned us when we first joined the work, young people, to be diligent. I was deeply impressed at first, but later I found that when you start to be diligent, you plan to be diligent all your life, especially in a job like ours that will never change once in your life. So I gradually became less diligent.

As soon as I sat down, Xiao Gui came in: "Director Lan, Zheng Bureau said this speech needs to be scrutinized. He left it to me when you left yesterday. "

I looked at her: "I just arrived, can I start working with some water?"

She murmured in a low voice, "No one won't let you drink ..."

I pretended not to hear: "You will be here watching me this morning. You are free, aren't you? " Well, the minutes of the last seminar on studying Scientific Outlook on Development in the bureau haven't been sorted out yet. Do it. "

"Just go." She hurried out.

"Don't always forget to close the door."

She turned and closed the door.

I breathed a sigh of relief, opened the drawer, found out the medicine bottle, looked at the pure white tablets, and quietly watched the hot air of boiling water linger, rise and disappear.

I have a stomachache.

It's still morning.

(4) I opened the door again and there was nothing I could do. In order to rectify the "difficult door, ugly face and difficult things", this year's new regulations stipulate that all offices should be open, and they should be stated on the destination card when going out to do things. In fact, even if the door is easy to enter, the face may not look good, and things may not be easy. Of course, I often don't give others a good face, and others often don't give me a good face. Sometimes, institutions are like a tree full of monkeys. Looking up, it's all ass, looking down, it's all smiling faces.

I dialed the phone without reading yesterday's manuscript: "Xiao Chen, come to my office." As a matter of fact, he is in the big office next door to me, just like Xiao Ting, but I will never go there to make a phone call. Because that's what the leader called me when I was first assigned. There are many reasons in the world, but they are the habits of most people; Most people are used to it, which is a fact.

Xiao Chen came over and habitually adjusted the glasses on his nose: "Michelle, there is nothing wrong with the manuscript. Why change it again? " This is the difference between him and Xiaoji. Xiaoji always calls me Director Lan, always calling me. Because my office director is a section chief, at the end of the administrative system.

I looked at the manuscript and then at him: individual words need to be considered, and there is no big problem. Some parts, especially the beginning and the end, should conform to the tone of the leader, and don't write the tone of our soldiers. "

Xiao Chen promised to go out.

Actually, I know there is no need to change the manuscript at all. It's not that the manuscript is bad, it's the habit of leaders to kick it back. Because I don't rework it several times, it's not serious. In fact, even if it is wrong, it doesn't matter much, as long as other leaders don't pay attention to it-because no one listens at all.

Xiao Chen is a master's graduate, and has just taken the civil service examination for one and a half years. Xiao Gui is an undergraduate and has been admitted for two and a half years.

I am also an undergraduate. I have been working for nine years. I am thirty years old.

(5) Since the work, it has been very smooth. I always thought so. Not much, just a little more than my peers. Sometimes in China, your birth determines your life. Most people can't be much better than most people. To surpass others and reach the peak of power requires background, intelligence, temperament and luck. There are often smart people, but few people with background and luck. Personally, I also think that temperament is very important on the road to politics. Some people are not all bad, what is bad is temperament. The reason is that in the class of primary school students, the monitor is not necessarily the best in academic performance. So, I seriously think about my life, and I can't think of any reason why I can be the best. Therefore, I only define myself as a person of medium height, a little more than people of the same age.

I agree with myself: before you want to be an elite, find yourself a reason to be an elite.

Of course, there will be some changes after work. I quickly put away the tail of little bourgeois in college. It is ok to cheat girls in college, but it is often annoying at work. Our fathers, who have experienced such a fiery age, have an almost instinctive resistance and separation from the petty bourgeoisie.

At work, we should be a small club.

In life, you should give petty bourgeoisie and money at will.

6) Read the newspaper, "The water company is solemn and clear". Such headlines. I smiled in my heart. I deserve it. I didn't want to be cruel when I should be cruel. When I shouldn't be cruel, you are cruel. Residents use two yuan a ton of water, and commercial water is also two yuan. I deserve to be dragged away by the owner. How many people owe water bills? Fire hydrants are everywhere.

I turned two pages casually and the phone rang again. The Forestry Bureau asked me to go to his office and let me and Lao Zhang of the trade union go to the hospital to see Secretary Ding.

I hurriedly called Lao Zhang, but I sighed in my heart. Secretary Ding is an old director, and now he takes a back seat. When I first started working, Secretary Ding was the director. At that time, when I was at school, Director Ding took a fancy to me, which prevented me from being hit by the first wave of undistributed times like my classmates. In the second year of work, I was given the establishment of civil servants. At this level, you are grateful to me.

However, in his later years, others were unlucky. First, my wife had a stroke and stayed at home for half a year. Now she can only move on the left. Then his own eyes were broken, and I don't know how the hospital did it. The cataract was removed and his retina fell off. After watching for months, he still can't see anything in his left eye. Fortunately, medical expenses are reimbursed and my wife has medical insurance. Just one son, working and getting married in Beijing, with few people around him. When I went to see him a few weeks ago, I felt thinner every time I saw him.

7) Zheng Bureau used to be the deputy director. When Ding Bureau reached the age, it took over in order. This vacant deputy director, originally everyone thought that Ye San was the most promising-everyone knew that he was from Zheng Bureau. But I didn't expect that the Forestry Bureau was transferred from the municipal party committee, and at the same time there was a transfer order, and Ye Chu went to the branch office to be the director. Although it is a flat tone, it is also a dark loss.

There are often rumors that Lin Bureau and Zheng Bureau are at odds, saying that Zheng Bureau is worried about Ye Chu. Of course, this is a matter for leaders.

I have always believed that leaders should solve their own problems. Because you really don't know who will be your leader in the future.

But strangely, Juzheng mentioned me. There was no director of the office, although there were a few young scholars and clerks, although I was already the chief clerk. Zheng bureau attaches great importance to writing, so there is a director's office in the bureau. From the day I became the director, I wrote a speech for seven years and began to learn to read documents.

(8) People often say that I work for Zheng Ju, of course, not in front of me, but behind my back. In fact, in an institution, there is nothing in front of you and nothing behind you. The back is also noodles.

Whose man am I?

Actually, I don't even know.

I have always believed that leaders should not be treated as buddies and friends. And leaders have no friends. As the old saying goes, it is difficult to raise only women and villains. In fact, it is difficult to support only women and leaders. If you are far away, you will be angry, but if you are near, you will not forgive. It's annoying to alienate the leader. If you do too much for the leader, he will be afraid of you and get close to him slowly. Therefore, it is a truth to please leaders and girls: pay attention to the principle of boundaries and grasp a degree, between affinity and sparseness. In fact, interpersonal relationships are psychological warfare.

Treat leaders as leaders and women as women. Always remember that neither of them can be trusted.

(9) Get on the bus and go to the hospital with Lao Zhang. Secretary Ding's left eye still doesn't look in, and he is losing his temper. The nurse's cold face-if it is not the medical expenses of the unit, it is estimated that she is not just a cold face. Seeing us come in, she took the plate and left.

Secretary Ding came to see us and greeted us for tea. In fact, I am a very picky person. I never drink tea. I only drink a little Pu 'er tea at most. Listen to them with a paper cup and say a few words occasionally. People like to chat in the past when they are old, and Secretary Ding is no exception. He began to talk about striking tables with the leaders of the city bureau when he was at the grassroots level and in the sub-bureau. When he arrived at the city bureau, he asked the unit for a house and had a fight with the housing manager. ....

Lao Zhang has been looking at his watch. I could feel his impatience and smiled in my heart. In fact, people are old, lest others think they are old, and they always like to use their past abilities to prove that they are not old. This is human instinct, especially for people who have been strong all their lives like Secretary Ding. In the eyes of others, this is a nagging about seniority. Maybe one day, Lao Zhang will be more verbose than Secretary Ding.

10) secretary ding seems to feel something, and his eyebrows are slightly wrinkled. I smiled and said to Lao Zhang, "Lao Zhang, you go back to the station first, and I will accompany Secretary Ding to find a doctor. That nurse was too prickly just now. "

Lao Zhang hurriedly got up to leave. Through the window, I silently breathed a sigh of relief when I watched the unit car disappear at the end of the parking lot.

Secretary Ding stood up again, and I quickly said, "Secretary, I'll pour it."

Secretary Ding smiled: "Xiaolan, you have made progress again."

I brought tea to Secretary Ding: "Be careful, it's still hot."

Secretary Ding blew three times according to the old habit, put it in his left hand, and habitually knocked on the cup with his right hand: "Did Ye Shenjing (Ye Chu) return to the bureau recently?"

I replied: "Very rarely, just once or twice a month, come with other branch leaders."

Secretary Ding knocked on the cup again: "I will officially retire in three months. What is the statement of the bureau? "

I replied, "No, no one will tell me anything."

Secretary Ding smiled at me, took a sip of tea and said, "Go home quickly."

I stood up: "secretary, if there is anything, just call. I'll talk to the doctor first. Now the hospital is snobbish and has a whole money counter! "

Secretary Ding watched me walk to the door and stopped me: "Xiaolan, come here."

I hurried back: "Secretary, what happened to that nurse? Tell them to change it later? "

Secretary Ding didn't speak. Look at me for a long time: "Xiao Lan, how is your family recently?"

I replied: "Not bad, her unit welfare is quite good."

"To have a child in a few years, young people will be like this, and so will we. All the same. Is step by step ... "

(1 1) came out of the hospital, but I kept thinking about what Secretary Ding said. After a pause, I thought about going back to work. I see it's almost noon, and I'm going to walk to a nearby Italian noodle restaurant to eat noodles.

I am a stubborn person. If a thing has been determined, it is difficult to change it. When I was still in college, I went to Pizza Hut and accidentally found that the small building next to me was also his family's industry, specializing in noodles. This is to my taste, so I became a frequent visitor there.

This small building is just what I want. The decoration is mainly dark, with three floors, the first and second floors are business premises, and the third floor is staff dining room. I like the dark brown tables and chairs inside, especially the row facing the street and by the window. The second seat is my favorite. Sitting there, through the French window, you can only see the street. Looking at the bright red and green bus coming slowly with the advertisement, it is gone in an instant. Of course, I also saw many young boys and girls cuddling and kissing each other. How nice it is to be young.

I like to walk there slowly on weekends and sit in my fixed seat. I'll go a little earlier than the normal meal time, so it won't be too crowded and the waiter is familiar with it. Therefore, others pay the bill before meals, but I often enjoy the discount of paying the bill after meals.

At first, it was all spaghetti and cream mushroom soup. I think its soup is too strong, so I asked my boss to change it into cucumber juice. Because I ate too much, the waiters changed one after another, but they were all familiar with me and remembered my bad habits, hehe. The tomato beef noodles cooked by the earliest chefs are the best. At the end of the fire, the tomato melted into thick juice, but it had no skin and rustled with the beef. I can eat two servings by myself. Later, a chef changed. His specialty was beef brisket with black pepper, but the tomato dish was not as delicious as before. Up to now, I estimate that at least seven or eight chefs have changed, but each one has a special dish, so I will continue my noodle eating career.

When I ate the year before last, I suddenly made a big move. I didn't eat monotonous spaghetti, but domestic long noodles, but the method was mainly Italian. A few days later, I actually saw the menu changed, one of which was: lion head noodles, and the other was: three layers of meat noodles. I was wondering when the waiter came over and said, new, order one? I said, yes. I was disappointed when I served it. It's braised lion's head noodles, an old-fashioned braised pork noodles in Taiwan Province Province. If I want to eat lion's head, I might as well go to a restaurant. I'm here for noodles. Where is this noodle? I was cheated and refused to eat these innovative new noodles combining Chinese and western.

(12) walked to the front of the noodle restaurant, nodded to the waiter, and was about to enter the door when the cell phone rang. It's ting.

"What is it?"

"Director, did you eat? We are going to eat little sheep. Come here, that's the one on the lakeside road ... "

"Oh, no, I have ordered noodles. Go by yourself. If we go together next time, I will pay the bill. "

I walked into the noodle restaurant, walked to my most familiar seat, turned to the waiter and said, "A tomato beef noodle and a cucumber juice."

The phone rang again. This is a micro phone.

"Honey, I'm hungry and want to eat live fish ..."

"Good boy, please help yourself. I had dinner with several colleagues, and the mutton was ready ... "

I put the phone down and breathed a sigh of relief. The waiter brought me noodles. I looked at the slight foam on the surface of cucumber juice, and watched it burst a little, and finally turned into a cup of light green.

(13) I slowly came out of the noodle restaurant and wanted to take a taxi back to the office. Think about it and take a few steps. After all, I just ate. There are more and more beggars on the roadside, with novel designs and even holding urns. I only give it to old people who play erhu or young people who play guitar and sing.

Suddenly, I saw two figures crawling beside the dustbin in front of DOS.

Two children are picking up garbage to eat.

They are picking up the discarded cones after eating ice cream, some French fries wrapped in bags, and even tearing open empty milk cartons. Just to lick the milk inside.

I looked at it, looked at it again, and went up and gave them ten dollars. A taxi came with an empty light and stopped beside me.

Suddenly feel hypocritical.

Knowing that the money will not go to the children, knowing that the children's money will go to a group of adults who make a living from them, knowing that I might as well spend five more minutes buying them two hamburgers, and knowing that I want to take them to the police station. ......

But I didn't.

Because I don't want to trouble myself. I know very well that I am an ordinary person.

I once again told myself that I must not be the bottom of society.

I was fascinated by paul fussell when I was in college, which made me afraid of becoming the bottom of society and yearned for becoming the middle class.

The driver stopped and I stopped thinking. The troops have arrived.

(14) There is a group of people around the door of the unit. Stranger still, there are piles of sugar cane lying around. I saw Xiao Chen talking in the crowd at a glance. I was just about to call him. He saw me and ran to me in a hurry.

"Whose cane is this? Why at the gate? "

"Fruit Lele company sent it to us, saying it was for our bureau. Zheng ju was resting, and we didn't dare to make a phone call. While you were away, the car of someone else's company left the door. "

"Why don't you call my cell phone?"

"I just came back from dinner. The canteen is very crowded ... "

"Well, you and Ding Xiao count a little and see how many pieces are in a * * * *?"

.....

"Director Lan, a small bundle of ***200, a bundle of about 10, and nine others."

"According to 10, how many of us have part-time jobs?"

"About 10 has not been compiled, and the number of health workers sweeping the floor does not exceed 17. The other three offices plus an office *** 1 13. "

"That you go to call, all people, no matter what part-time, everyone take 15 root, can't be choosy. Line up in order, take it and leave, and finish it in half an hour. "

"ok."

Xiao Chen went to the guard room to dial the phone. I looked at my colleague who was talking about sugar cane with some disgust.

(15) "Well, one person gets 15. Everybody line up and take them away. "

They began to talk: "How can one take 15?"

"Your office should be separated ..."

"Don't take it at a young age, told us to carry it to the seventh floor and take it off after work. There is something wrong with it ... "

"Wu Jie, thanks to the elevator ... oh, it's so long, can the elevator be put in ..."

I looked at the crowd. Wu Jie, the accountant of the three places, was discussing with several female colleagues, but he didn't mean to start work. She is thirty-seven years old. Her husband has been missing for almost ten years because of a car accident and has never looked for it again. It is not easy to live alone with a child. Fortunately, children live up to expectations and study well. Although they are only in grade one, they have won one or two places in several English competitions in the city.

I cleared my throat. "We take 15 root. It's the same regardless of the official zero hour. Hurry up, or I'll go to work at once and pile them at the door. If the leaders of the municipal party Committee look at it, it will not look good. "

The crowd buzzed, but it began to line up. Chen Xiao, who finished the phone call, came back and began to make phone calls. Another Xiao Wang is helping to remove the straw rope. I suddenly felt a stomachache.

Xiao Wang saw it: "Director Lan, you don't look well?"

I quickly yawned and hid: "Nothing, I want to sleep, sleepy ~ ~ ~"

Sister Wu, who was moving sugar cane, looked up and said, "Are you sleepy so young? What if we move to the seventh floor? "

I looked at her: "it's very tiring to move things at noon, but there are only six people in the office, and the security guards are all at their posts." Who will move? "

She stopped talking, so I turned to Xiao Chen and said, "You go there and open it, and our office will get it in the end."

(16) They all moved away, leaving only seven people in our office at the gate.

"Let's take it, too."

"Who eats sugar cane except children?" Xiaogui looked at me discontentedly. "How can I go home with sugar cane? I live in a dormitory. How can I eat fifteen by myself? "

"Xiao Chen, you buy a juicer tomorrow, within 300 yuan." I felt a strong desire for water, so I forbeared to say to them, "Don't reimburse the money, just take it from the newspaper we sold last time and give me a ticket later."

I was about to go back when Xiaoji pointed to the sugarcane on the ground: "Michelle, won't you take your share?"

"You help me pick it up together. I'm lazy this time ... "

Go back to the office, swallow the pills and pour the water. Actually, I have a stomachache after work. When I was writing a speech in the first year, I was often alone in the office, swallowing instant noodles that I didn't want to eat. I clearly remember that there was no fashionable Master Kong at that time, and there were many "Hongfa", sparerib noodles, egg noodles and three fresh noodles. But for me, it makes no difference except the packaging bag. Because I just eat and drink a little water and never drink tea.

(17) I will call Wei after work. "Baby, zheng bureau wants me to accompany him to dinner in the evening. Eat by yourself. Be good, be sure to eat. "

Slightly unhappy: "Why did you go again?"

Me: "No way, darling, go back and bring you Indian flying cakes, darling pig ..."

Wei: "I am not a pig!" "

Me: "Pink pig ..."

Wei: "I want something sweet! Also, don't come back to vomit and smoke after eating smelly things! "

Me: "Good wife, I know ..."

Out of the gate, I walked slowly along the sidewalk. Many young boys and girls came face to face. The city in early winter was bathed in the soft afterglow of the sunset. There are faint shadows and harmonious light and shadow on the thin branches without leaves.

I went to the gate of a community and bought roses in a flower shop, pink champagne roses. This is a warm flower. "Match it with the stars in the sky." I said to the shopkeeper.

The shopkeeper hesitated, but he did it anyway. Obviously, no one has asked for this before.

Looking at the wrapped bouquet of roses and the faint sunset in the west. Blue sky.

The sky is blue, and blue doesn't necessarily represent the sky.

Write here, infinite regrets. ..........

We spend our time like this every day until we disappear into the place where water meets sky in our life. .........

Nobody knows how unfair we are. In the end, we seem to be just a blank sheet of paper under the ashes of time, gently covering it up. ....

Tell yourself that I was young once. ........

Draw a memory for the future ..........

Erhei coffee

Tonight, the moonlight is like water.

The rotating neon lights have gone and come back.

Whose old guitar is this?

Play heartbreaking.

Wave for two cups of black coffee.

for you

Help me touch the cup.

Don't say regret when you wake up.

Black coffee black coffee

It took years to drink this cup.

Black coffee black coffee

How to accept such a stranger?

Don't tell me.

How haggard are you after you left?

This cup of black coffee is a dry tear for you and me.

I have always liked this song, so I took it as the opening of the second chapter.

( 17)

Coffee smells like yesterday ... writing here, I sigh that time flies ... black is a delicate lie, and coffee is an adult's ambiguity. I think people all over the world know that it will never be far away, but I am not tired of saying and listening to the words "You love me, I love you". People always spend time deceiving others and themselves. ......

I came to the door and tapped on it three times.

The door opened.

It is Gui who opens the door.

Me: "I'm hungry. Is there anything to eat? "

Gui didn't speak. Look at me.

I pushed the children in and closed the door.

"I didn't let you in."

"Others can't see clearly."

"Why don't you have dinner with me at noon?"

"I have already ordered."

"You must be having dinner with your wife, or I said why didn't you come when we had dinner together? You know I like to eat hot pot in cold weather, why not come? "

"Of course I know what you said is a lie. You are so neat, you will eat hot pot with others? Especially Xiao Chen? "

Tan looked at me: "You know, why don't you come with me?"

"I don't like people lying to me."

"Then where are you?"

"Eat."

"With your wife?"

"So what?"

Look at me unjustly and don't talk.

Let me see the food on the table. Baked beans in Provence, fried salmon, fish-flavored eggplant, crab stewed tofu, cucumber preserved egg soup. It is difficult for her to do this in such a short time.

"Well, I'll eat it myself at noon."

"Really?"

"Really." I am busy scooping up a piece of tofu and putting it in my mouth. "Yes, there is progress, but the stew is a little old."

(18) Tan Duan looked at me with a rice bowl: "You can cook, why never do it?"

"This is not what I taught you? At first you couldn't even fry eggs. "

"Do you always cook for your wife at home?"

"Let's eat."

She ate a bowl and put it aside to watch me eat. I swept it without hesitation.

Put down the bowl with satisfaction: "Today's meal is more delicious than last time. Remember to drop some vinegar in the rice next time you cook. It's so soft. "

"I know."

"You have a rest and I'll do the dishes."

I was washing dishes when Gui hugged me from behind.

"Blue, that's very kind of you."

"What's the use of me? I didn't find it myself. "

"Remember the first day I came to report for duty? I left my employment notice at home. When I arrived at the unit, I found that others laughed at me. You accompanied me to take a taxi to get it. "

"It's strange that you often forget things."

"Will you help another girl?"

"yes."

She stopped talking and her hands gradually loosened.

(19) Come to the small hall after washing the bowl. She sat on the sofa angrily and ignored me.

"Don't be angry."

"I hate you for being nice to others! Hate! "

"Then you hate it." I picked up my coat and was ready to go.

She looked at me and cried slowly: "I just want you to stay with me." I wanted to talk to you in the morning, but you drove me away. "

I sat down with a sigh: "That's the office."

"No one else, just chat."

"People will come." I pulled out a tissue to wipe her tears. "Don't cry."

"Stay with me."

In the bathroom, I adjust the water to cold water. I have formed the habit of taking a cold bath for a long time. It was in college, and my hot water kettle was used, so I washed my own cold water and gradually got used to it.

Her things are all over the table. Girls are always like this. I noticed that she changed me a new soap.

I am a stubborn person, or have a high brand loyalty. Once I have decided on a brand, I will never change it. Like taking a shower. For decades, I only used one kind of soap, namely sulfur soap from shanghai jahwa. As long as shanghai jahwa doesn't close the door, I'll keep using it, and I won't consider anything else.

There is no reason, but I like the taste, fresh, simple and quiet.

Sometimes the taste can deeply warm people, especially sensitive people.

(20) Holding her in bed, Gui's hair was dry and slightly wet, and there were a few thin beads of sweat on the tip of her nose. I brushed her hair gently: "Did you dye your hair again?"

"It has been several days."

"Hair dyeing is not good for people's health."

"You don't like it yourself?"

"Sort of."

Gui suddenly turned over on me: "Lan, don't go back at night, will you accompany me?"

"impossible."

She stopped talking, just drew a circle on my shoulder with her finger, and my skin felt the moisture of water vapor.

I know, she cried.

I sighed heavily in my heart and sat down and held her in my arms: "Don't cry."

"Why do you always ask me so many questions? Don't do this or that. I just want you to accompany me!"

"Am I not with you?"

"But I want to be with me at night!"

"You know, I can't do that. Do you think I will do what I can't do? Would you do it if it were you? "

She stopped talking.

I put on my clothes and button up.

Gui prone on the bed, cocked his head to see me; "Did she buy this dress?"

"I won't wear clothes bought by any woman, because my clothes are one.