The heroine found that her boyfriend and best friend betrayed her, rushed into the rain and died in a car accident by bus.

Man is really a wonderful thing. You don't know how to cherish what you have, but you regret it when you lose it. Youth is the most beautiful and precious time in everyone's life. This is the birth of a dream. No amount of money can buy the best time to build and reserve yourself. And my youth is dull and lifeless, and I spent it completely in extreme pain. And all this is because of prostitution. This devil almost ruined my youth. Today, I decided to tell my painful experience. The following words are all my true stories. I hope everyone can learn my lesson after seeing it, take me as a warning and stay away from lewdness.

I am 22 years old and was born in the countryside. When I was a child, my family was not very good. My parents are ordinary farmers and didn't graduate from junior high school. My mother is sick all the year round, and my father works outside. So I have hardly received a normal family education. But he still cares about me. Grandparents are still alive and have loved me since childhood. I remember when I was three or four years old, my grandmother often told me that I was smart. But I couldn't remember it then. When I was about five or six years old, I had a black and white TV at home. My mother likes watching TV very much. At that time, there were not many TV stations, but as long as I was at home, I almost watched them, probably because of my mother's influence, and I especially liked watching them. I remember watching TV once and seeing some intimate scenes. That woman was also very enchanting. Wearing revealing clothes. I don't know why from then on, I was possessed by the devil and was very interested in beautiful women. I always want to be with them and even imagine that they are my mother. You know, at that time, he was only five or six years old, a kid with so much lust. It can be seen that he began to accumulate criminal karma from an early age. Whether you watch TV or see beautiful women in reality, you will have evil thoughts and fantasize about having close contact with them. At this time, you just feel curious, and then immerse yourself in psychosexuality until you feel comfortable. I even found that it was underdeveloped at that time, and sometimes I would destroy myself many times a day. One morning, I woke up and did something annoying when my father suddenly came in. He saw my lewd behavior. Then he asked me what I was doing: I was too scared to speak. Young as I am, I don't know that this is a shameful act. My dad told my mom. I remember they just said it was bad and didn't say much. Therefore, if parents find that their children have signs in this respect, they should educate their children in time and warn them of the dangers of doing so!

After I started school at the age of five, I often fantasized about the female classmates in my class and often fought with them. I remember that it was after school in grade one, and a girl and I finally left the classroom. I suddenly got up, then lied to the girl about playing games, and then hugged her and kissed her secretly. Girls may think it's fun, too, and they don't resist. Until you are satisfied. Now that I think about it, I am really an animal. I am not as good as a pig and a dog. You can do such a nasty thing at an early age. I am deeply sorry for that girl. I wonder if it will leave a shadow on her life. I hope she can have a good life in the future. Having said that, some people may ask, isn't heaven evil? I have done so many lewd things, why didn't I get what I deserved! In fact, karma has come unconsciously. When I was seven, I used to play with my friends. Everyone climbed onto a haystack and jumped down one by one. When I jumped down, I suddenly found that my left leg was very painful and I couldn't walk at all. I cried with fear. I don't know if I will be disabled in my life. Later, I was carried home by my little guy. At that time, my family was also very anxious and didn't know what to do! Later, I invited a village expert who claimed to be very good at treating bone injuries, and then I looked at it and said it was a common sprain, and then it was in my thigh.

Put a bandage on it and let it rest at home for a while. But after lying at home for a few days, not only did I not get better, but my thighs became more and more swollen and almost numb. Later, my grandfather saw that the situation was wrong and took me to the hospital to take pictures.

Only then did I know that it was a thigh fracture, which was not an ordinary bone injury at all. The doctor said that if you lie down for a few days and your bones grow out, you may be a basket case all your life. Your family was in a cold sweat. Later, my father lent me money for surgery. Spent 5000 yuan, stayed in the hospital for two months, and dropped out of school that year. Now I know that this is the retribution of lewdness! Why am I the only one who is okay? Actually, the haystack was not high, so I jumped.

There's nothing. Everyone else is fine. This is God's punishment for me and a warning to me. But it is still young! Prostitution consumes blessings and money. I have no idea that this is the retribution of prostitution, and my mind is still filthy. So karma is not over yet. My mother died when I was eight years old and got leukemia. In order to treat my mother, it can be said that I sold iron. My relatives and friends borrowed everything they could. During that time, my father was under too much pressure, but unfortunately I didn't understand his pain at that time. Then my mom left, leaving my dad in debt. At that time, the family was poor and heavily in debt. But I didn't feel a trace of sadness at that time, which shows that lewdness has affected my mind and wisdom and made me indifferent. This is the retribution of unfilial!

In primary school, although I was not particularly smart, I was not particularly stupid. Although she is immoral, she basically comes first in every exam. Teachers and classmates like me very much. It's pretty! When I graduated from primary school, I was successfully admitted to junior high school (if I failed, I would go to the sixth grade, which wasted an extra year. ), the people in the village also praised me, saying that I would be a talent in the future, and I was quite proud at that time. Hehe, and I'm still a slut. And still enjoy it. As we all know, there is a god who raises his head three feet, and what goes around comes around is yet to come. In the year of SARS, my dear old man suddenly got kidney disease. The disease tortured him for seven years and all the people in our big family. It is also because of his illness that his extended family is constantly in conflict and disharmony. Frequent fights and quarrels once alarmed the police station and became a joke that everyone in the village talked about. Grandparents in their 60 s were hit hard. Finally, the two guys left in pain, leaving a young brother and sister. I remember crying very sadly. Now I know that it is also caused by my lewdness, because lewdness will make the family fortune decline, not only on myself, but also on others. This is really karma. Adultery will attract ghosts and bring disaster to family members. Here I want to confess to two people in heaven. You used to love me as much as my father, but my nephew failed to live up to your expectations because my sin brought you disaster. I will often burn paper in front of your grave in the future. Please forgive me. My nephew must repent. May you bless me in the spirit of heaven.

After junior high school, my lewdness has not decreased, but has intensified, and I have been completely controlled by lewd demons. I arrived in a new class and met some new female students in the class. I was so happy that I thought I had a new psychosexuality. Then I sleep every night thinking about it. I remember that it was the first day of junior high school, and I just felt very comfortable at the night of SY. Then it became even more out of control, imagining classmates and female teachers in class every day. Masturbate yourself at night, think you are smart, and invent a way to make yourself comfortable. Heaven is evil, and karma is coming again. Because of psychosexuality and masturbation, the essence of the body began to lose a lot, and I was listless in class every day, and my body always had various problems. Academic performance has dropped significantly, and my brain seems to be stupid. Actually, I'm pretty disappointing, too I study hard and don't want to be looked down upon by others. But no matter how hard I try, every exam is between 10 and 20, and occasionally I can get into the top ten. It was quite different from what I expected, and then it was ignored by the teacher. I once wrote obscene poems with a male deskmate during my self-study last night and exchanged ideas with each other. Suddenly, the teacher found out. After calling to the office, the head teacher beat us up and asked us to read poems in front of several female teachers. At that time, I couldn't lift my head at all, and I was ashamed. Later, because of this incident, teachers and classmates seem to have changed their views on me. I also became very inferior, and my personality began to become introverted. I have no confidence in my study. This is the influence of meanness on my study and personality. And physical retribution. Once in class, my body seemed to be out of control, unable to balance, and tilted to one side as if it had been pulled by something. I was so scared that I thought I was possessed by something. The teacher said it might be a neurological problem, but in the end it was solved by my classmates. Later, I went to the hospital to check that it was nothing, saying that there might be some elements missing, so I should eat more fruits. My dad was out of town, and he was very worried when he heard about it. I am really hurt. I am happy and worried! And I was thin in junior high school for three years, with no blood in my face, poor complexion and no anger at all. Every time I go home, my grandmother cooks good food for me. In fact, life at school is ok, and everyone else is normal, just like I don't eat much, so why don't I grow meat? It gives people a feeling of powerlessness and windlessness. Many students think that I am sick, but in fact this is the result of excessive consumption of body essence. If I have less energy, I will get sick and have various physical problems. Because of poor health, three years of junior high school is very painful and self-abased. Be looked down upon by teachers and classmates, be bullied by classmates. Life is worse than death, this is the retribution of lewdness! Every adultery is destroying your body, and death is not far away. But I still didn't know repentance at that time, and I didn't know it was retribution! That's pathetic!

Karma continues. I feel good about myself after the senior high school entrance examination, and it is no problem to be admitted to a key high school. During the summer vacation, I began to go crazy again. I masturbate every day, sometimes four or five times a day. As long as you think about it, you can't control it until you are exhausted. Then there is extreme regret and emptiness, feeling that it is meaningless to live in this world. The results of the senior high school entrance examination are coming out soon, but they are not accepted, with a difference of 7 points. It's all because SY has run out of good luck, and my luck will not be good either. After hearing the news, my heart was cold. Why have I studied so hard and not been admitted? My family was also surprised. I am lamenting how unfair God is to me, and why he always gives me a hard time and makes me so miserable. What was the use of my time? I didn't dare to go out to play for fear that others would ask me about my grades. Originally, my family thought I could get in, but I finally let them down! I feel so sorry for them. I am really disappointed! At that time, I really hated myself and even had the idea of suicide. This is the retribution for adultery. Who told me to commit adultery? Who told me not to cherish myself? Who let me destroy myself like this indefinitely! In this way, lewdness broke my reputation. Who can blame this? I can only blame myself for doing something out of line. Hehe, but silly, I still didn't realize that this was the retribution of lewdness.

Later, my father still spent 5000 hard-earned money to send me to a key high school. At that time, I was determined to study hard and win my father's breath, but I was still controlled by lewdness, and I was still crazy every day. Not long after I went to high school, I suddenly found that my body was slow and unconscious. The next day, the whole person seemed to have lost his soul, and a stronger retribution began from this time. Because the body is hollowed out, there are many symptoms. My brain is groggy, my memory is extremely poor, I can't remember anything, I forget what I just did, my intelligence is seriously reduced, and I almost lost my thinking ability. Class is a torment for me. It's not that I don't attend class, but that I can't concentrate at all. Just like showing a movie, I can't understand what the teacher said and I can't remember it at all. And yawning again and again, no spirit. I dare not sleep in class, but I can only hold on, always looking forward to having a rest after class. People who are seventeen or eighteen have no spirit, just like old people who are seventy or eighty years old. No one can understand the pain, and the back pain can't stand up at all. Once the pain was unbearable, I went to the hospital to check that both kidneys had kidney calculi, and then I bought a lot of medicine. I hung it for several days, but it didn't work at all. In fact, it is the result of kidney essence deficiency and kidney qi deficiency. Yang deficiency in the whole body, cold limbs, especially cold in winter. I always curl up when I sleep. My bed has never been overheated. Physical development has almost stopped. As we all know, the body of 16 and 17 years old is the peak of development, but the kidney essence is exhausted and there is no energy for development. I'm now 4375px, and if I don't masturbate, I can go up more than 4500px. Originally, he was handsome, but he was already very obscene in high school. His face is sallow and ferocious, and he doesn't look like a person. Poor popularity, few intimate friends, and nothing to say with classmates. This is a serious social phobia, even if you say it, you don't know what it is. I am often laughed at by my classmates for saying the wrong thing. Doing things is also very childish, like a child. During this period, my luck was particularly bad, because I was too timid and cowardly to be blackmailed by several gangsters. Once, I had a car accident when I was crossing the street after school at noon. I was hit by a motorcycle a few meters away and almost fainted. Poor God, have pity on me. It's just a skin injury. I saved my life from the jaws of death. It is true that adulterers are prone to car accidents! There are still many problems, so I won't list them here. You know, how can my body make progress in study? Finally, I didn't even get two copies of the college entrance examination. God, my unrepentant reputation has been broken again. This is no accident, because I work hard, and I am still reading under the covers when others are sleeping at night. I spend more time and sweat than others. Some people say that heaven rewards diligence. But for a prostitute all day, all efforts are in vain. Everyone must be careful! After the results came out, I thought of death. I feel sorry for all the people who care about me. There is no point in living in this world, but whenever I want to die, I think of my father and grandparents. When I die, they will be heartbroken and miserable. It is unfilial to let white-haired people send black-haired people!

In order to win the relief of my family, I chose to repeat the course. I have basically lost interest in women this year because of my poor health, and I have also realized the harm that masturbation does to my body. The number of masturbations has decreased, but the lust continues, and the fire of lust has not been extinguished. Being in a daze all day, like dreaming, I feel isolated from the world, so it doesn't do much to repeat a year. God seems to have taken care of me. I barely crossed the second line and finally chose a poor-quality second one. Well, I can't help it. It's good for a slut like me to have a university, and I dare not expect anything else. If there were no lewdness, I would definitely go to a good university. It's lewdness that killed me!

After I arrived at the university, the environment suddenly relaxed, but I was still depressed and miserable. Why? Because my lust is still very heavy, although I have stopped masturbating. Because I think as long as I quit masturbation, I will be fine, and psychosexuality will not be harmful to my health. If you can't masturbate, you will fantasize. So my health is still the same. After four years in college, I don't know how many hospitals I went to, how many drugs I drank and how much I spent. My classmates in the dormitory treat me like a medicine jar, with rhinitis, neurasthenia, prostatitis, impotence, anal fissure, yin and yang deficiency, spleen and stomach weakness, liver and kidney deficiency, anemia and memory loss. Kidney calculi. I am a young man in my early twenties, but I am sick all over. Sometimes I feel that I won't live long, just like a dying person. I haven't learned anything in college for four years, my health has collapsed, my studies have been neglected, and I haven't talked about a real love. It's unnatural to be with girls, and I can't even communicate with them normally. I have no plans for the future. I don't even know what I do every day. I can't do anything well. I failed my driving test. Band six hasn't passed yet. I passed the accounting certificate exam three times. I found that as long as I have committed adultery before the exam, I will definitely fail. It's true that prostitution will definitely make everything go wrong for you. All kinds of retribution will come to you!

I am a senior now, and I will graduate soon. Finding a job is a problem because I haven't learned a skill. Actually, for me, health is the most important thing. Only by raising your body well can you make a difference. All the roots come from lewdness and being controlled by the devil for so many years. I had given up color for more than a month before writing this article. I haven't put an end to psychosexuality yet. I know that abstinence from color is a lifetime thing, so I should always be vigilant. Don't let goats have the opportunity to purify their hearts and learn more about traditional culture. Here I confess to the gods, to my parents, to all my family members who care about me, and to the girls who have been sexually assaulted and hurt by me. Pray for their forgiveness. What pains me most now is the decline of brain power, memory and intelligence. The feeling of isolation is simply too painful. I know my health is too weak to recover in a day or two, but I am still stronger than before I retired, at least I have not continued to decline. I will make a clean break with my old self and be my real self again.

Finally, I would like to advise you that the word "color" is a knife in the head, and evil in heaven is reported quickly. Don't go my old way again. This is a road of no return. Looking at my terrible experience in the past ten years, I lost too much because of lewdness, and my body, career, love and family all got terrible retribution. If you give me another chance to be born again, I won't stick to my lewd habit. This is a nightmare. I wrote down my bitter experience with pain and tears. People who want to see my confession wake up! Cherish life and stay away from lewdness. Don't wait for retribution to regret, don't be a slave to desire, seize your youth and do things that make life more meaningful!