I hate myself! I hate every one of you!

"It's her! I heard her tell the people in Class Six with my own ears. "

"How could you! Which class are you in? "

Luo Ling suddenly woke up from a dream and kept chanting "Not me! Not me! Not me! "

After chanting for a few minutes, Luo Ling sat up in bed and rolled over to get a glass of water. I found there was no water in it, so I got out of bed and went to the living room to get water. The power of the water dispenser was unplugged before Luo Ling fell asleep, so Luo Ling had to plug it in again. While waiting for the water to boil, she remembered what she looked like in her dream.

Luo Ling, who just entered junior high school, was assigned to the experimental class because of her excellent grades. Luo Ling is very proud, but gradually because the learning pressure in junior high school is much greater than that in primary school, the teacher's teaching progress is also fast. Luo Ling's science is getting worse and worse, and she got 18 in the minimum math test. However, Luo Ling is not worried about her sharp decline in grades. She has no pressure to study, just playing.

Zhang Xiaolu has repeatedly reminded Luo Ling to listen carefully and take notes in class, but every time she replied, "It's okay, please don't talk. Help me see if the teacher is here. Just pat me on the shoulder when you come. "

Zhang Xiaolu had to shake his head and continue taking class notes. Zhang Xiaolu's grades are below average in the class, but she works hard and is obedient, so she is more popular with teachers.

Luo Ling has a good primary school classmate named He Hua.

After school in the afternoon, Luo Ling often goes to the small lawn not far from school to play with him. He Hua is in Class Six and Luo Ling is in Class Three. He Hua has many friends. Every afternoon, a group of people go to the lawn to play, so most of my friends, except Zhang Xiaolu, are in Class 6.

One weekend, Luo Ling and Jason were playing at Zhang Xiaolu's house. After Jason boarded QQ, he said a word. She said that she had a quarrel with a girl in Class Three.

Luo Ling wondered, "Class Three? Our class? Who did you quarrel with? Do you still know anyone in our class? "

Without further ado, Jason opened the QQ space page and showed a conversation to Luo Ling and Zhang Xiaolu, saying it was sent the night before. The reason for the quarrel is that Li Zhong in Luo Ling's class said something under Zhang Jiefa's conversation: "You want a man I don't want, you are too great!"

Li Zhong said this because He Hua had chased Li Zhong, but Li Zhong didn't respond. He Hua also gradually disliked Li Zhong. When Li Zhong was in an unstable mood, the teacher challenged Jie Zhong.

Luo Ling said angrily, "She probably thinks that He Hua likes you because you walk with He Hua every day. Just ignore her. What are you arguing with her? "

Jie Zhong continued to read the following comments and said, "I can't be angry with her for saying that about He Hua."

Luo Ling sighed. "One thing is less than one thing." Jason thought for a moment and said nothing.

The next afternoon, when Luo Ling and Zhang Xiaolu just walked to the school gate, they found many people around the gate. Rowling pulling Zhang Xiaolu, is preparing to bypass the crowd to find He Hua.

A voice suddenly appeared in the crowd: "Apologize! Apologize to her immediately! "

Rowling opened the crowd in a panic. Sure enough, as she thought, it was He Hua's voice. He Hua looked at Li Zhong, whose facial features were ferocious. Li Zhong was stubborn with tears: "Why should I apologize? She also scolded me, why should I apologize unilaterally? "

Luo Ling rushed over to dissuade He Hua, and He Hua said, "Don't persuade me. If she doesn't apologize, this matter will definitely end! "

Li Zhong glared at He Hua: "Then spend it!"

It wasn't long before the teacher came. He called Li Huazhong, Jason and Luo Ling to the office. When the dean learned about it, he sent them home.

On the way home, Luo Ling said to He Hua, "Why are you so impulsive? Li Zhong is a girl. If you point at her like that in front of so many people, of course she won't apologize. You embarrassed her in front of so many people. "

He Hua also realized his mistake, looked at Luo Ling and said seriously, "I see, I will apologize to him tomorrow. I really didn't do it right. "

Luo Ling thought it would be all right when He Hua apologized.

But the next morning she was called to the office by the head teacher Li Ling. Luo Ling thought that there were too many mistakes in her homework and took a red pen.

But just walked to the front of Li Ling, and a slap in the face. Luo Ling buried her face in disbelief: "Miss Li?"

Li Ling cut to the chase: "Say, what did you do yesterday?"

Because of yesterday, Luo Ling knew that Li Ling was looking for herself. She put the red pen on the table and said, "I didn't do anything yesterday." I advised He Hua. "

Li Ling outside Rowling blamed herself for not dissuading He Hua in time. Li Ling grabbed Luo Ling's ear and said, "How dare you say that you persuaded He Hua? Is it not because you were killed by He Hua yesterday? "

Luo Ling covered her ear with one hand, and the other hand began to grab Li Ling's hand, trying to make Li Ling let go: "I really persuaded He Hua, and He Hua said yesterday that he would apologize to Li Zhong today."

Li Ling pulled her face red before she put down her hand. Rowling saw Li Ling rubbing his fingers, which were a little red from hard work. The oncoming slap was so loud that other teachers in the office turned their eyes to Rowling and Li Ling.

Luo Ling choked with tears and said, "Miss Li, why? Why do you keep hitting me? "

Li Ling seemed to hear a funny joke: "Why? Do you think I don't know that you instigated He Hua to attack Li Zhong? Li Zhongping's academic performance is good at ordinary times, so how can he be provoked first? I don't need to know. I know you instigated it! At ordinary times, I didn't say that you are poor at learning, and everyone's learning ability is different. Forget it if you don't study hard. Why do you still do these things that destroy other people's relationships? What's your father's telephone number? Call your father tomorrow! "

Luo Ling didn't speak, just kept crying. Li Ling looked at Luo Ling and, with a wave of annoyance and disgust, let Luo Ling go out.

When she reached the door, Luo Ling heard Li Ling say to other teachers, "This incident was caused by Luo Ling at first sight. Li Zhong is very clever and has excellent academic performance. I have to take care of Luo Ling this time. Poor learning ability, not to mention the average class score, but also to do something that bothers me. "

Luo Ling dried her tears and stood at the door of the class for a while before going in. When she returned to her seat, Zhang Xiaolu asked her, "Where have you been? I didn't come back until the second class. "

The tears that Luo Ling managed to save were like a river dam that burst its banks, and she choked and said, "Miss Li thought I did that in Lotus yesterday."

Zhang Xiaolu was puzzled: "Why do you say that? Because you were there yesterday? But I was there yesterday. "

Later, Li Ling forced Luo Ling to write a statement, forced Luo Ling to say in the statement that everything was caused by Luo Ling on purpose, and forced Luo Ling to apologize to Li Zhong. Luo Ling did everything one by one.

Since then, Luo Ling has become taciturn, and the students in the class have been more targeted at Luo Ling. In the past, students in the class always showed some concern, but the teacher turned a blind eye. But when this happened, the students in the class became more unscrupulous, and the teacher let it go.

"It's you! You did it! . "

"It's her! I heard her tell the people in Class Six with my own ears. "

"How could you! Which class are you in? "

These words began to appear frequently in Rowling's ears after the events of He Hua and Li Zhong, and at first she would refute them.

What she can answer is, "Why do you say these things? If you didn't tell the teacher then, what's the use of telling us now? I have written a description of the matter and I am still here to say this! "

Luo Ling understood that people always believe what they want to believe, and it doesn't matter whether things are right or wrong.

Luo Ling knows that no one in the class likes her.

She looked up at the face of the man who was much taller than her and said stiffly, "Please forgive me, I can't pass."

The man in front said, "What? what did you say ? /Excuse me? Who is talking to me? "

Rowling didn't immediately resist, raise the volume and said, "Wan Chao! Please make way, you are in front of me. " He also pushed Wan Chao, but the person in front of him did not move.

Luo Ling was so desperate that both corridors of her seat were blocked by friends from Wan Chao and Wan Chao.

She saw Zhang standing behind her, and her eyes suddenly burst with hope. Luo Ling motioned Zhang with her eyes, hoping that she could help her out of the current predicament and embarrassment. Xiao Lou stared at the opposite Luo Ling, and looked at Luo Ling with Mu Na's eyes. Wan Chao didn't respond.

Luo Ling looked at Zhang Xiaolou and wondered whether she should be allowed to help herself. It is false to say that she is not sad. She didn't help her when she saw that she was embarrassed.

Luo Ling, with tears in her eyes, lowered her head and dared not look into the eyes of people who looked on coldly or participated in the incident around her. She knows that she can't show cowardice now, so those people will feel bullied.

She tidied up her emotions, raised her head, and her voice was cold: "I will say it for the last time, get out of the way!" "Rowling's eyes are very cold, and she thinks she can absolutely deter Wan Chao.

But Wan Chao just foolishly started his more unscrupulous revenge. Wan Chao gave Rowling a hard push on the shoulder. Luo Ling didn't expect that Wan Chao would suddenly start work defenseless and be pushed to the ground, with his hand hanging on the corner of the table and bleeding.

Luo Ling raised her hand and saw blood beads pouring out of her broken palm. She felt no pain.

Irony followed, "ouch! It was pushed so easily! Sure enough, it's shrimp … do you know you're short? Didn't you ask the Bodhisattva for mercy to make you grow taller? Even a centimeter! At worst, don't you know to drink more milk? I wonder if drinking more milk can make you grow taller? Small ... shrimp ... rice ... "Wan Chao walked to Luo Ling's feet, as if God stood at the highest point overlooking everything, but he was never God. He is an evil demon from hell, trampling on Luo Ling's self-esteem and self-confidence again and again.

Luo Ling knew that this time would be the same as before, and no one would help her.

She still glanced at Zhang Xiaolu hopefully. However, Zhang has always been an irrelevant Mu Na and silence.

Luo Ling's tears kept falling like a broken line. She stood up and dusted herself off. She looked at Wan Chao and said, "Do you care if I am tall or short?"

Wan Chao wanted to say that the bell rang and the people around him hurried back to their seats. When Wan Chao left, she bumped into Luo Ling's shoulder.

Luo Ling didn't say anything. She went to her seat, walked past Zhang Xiaolu and said, "Why don't you help me?"

Zhang Xiaolu looked into her eyes and regained consciousness: "I didn't see it. What's the matter? "

Luo Ling cold tone: "Zhang, you will always be like this! When others are around, you always look like a pure Muna. There is no pure meaning, but you know everything and will never help me. Whether I am bullied, wronged or slandered, you are irrelevant, Mu Na. People who don't know you seem to know nothing, but I know you know everything! You just won't help me! I don't want them to think that you are playing well with me, and I don't want you to be the object of their bullying and disgust. Don't worry, you won't worry about this anymore. I am sorry for you! "

Luo Ling began to have suicidal thoughts.

The last straw that crushed the camel was Luo Ling's father.

One Saturday, Luo Ling's father changed his shoes on the porch to go to work. Looking at Luo Ling sleeping in bed, he put two pieces of change on the dining table and said, "Here are two dollars. Here, buy some breakfast for your brother. "

Luo Ling looked at the two dollars on the table in disbelief. "How to eat breakfast for two dollars? And two people? "

"I don't care how you eat, there is only so much money anyway. You don't have to eat, but if you starve your brother to death, I'll get off work tonight, you know. "

Obviously, it's no use talking more. Luo Ling lowered her face and said nothing, and soon she heard the sound of closing the door. Luo Ling knows that tears are the most worthless thing, and there is no sound after crying several times.

Generally speaking, Luo Ling didn't eat or touch a drop of water all day. She did as her father said, and really didn't starve her brother.

On the way to school, Luo Ling has been thinking about how to end her short and sad life. She didn't tell anyone.

There was a strong typhoon on school day.

She stood by, looking at the crowd on the playground, feeling unspeakable sadness and anger, but finally she just sighed lightly.

She climbed slowly to the highest point. Gradually, some students downstairs noticed her, and soon everyone looked up at her.

Then, she looked up at the sky. It's sunny today, and there are no clouds in Wan Li. She thinks this is a very suitable day to go out and play.

All the teachers in the school appeared, and she heard the head teacher shouting below with a trumpet: "Luo Ling! Luo Ling, what are you doing? You come down! "

At this time, a swallow flew in the sky. Luo Ling looked at the swallow and suddenly began to cry.

She dried her tears and said, "If only I could become a swallow." Then she leaned back with open arms and began to fall quickly.

I hate you. Luo Ling said this sentence at the moment she fell down, which was very calm and indifferent.

"ah! Ah! Ah! She fell! "

"The leng wear stem? Call 120! "

"Luo Ling!"

120 When she arrived at the scene, Luo Ling was surrounded by blood and her eyes were closed, as if she were asleep.

When Luo Ling was in hospital, Zhang Xiaolu found a suicide note in her desk.

I regret walking around here.

I have never done anything wrong to everyone, but I have become a hated existence. Is it my fault? I think so, too, but what did I do wrong? I never understood what I did wrong to make people hate me so much. Later, I understood that my mistake was to ignore your injury and humiliation again and again, with no principles and no bottom line. My mistake is that I choose silence every time I face your injury. I thought my silence would make you stop hating me and humiliating me, but I was still wrong. But what should I do? I get more unscrupulous revenge when I fight back, and I get hurt for no reason when I am silent.

I killed myself, but the people who handed me the knife were all people who hurt me. It is you who thrust the sharp point of the knife into my heart bit by bit, and my death is inseparable from any of you!

There is no day in my life, only dark night, and there is no light at night. I walked in the dark for a long time, but I still couldn't see any light.

This world makes me lonely and helpless, makes me taste the warmth of human feelings, and makes me suffer the pain of the world!

I tried my best to live an active life, but no one gave me a chance. You knocked me down again and again.

I hate myself! I hate every one of you!

Zhang Xiaolu came across this suicide note when she was tidying up her desk. Luo Lingcun heart, write out. After reading it, Zhang Xiaolu silently tore up the paper and threw it into the trash can. Later, after Luo Ling was discharged from the hospital, her family left the city where she lived for thirteen years, which brought her indelible harm.

The water boiled quickly, and Luo Ling drank it in one breath after filling it. These things have been going on for many years. After graduating from junior high school, Luo Ling shined in high school. She has made many friends, and all the teachers and classmates around her like her very much. She sometimes thinks that junior high school and senior high school are obviously the same person, but why do they seem to live different lives?

The elf has a story: this is the first essay I sent online. Luo Ling in the article is a victim of school violence. Unfortunately, she suffered so many injuries at a truly flowery age, but she was also lucky. After leaving the city that hurt her, she led a completely different life. However, a child suffers from school violence in his or her life, and these injuries will accompany him or her all his or her life. The shadow caused by these injuries will never be erased and disappeared. Voltaire said: When there is an avalanche, not a snowflake is innocent! So the elf hopes that you and you who read this article can be kind to everyone around you and become people who don't bring harm to others. I also hope that you are not victims and abusers of school violence.

Writing for the first time, there are many bad places, I hope everyone can understand more!