Why Zhang Ailing said, “You must become famous as early as possible”

Original sentence: Ah, you have to be famous early. If you come too late, happiness will not be so pleasant. Even if an individual can wait, times are in a hurry, destruction is already occurring, and even greater destruction is coming. Personally, I think it has already been explained later. The following is an article named Ziyou’s opinion on this sentence. I hope you will adopt it

Why did Zhang Ailing say “you have to be famous as early as possible”?

Ziyou

December 25, 2005

If poor Zhang Ailing knows something underground, she knows what she accidentally said: "Become famous as early as possible "Ah!" was firmly remembered and remembered by the world, and was linked to Zhang's glory in his early years and desolation in his later years, and gave a ridiculous definition. She will definitely sigh again and write more desolate paragraphs. text.

Although many people know this sentence and know that it was Zhang Ailing who said it, they may not know which article it comes from? What is its preface and suffix? Is the title of that article called "Whose Youth Is Crazy About Me"? Did she mean that there were two talented writers born in the 20th century? Of course not, no. In fact, if you look at her articles, you can tell that she is a very careful writer and her language is very polite. When she was in her fifties, she wrote an article called "A Little Opinion on Modern Chinese". She still had to write at the beginning of the article: This title is shocking, and I need to quickly declare that the "little opinion" is not self-effacing. "People speak lightly" words, but it is really insignificant..." This shows Zhang Ailing's caution.

So when did she accidentally say something that has been remembered by the world for more than half a century, and it seems that it is still What if I have to keep it down? People often quote her words when writing articles. For example, an adult wrote an article hoping that Han Han would wake up. He said at the beginning: Remember Zhang Ailing said this somewhere? : “It’s important to become famous early. "Anyway, her words are used as a negative teaching material. I think basically everyone who quotes this sentence takes it as a negative teaching material. Although this adult said "remember" at the beginning, alas! But he actually Don't remember, he forgot, many people have forgotten. If he knew where Zhang Ailing said it, he wouldn't quote it "blindly" like this when "Legend" was reprinted. When she wrote this sentence, she "got carried away" for a moment, showing her true nature as a little girl and revealing some of her own little thoughts and whispers: "I used to think like this: When my book is published, I will." I have to go to every newsstand and look... I have to ask the newspaper vendor, pretending to be irrelevant: 'Are the sales okay? ——It’s too expensive. If it’s so expensive, will anyone really buy it? '" Immediately afterwards, Zhang Ailing wrote: "Oh, you have to become famous early! If it comes too late, the happiness will not be so pleasant. "Then she also wrote that when she used to publish articles in the school magazine, she would read them over and over again like crazy, but now she is not so excited.

In fact, from here, I think it can be clearly seen that, She is talking more about a state of mind and situation rather than the benefits brought by fame such as flowers and flowers. It can also be seen from the following paragraphs that she is lamenting the desolation, sublimation and glitz, and if you look at everything, It's probably not as jarring to read just one sentence, otherwise it feels like Zhang is encouraging young people to imitate her and become famous early. So it can be seen that Zhang Ailing was really wronged.

Coincidentally, I don't know why. Pretending to be confused or really confused, a reader once read an obvious meaning in an article by Zhang Ailing. Zhang Ailing once wrote an article called "Beating People". She wrote: "I saw it on the Bund. A policeman beats someone for no reason, just on a whim... I have never had a sense of justice. If I don't want to see something, I can't see it. However, this time, I couldn't help but look back over and over again. My chest was filled with air, and I felt my heart contracting every time I hit him. After the beating, the policeman came over here, and I stared at him fiercely... Probably because my mind was not trained, I didn't think about class revolution at this time. In a fit of anger, I just wanted to be an official or... As the chairman's wife, you can step forward and give the policeman a slap in the face.

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How well she wrote! In fact, from here, we can't understand Zhang's psychology any better. But in Hu Lancheng's records, we can see one of his experiences: "There is also a minister of education in Nanjing. He said to me: "It is really rare for Miss Zhang to have such profound knowledge in Western literature at such a young age." But it’s hard to say that she wants to be the chairman’s wife! ’ I was both annoyed and amused by it...because Ailing didn’t think about the sacredness of revolution at all. After Hu made some explanations, he also wrote: "If you understand so clearly, how can you not understand?" "Yes! There are many things that make sense, but some people just don't understand!

Zhang Ailing's article was "reinterpreted" for a second time. She did not "detoxify" because of this, but became even more "poisoned" , her words have been "talked about" for more than half a century. So is she the only one who has been "reshaped" in this way? I don't think people can interpret a person with such a vision and mentality. Author, you can find another one. I have been misunderstood. I was wrongly portrayed as a "youth madman"!

I have lived for fifteen years, but my character has never been the same. I have never been associated with "crazy". When I started to defend myself, the adults showed understanding and tolerance and said, "Young people nowadays are like this, and we understand. "They will also say: "You should be crazy! What's wrong with being crazy? "Then they did some research on the direct expression and confident psychology of "today's young people", and then began to praise the crazy youth, even if it was a given that "I am a crazy person, and today's teenagers are like this" .

Am I obviously arrogant? No, in the final analysis, there are two proofs that I am "crazy": First, I published a book called "Whose Youth Is?" "Crazy"; secondly, I said something, and even brought Zhang Ailing here, saying that we are the only two literary geniuses in the 20th century.

Regarding the first piece of evidence, first of all, I said "Crazy". "It means unrestrained and free. It can also be interpreted as whose youth is free and happy like mine. And my "crazy" is describing youth, not me. If the title of the book is "Who is crazy like me", then I also recognized it, but the title of the book is "Whose Youth Is Crazy About Me", so people who saw this title obviously understood it wrong. In fact, everyone only saw the last two characters of a seven-character book title. : "I'm Crazy".

I don't want to explain the second evidence because I am tired of explaining it. Readers may not be able to understand this weird idea for a while. I invited Zhang Ailing to talk to me. It’s really right to put them together, because a sentence in an article we wrote has been singled out as another meaning. Maybe many years later, someone will write an article and start with: There was a time. A sick kid thinks he is a genius, and says that he and Zhang Ailing are the best writers in the 20th century. Young people, you must not imitate him!

I am sorry for saying this! The age when she said that was ten years younger than when Zhang Ailing said it. She said it in 1944 when she was 24, and I said it when I was 14. Things have changed, but there are still many people who like to watch and discuss. The slogan is not "Become famous early", but "Be careful when becoming famous!" "Watch those eyes!

I want to ask, do you know the circumstances under which this sentence of mine "jumped out"? Many people saw it in the closing position of my book. . So I dare to say that everyone who calls me "arrogant" has not read my book, because my person and my writing have nothing to do with "crazy". This sentence comes from one of my articles "On." "Genius and Others" is an article expressing my opinions on titles such as genius and gifted scholar. Moreover, my writing since childhood was for self-entertainment and for myself. I have never published an article, let alone publishing. It happened later, so my article was very casual and self-contained. I just poured out a lot of ideas at the time. The article expressed who I think a genius is, and gave three definitions of genius. Based on my view of what a genius is, people may think that genius is the highest level and talent comes second. In fact, I don’t think so here.

In "Sanlian Life Weekly", Ziyou wrote three definitions of genius in order to prove that he and Zhang Ailing were geniuses. This logic is exactly the opposite of mine. I said that sentence because I first made up the three definitions of genius and finally saw that Zhang Ailing and I were the only ones that were more consistent. When Sima Nan interviewed me, I said: "It's not because I think Zhang Ailing and I are the most powerful that I say we are geniuses." Sima Nan asked strangely: "Isn't it?" So that's what he thought, I believe I'm sure many people think I'm crazy because of this. That's because my "genius" and their "genius" are not the same thing. People don't look at my definition, they only look at my results, and then make their own definitions for it. What kind of thing is this! Besides, even if I say I praise myself, I don’t believe that people don’t praise themselves behind my back, not to mention that I’m not praising myself.

Although it can be explained clearly, I guess I will never be able to take off my label as a "youth madman". Speaking of crazy, people will naturally think of Li Ao. People can easily recite Li Ao's most famous words. This is equivalent to his business card. When writing this article, I can think of so many people's business cards, which have sprung up like mushrooms after a rain. I really admire it. people's imagination. So let me memorize it now: "In the past fifty years and five hundred years, the top three people who wrote vernacular prose were Li Ao, Li Ao, and Li Ao." In fact, this is only the first half of the sentence. The second half of Li Ao's sentence is: "Those mouths Those who scolded me for bragging also made memorial tablets for me in their hearts." That is to say, no matter what, even if they pretended to be "dismissive" of him, those people must have followed Li Ao all the way to the mainland because they could not ignore him. However, more people still pay more attention to the first half of the sentence, probably because they are about to have a heart attack when they see this and don't have the energy to look back.

I want to ask again, can you tell when this sentence appeared when Li Ao was writing? Does he say it to everyone every day? No. This is the advertisement written by Li Ao when he came back to the literary world after being released from prison and republished "A Critical Biography of Hu Shi". First of all, I think it doesn't matter if Li Ao really feels that his writing is good and his writing is indeed very good. Secondly, this is an advertising slogan. There are so many advertisements every day. In the advertisements, people are holding the advertised products and saying with a smile: "You can get better results as soon as you take it! The results are so fast!" Is it true that everyone can "get good results as soon as you take it"? Have you pursued it? When Li Ao came to the mainland to give a speech, someone once questioned him about this sentence. I lamented that there was no way to explain it clearly to the other party.

The above people have all become "one-sentence writers", and this sentence has innocently become their identities. Many people can comment on them by only reading this sentence without reading their books. , to "characterize" them. What is the power that enables this sentence to "spread" and be remembered by people? Later, I wrote an article "Genius Killed Me", which started like this:

"I want to say, Genius Killed Me!"

After my image appeared in newspapers, I found that I have many identities. My name is not Ziyou, but the boy in a wheelchair who was "heartbroken and heartbroken" for Niuniu. After publishing the book, I became a "post-90s" crazy boy. It was the first time I saw Dou Da. The title appeared in the Beijing Youth Daily, and I was frightened by the word "crazy". I thought it was a person who loves organ donation to the point of being crazy about organ donation. 'The first river, from then on, the water of this first river surged down, drowning me miserably."

After my book was published, people were only interested in two things about me. That is my disease and my madness. No one has understood my disease. Although it has been a year and a half since my tumor was removed from my body, they still think that the tumor is always threatening me, and they also focus on me in publicity. Cancer, in fact, what is affecting me now is my blood problem, which is also very dangerous, but it seems that they will not understand it for a while. Whenever reporters come to see me, their eyes show despair and compassion, and their facial expressions are much more painful than mine, as if they have a fatal tumor.

So I couldn’t help but sigh with a wry smile:

“All reports after this will put my two sentences at the top. Without exception, one is that I am the only person in the 20th century who One of the male geniuses is my own summary of the illness journey from one to ten, with the title: Whose youth is as crazy as mine! It also writes about how crazy I am and how miserable I am. But I don’t just write books. Just read the title and a sentence!

Some reporters just started to use words to describe "Crazy Man Zi You"

It makes people imagine such a scene. , I thought about how awesome I was all day long, and suddenly one day I yelled out while lying on the hospital bed: 'I am a genius!'"

So this is really a regrettable and ridiculous thing, some The media has a "hobby" of demonizing people. I think the "crazy Ziyou" they portray does not exist in reality. Not only am I not that, I don't think anyone can be like him. So I often laugh and say after reading a report: "This kid is very interesting!" The reporters can only use some of my "exaggerated" behavior and language to attract readers. It doesn’t matter what book I wrote, I became a disabled hero and a news event. This reminds me of Chen Danqing's regretful statement in an interview that no reporter cared about why he resigned. They just hyped up the resignation of one person and finally turned it into an entertainment incident.

The same thing happened to me, that is, Li Ao came to see me. I think many people may not understand why Li Ao has so many "cancer children" in Beijing, Shanghai, and Hong Kong, but he chooses to see me. It's because I wrote him a letter. But no one paid attention to the letter, only hyping the "meeting between young and old madmen". Without my letter, how could Li Ao be moved to take time out of his busy schedule to see me? Even when reporters mentioned my letter, they only said that I said in the letter that all my family members were better at calligraphy than his, and it seemed that Li Ao was so angry that he came to compete with me on calligraphy. The two of us singing together in the ward were like talking to each other in cross talk. I feel that the media has made us two "monsters" because what we said in the reports no longer sounds human. Another reason is that except for the Phoenix TV follow-up media, other media were blocked outside the hospital, so many reports were copied one by one, and in the end, one thing was said to be true.

Most of the reports about me are very similar, especially the introduction to me at the beginning, such as:

"Li Ao met 15-year-old Wu Ziyou. The little madman disagreed with 'visiting sick children'" 'Argument'

"'At my age, I have surpassed you because I have more diseases than you.' Yesterday, at Peking University Hospital, I met Li Ao, who was suffering from cancer. 15-year-old Wu Ziyou said this. "

"Wu Ziyou, a 15-year-old cancer patient, said: 'Among the talented writers born in the 20th century, there is only one female, Zhang Ailing; the male is me, Zi. Especially. 'His book is called "Whose Youth Is Mad?"

Look, I felt uncomfortable when he called me "Little Madman" at the beginning. I don’t believe that anyone would dare to say seriously when they see an old man: “At my age, I have surpassed you because I have more diseases than you.” I think a fool might do it, but at least I won’t . I said something similar, but I said it in a joking way with a smile, but obviously people who read the report couldn't see this "joke." It seems that everyone is very serious about creating a "crazy" scene. The second paragraph of the above report is my crazy business card. Sometimes a reporter will write: "Ziyou started talking about cross talk at the age of five, started watching Chaplin movies at the age of six, started experimenting with writing at the age of seven, and turned to writing at the age of eight. Novel, prose, modern poetry, ancient poetry, essays, all involved. "This is not a serious summary by any clever reporter. This is copied from my elementary school composition. Although I can be quoted, I think many media have. I am seriously using a primary school student's composition to introduce a "crazy" fifteen-year-old "young writer". I still want to laugh at that scene.

Basically, reporters write about the same conversations in the wards. I have now read a book called "Returning Home with Joy, Li Ao's Cultural Journey to China". It is said that the book written by Phoenix TV should be more accurate, but there are still many passages that make people laugh or cry. The funniest thing is to write: "Ziyou wears a wig and looks pale." Although the next one they used is "Li Ao looks at me, I look at Li Ao", and in that article I have already written about my The hair is uncut, dark, curly, shiny hair that grows directly from the bald spot. I'm afraid they can't believe that the so-called patient still has such strong vitality! As for being pale, readers will see that there is a photo of me with a dark and red face on the same page, and Li Ao next to me looks much paler than me. This is how so-called healthy people imagine "patients".

The following dialogue was as follows: "Li smiled and said: 'Wouldn't it be easiest for Wu Dalang?'" These words were copied by many media, but I don't believe anyone in real life still uses "won't" when speaking.

It is a pity that in such a heated meeting between "old and young madmen", no one would seriously read, feel, and reflect on my letter. I confided in Li Ao in that letter:

"In your remaining memory, you think that middle school students in Beijing are not as dull, superficial, lacking common sense and spirituality as in Taiwan, and their education is better than that in Taiwan. But now I want to Let me tell you, our school life is scary, scary. What I mean by scary and scary is that the school confines our thinking and molds us into obedient and serious examination machines. ”

Said to him:

"As for the teachers, of course most of them are responsible, but they will not lead us to read classical Chinese outside class, but read a lot of boring texts. In this way, we learn the texts day after day. The result is that students have forgotten what an excellent article is and cannot write excellent articles. On TV, when you encounter a good article you have written, you will read it to the audience again and again. That is sincerity. "I appreciate it so much!" "The people who came out of the exam writing training are all cold words and cold people, without feelings, without feelings!" This sentence was quoted as two "without feelings" by the reporter. It was deleted into one. He probably thought it was a clerical error.

I continued to write:

"Actually, impact is very telling. Isn’t writing meant to shock people? But usually, examiners don’t want impact. A swashbuckling article, but an honest and submissive article, that kind of article has full marks."

I sighed to him:

"But our generation has no choice. Yes, our world is in the hands of the school, the hands of the teachers, the hands of the parents, and the hands of the scores.”

I said to him again:

“Grandpa Li Ao, I think you should probably do it.” Take a break and write some works, some works that will be handed down from generation to generation. Your figure is already a monument in the long history. What about your works? Since the Kuomintang is so ugly, you don’t have to spend your whole life on it. Wouldn’t that be too much? A loss?”

What’s surprising is that this paragraph was deleted when the letter was posted online!

Finally I wrote:

"Time flies, your traditional yet modern, Eastern yet Western figure is probably nowhere to be found in my generation. We cannot see the value of Dear learned people, although those learned people can still be picked out by you for their weaknesses, at least they are well-educated, but we are not full, we are very hungry, we can only worship the singers and skillfully memorize the lyrics full of language defects." "The reason why I tell you everything that comes to mind is because I trust you and you are a relatable hero. I believe that adults who like children and are willing to communicate with them are truly smart people. I hope you are such a person too. . ”

It’s a pity that people can’t see these words. They can only remember a pair of old and young madmen. One praised his writing style, and the other said that he was a genius.

From this, I feel regretful and regretful (I hope it won’t be deleted as a regret due to the language problem).

Because these days, there are too many cases of taking things out of context and turning a blind eye to the most important things. Superficial and impetuous bugs crawl on everyone's body, so that people can only see a seemingly gorgeous and wonderful surface. Li Ao once said in an interview: "People who call me 'madman' are uneducated." So, people without "educated", are you eager to see through the essence behind the surface?

A sentence by Zhang Ailing spans half a century and speaks directly to herself, just because many people have experienced being "dismembered" and then "pieced together" and "fabricated" by superficial eyes. Now, let me use a famous quote from Zhang Ailing! Zhang Ailing once said: "Life is a gorgeous robe covered with lice." (This is true, and there is no misunderstanding.) So for these superficial and impetuous but seemingly noble looks, I can only describe it this way , you are a bunch of lice, covered in gorgeous robes.

[Liu Hongji] First reading, second reading, third reading, after all: well written! This Ziyou who feels, thinks and expresses at the same time, my dear child. During his lifetime, Ziyou wanted to publish this article, but failed. His articles are often very long, and he doesn't like to cut his feet to fit the shoes. He is discerning and profound. When he exposes and analyzes problems, he breaks them apart and crushes them into pieces. He uses small humor one after another, all in the midst of talking and laughing, with ease. Although it is a long article, it is always interesting to read. Articles are like people, people are interesting, and articles are also interesting.

Ziyou received praises, of course the most praises came after he left. During his lifetime, he experienced being misunderstood, wronged, and scolded. Although he did not have much time, he still stayed. Some thought-provoking, sonorous and powerful thoughts and words.