I'm a little bit worse than death now, because I'm afraid of death. Do not laugh at me. Actually, I'm too poor ~ ~ ~

You are a lonely person, and you are a good prospect of studying liberal arts. You can try to make good friends with some honest people and often do things you are interested in with them to relax and broaden your horizons. I have always been troubled by your question, because my personal conditions can be said to be good and my luck is good. I always think that I will not be able to enjoy these beautiful things after I die, but now I want to open my heart. The earth can't just turn around for someone. The key is that people should strive to make themselves happy. Remember, let it be, because you can't change your mind. When you light a torch, it will be dark, right? Don't think too much, it will probably be fine after this confused age.