"When I was young, I wanted to be anyone but myself."

"Mary and Max", I have watched this movie three times, which is not too much. Every time I watched it, the period was different and the opportunity was different.

I saw it for the first time in junior high school. At that time, after watching several Disney animated films, I became interested in animated films. So I went online to search.

At that time, when I was young, I was very direct in everything, and I was single-minded. I directly searched for "good-looking animated movies" on Baidu.

then I found this Mary and Max.

at first, I thought the painting style was very different at first.

This is a clay animation. The whole movie is made of 132,48 fixed-frame photos. Everything from houses and cars to buttons on tea bags is made of clay artificially. In addition, this is a black-and-white animation, so from the visual sense, Mary and Max gives people a completely different experience.

The first time I saw it, I saw the unhappiness of young Mary, her alcoholic mother, her mechanical father, and Marx, who was incomprehensible in middle age.

I think they should be very lucky to be pen pals across the ocean, age and time.

When two people who can't find warmth in their lives get together, Mary tells her distress and Marx answers her doubts.

I saw it for the first time, and I think friendship is powerful.

The second time I watched it, I was in high school, and I was really exhausted by so-called men and women, so I clicked Mary and Max again, thinking that I could regain my confidence in friendship.

but why can't you stop crying when you look at it?

This time, I saw Mary who was laughed at for her birthmark, Mary who always cried because she was ugly, and Mary who was bullied and helpless.

I also saw my neighbor Ryan, who lost his legs and suffered from agoraphobia in World War II, my mother, who always frowned, my father, who was immersed in a dead bird model, and Marx, who was wandering in new york and didn't know where to go.

for the third time, I have been in a strange city for three months. People say that college students are very strange. They have a desire for love and friendship, but they stop at the door leading to them. They can laugh and fight in front of a group of people who only meet once, but they scoff at their friends for more than ten years.

I was puzzled, so I opened the movie Mary and Max again.

after reading it, I couldn't calm down for a long time. I have been thinking about why there are so many emotions between people.

Mary's childhood was unfortunate. The only thing she can call a good friend is Aesop, a rooster that her father picked up on the highway. She lacks self-confidence, no friends, and no concern from her family. She curled up in her narrow sad world, looking at the beautiful blue sky outside, but felt that there was nothing of her own.

Her mood ring is often black.

According to the chart, when the mood ring turns black, she is either thinking, subconsciously ambitious or hungry. Every time she believed that she was hungry, she found her favorite cherry chocolate bar.

In a letter to Marx, she said: You said you didn't have any friends. Actually, I didn't ... Have you ever been laughed at by others? What should I do?

As far away as new york, Marx suffered from anxiety and autism. He doesn't understand why people spit all over the placard "Don't spit", why cigarette butts can be seen everywhere, and why everyone treats him as a different kind.

Marx's life is monotonous and boring. He has changed seven jobs and raised nine goldfish, and his daily food has a specific arrangement. He can't leave chocolate. Chocolate is the only way to relieve his anxiety. Marx often suffers from insomnia. From 1 am to 3 am, he can't sleep, so he can only stand on a stool and hide in the corner of the room, gulping and gasping.

Marx can't laugh, and he can't distinguish the expressions on other people's faces. His messy but unchanging life was completely changed after receiving Mary's letter.

so they kept in touch with each other for twenty years.

During this period, they exchanged their favorite chocolates, talked about the cartoon "The Arnold Family" and faced the cruelty of the world together.

Mary even sent Marx a bottle of her own tears, because Marx said he couldn't cry and couldn't shed tears.

The power of friendship, across Qian Shan, came to each other's side.

This is an animation about self, which shows us the disappointment and helplessness of life, and also shows us the close relationship between people through words and friendship.

No one can live alone in this vast world. Maybe we can live alone. But when the soul is facing the risk of disintegration, and when the communication between self and the world begins to disappear gradually, will there be such a person who will cross Qian Shan and walk through the thorns everywhere to hold your hand tightly and tell you that there is hope in life, and don't give up?

Marx's salvation is Mary. He is regarded as "obese and mentally retarded" by the outside world, insulted endlessly, and hurt by others' eyes ... But the appearance of Mary made him have a different experience.

he said, you are my best friend and you are my only friend. (You are my best friend, you are my only friend.)

Mary gradually stepped out of self-denial. She used the savings left by her father to do plastic surgery and removed the brown birthmark on her forehead. She entered the university and devoted herself to the medical research of spirit. She courted her neighbor Damian and successfully married him.

When it was all over, Mary's parents both died and her husband Damian left her, she took the children to new york to find Marx.

Marx has died peacefully. He is sitting on the sofa with his head held high back.

Mary looked up, too, and broke down in tears.

Marx ironed every letter from Mary, framed it, and hung it neatly on the ceiling. The whole ceiling is full of letters from Mary: immature words, clumsy paintings, yellowed paper wrinkled by tears ... This messy room has such a pure land and records their most precious memories.

Marx said in his letter: I realize that you are not perfect, and neither am I. No one is perfect, we all have defects, even the litterer downstairs. When I was a child, I wanted to be anyone but myself. We can't choose defects, they are part of our lives, we can only accept them. However, we can choose our friends, and I'm glad I chose you. You are my best friend, and you are my only friend.

In life, we are both Mary and Marx. The worldly eyes may make us timid and lonely, but the appearance of friendship will erase the gray covering the sky, open our locked heart and lead us to find the beauty of the world again.