Stay rational and believe in the future.

Stay rational and believe in the future.

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Original: Lin

"Be rational and believe in the future", LiBB.

? In 20 19, I was a college student who was about to graduate. Plain-looking, average family. I have no intimate friends from primary school to college. Maybe I'm too maverick to make every friend drift away.

? In my first year of college, I embarked on this road at the behest of my parents. I sigh that my college life has begun, which is a turning point in my life. At that time, I was covered in blood. When I checked into the dormitory, I found that I was the last one to arrive, and the bed had been chosen. After entering the door, I greeted my future roommates and their parents and smiled politely without embarrassment. Knowing that the other three roommates are all from other provinces, I think that my living habits are different and I have no bottom.

? The first class in college is engineering mathematics, and the teacher is a young female teacher. She said that freshman is the easiest to learn, because I haven't forgotten my good habits in high school, and then I get lazier and lazier. I deeply agree, then take out my notebook and write it down to remind myself in the future. I remember sitting by the window that day, and the morning sunshine always made people feel very comfortable. Through the cracks in the leaves, it flashed on my arm. I drew a love in red to celebrate the beginning of college life.

? In the next few weeks, few students insisted on taking engineering mathematics. The teacher is inexperienced in class, and every time she just repeats the knowledge points in her textbook one by one, the students will always get bored. In the second class, I left the empty stairwell with my schoolbag on my back. After returning to the dormitory, the roommates are playing League of Legends. They shouted excitedly, go on, hit him, this will help the real food. After losing the game, they hit the keyboard and became dejected and despondent. They turned to me and said, hey, do you want to play together? I hesitated for a moment and nodded silently. My usual life experience tells me that I must join a group to improve my interpersonal relationship, so I am good at observing others and taking advantage of various opportunities to try to join their topic. Obviously this is my chance.

? Get along for a month, their daily topic is basically about games, and occasionally I will talk about beautiful women in various departments, although I don't care. Within a week, roommates found girlfriends one after another, went out to New Century Plaza for shopping and dating every rest day, occasionally basked in friends' circle and wrote "It's good to meet you", and I immediately praised it. After returning to the dormitory, a roommate said, "Brother, we all have it. We can talk when we have time, or I can introduce you. No one can work alone with you, hahahaha. " I looked at him in surprise, and I could only say "huh?" Because I don't know the meaning of this sentence, I don't understand why. He came over and patted me on the shoulder and said, "It's on my brother."

? Sure enough, I made his girlfriend's classmate my girlfriend the next week. This is my first love. I am a little timid, dare not make any mistakes, and manage this relationship carefully.

? That day, the girl said, next month is my birthday. What are your preparations? I didn't answer because I didn't know how to answer. Later, on her birthday, I gave her a notebook full of knowledge points, saying that the English exam would be useful. Although she smiled when she got it, I was sensitive enough to know that she was disappointed. I don't understand. I recall that when I was in junior high school, I sent a notebook to a girl I had a crush on. She blushed at that time and liked it. At that time, young people were very simple and real, girls didn't wear heavy makeup, and boys gave each other nicknames. At that time, they were just classmates and teenagers, in the prime of life.

? I don't know when the cancer that I am straight spread among girls. They put Tik Tok outside and told me with a smile that you are just like him. I'm not angry. I laugh with them. It seems that Tik Tok is very popular in the class. I tentatively opened the software, which spread all kinds of edge balls and unhealthy views, and then watched other students brush happily. I don't understand why everyone is so addicted to this software.

? I feel different after being single again. I don't belong to this group anymore, because I feel out of place at most class gatherings. My roommate who used to play League of Legends in the dormitory has turned off his cell phone for a long time, and the number of mobile phone "the glory of the king" games has steadily increased. They talked about which senior is good-looking, how to get in touch with the girls in the department of economics and management, and spend their parents' money unscrupulously. The girls discussed the dressing style of Tik Tok, the variety entertainment programs produced by various video websites and the recent situation of various love beans, and occasionally discussed the little red book for a while. They have red lips and short skirts, and they have no breath of students.

? In autumn, the campus is always full of fallen leaves. As soon as the sunset crossed the horizon, people in a hurry hurried on. The radio station is playing the recently popular Tik Tok Divine Comedy. There will be instant news broadcasts on the radio from time to time. In high school, teachers often said that universities are a small society, so we should take part in more community activities to exercise our abilities. That's what the seniors taught us. I was convinced at that time. Later, I joined the student union and found that all the students in it learned the supremacy of power. They may be our age, but they are only seniors in the first year. I don't know why they can't speak loudly in private meetings, don't know how to respect their seniors and sisters, and don't know how to say hello when they meet. What a scandal. The adjutant's face is disgusting. Someone refused to answer back before, and the senior said that he had come over like this. We have been there before, and we will know when you are seniors.

? Specifically, more than half a semester has passed, and I still haven't made any friends. I took out my mobile phone counting screen from my trouser pocket and turned on QQ, which was useless for a long time. There were a bunch of advertisements in the group after being stolen. Open the SMS, the latest one is a mobile phone reminder, my phone bill is insufficient, please recharge it in time. Finally, I turned out WeChat to open my circle of friends and brushed it for a few minutes. All the news is WeChat business, and friends who worked hard together in high school have no contact. The last message was left in the mass blessing of the Spring Festival. Holding a mobile phone, I suddenly felt an unspeakable loneliness. I am a nostalgic person. In high school, we are not allowed to bring mobile phones back to school. Back in the dormitory, we have endless topics. We still insist on exercising after school. After the lights are turned off at night, we will dig out the mobile phone that we secretly brought back to school from our suitcases, cover our heads with quilts and have fun. This university is completely free. In order to make up for the regret of high school, the mobile phone was full of games, and one night passed. Playing mobile phone in class is not in the charge of the teacher. After this secret joy was completely lost, I no longer like playing mobile phones so much.

? College time will always pass quickly, and we will go home one after another after the winter vacation. People say that universities are a group of "plastic surgery hospitals", but I didn't lose my childish face because I went to college. I have been wearing a loose old T-shirt and carrying a schoolbag since high school, and now I am obviously much lighter. Character is still silent. Bored at home, lying in bed for a few minutes, suddenly found something to do. I jumped out of bed and dug out the guitar I hadn't touched for a long time. The piano body is covered with dust. Just after playing a piano piece in the evening, my neighbor's children rushed in and laughed at what I played. I ignored it. He asked if you could play "Your pub hits me"? I said no, but he said it was a very popular song of Tik Tok first, and then he hummed a few words. That's all I can say about the way you sing. He cut, no knowledge!

? At night, it is difficult to breathe in a stuffy room. I decided to go out for a blow. The uncles on the roadside have come home from work in the electronics factory. They are playing mahjong, smoking cigarettes and indulging in this false happiness. When they saw me, they politely handed me a cigarette. I refused embarrassedly, saying that I don't smoke. He looked at me faintly and said that people in their twenties still don't smoke. Are you a man? I smiled and said goodbye to them. Seeing the expressions on their faces, I felt that I was wandering on the edge of them, as if my mediocre appearance had a clear outline after 20 years. I finally chose to escape from reality and go home and turn on the computer.

? I often think that we should be grateful for the benefits brought by the development of the Internet: just a small video app, which contributes traffic to good works, makes talented grassroots discovered, and college students from all walks of life pick up guitars and make friends. As the British writer Charles Dickens wrote in A Tale of Two Cities, this is the best time and the worst time. This is an era of wisdom, this is an era of stupidity; This is a period of trust, this is a period of doubt.

? "We gradually lost the ability to think deeply and indulged in various apps that can get short-term pleasure."

? Soon after school started, roommates faded their childishness with the red envelopes they got in the New Year. Flat hair was taken care of by Tony and became a popular tin foil perm. Jacket Nike pants Adidas Anta stockings Li Ning slippers. Very avant-garde dress.

They also fell in love with folk songs and asked me if I liked them. I nodded silently. He seems to think that we have reached an agreement and tried to ask me to teach him to play the guitar. He said it was very literary. Then he opened the shopping website and downloaded a big gift package of 88 yuan.

? As I expected, after a week, he gave up decisively, and the pain in his fingers was not fast enough. He finally chose to take a photo and send it to a circle of friends and then he was satisfied.

? I love reading, but reading in the university dormitory is regarded as an alternative, unless it is on the eve of the exam. They are afraid of hard work, so they need to laugh at hard people to fill their timid hearts. After dinner that day, I opened a copy of Lu Xun's Wandering in a quiet dormitory. As it happens, they just came back and smiled, "Yo, learn from tyrants". I calmly covered the book and said with a smile, "I was bored just after eating." They didn't ask too much.

? People around you will always use various ways to promote the good times in college and live their own lives. They said they should join more clubs to accumulate their communication skills. They say that a university is incomplete without failing classes. They say that not looking for a girlfriend in college is a waste of youth ... although I can't understand many examples, I can't find a reason to refute them. It seems that everyone is living step by step.

? In my sophomore year, I met a girl in the electronic reading room. She always likes to plug in headphones, and the gentle sunshine shines on her broken hair. I looked out of the window from time to time and looked at the broken hair scattered in the corner of my eye with my hand. She noticed that I had been staring at her, and I turned my head in panic. She left me her contact information when she left.

? She always speaks very gently and slowly. A touch of makeup powder on her cheek, like a drizzle in early spring, makes the bud full of vitality. She is intellectual, she is always rational and will not lack the unique willfulness of women. This is her most charming place. After dating for two years, we announced our love affair to our parents, but the result was not satisfactory. Her parents are traditional and stubborn, and they are firmly opposed to marrying their daughter to such a distant province.

? Sometimes I think men are rude at certain times. I stubbornly left her just last week.

? Today, I just stepped on the return bus, plugged in my headphones, dragged my cheeks and looked out of the window with my hands. I wrote "Stay Rational and Believe in the Future" in my circle of friends, and successfully published it.