A long heart: everything started with a secret love in childhood.

When Du Roushan was twenty-four years old, for a time, she had to rely on melatonin to sleep, and she was very silent at night. When the medicine comes and gently pulls her sleepy like a quilt, she will always think of him for a few seconds. The face is in a trance, always like a person on the other side.

When she is awake, she sometimes thinks that if she was in Chun Qing when she was young, she would be happier in the future if she was not stumped by this person.

She doesn't know. All she knows is that after all these years, she still can't help looking back again and again.

Just like the white ginger flowers in summer, those unspeakable hearts and feelings are bleak and pale.

It all started with a long unrequited love when I was young.

Soft and Tan Lei are blue-chip stocks at present, but there is still a long way to go before they can achieve something. But through Chen Zhiwei, happiness is at your fingertips, so real and charming, why not hold it in your arms? Shanshan knew her because of her cousin Du. When this boy who is three years older than her first appeared in her life, he was only in his early twenties, like apricots after the rain. Short stature, lovely face, standing in front of her, shyly say hello to her. "Hello, little sister."

However, Roushan, who has early wisdom that does not belong to this age, suddenly understood why her cousin must come to see her on weekends and go out with her. At that time, parents still regarded puppy love as a scourge, especially senior three candidates. Boarding school only has one weekend a month, but young lovers have to overcome many obstacles when they meet once. Meat mountain is a light bulb and the best refuge.

None of the three people said it was significant, but they all knew it. This subtle threesome lasted for half a year.

They often meet at noon on Saturday, go to McDonald's for lunch, and then go to pillow grass to watch their writing homework. This is a small coffee shop with a dark green facade and a lazy folding cat. Shi Jun and Xiaotang are sitting in a row, and Meat Mountain is sitting opposite Xiaotang. Three furry heads, leaning together, buried in homework. When he is tired of writing, Shi Jun will buy two cakes for girls. Every time I know what Xiaotang likes to eat, he always asks Roushan again, "Little sister, you nodded this time, still so soft. He said, "Fool, so that I can walk calmly. Your birthday is not the first time I met you. If there is an opportunity, I want to give you happiness. "What do you want to eat?"

Later, Roushan understood that this is the intimacy and tacit understanding between lovers.

Sometimes Shi Jun will help Roxanne memorize words, which are boring English phrases. He reads one and she writes one. His voice is gentle, but she is always nervous. When she is nervous, she can't spell English words. Shi Jun was a little worried and seriously educated her: "Do you have to study harder? Ah. "

She left the pie mouth, think Shi Jun is very interesting, she also thinks she is very interesting. She was obviously the representative of English class, but she was too agitated by him to say a word. She closed her exercise book and went out. Sometimes she will come out alone and leave some time alone for lovers. It's autumn, and there is a quiet road outside the coffee shop. The ancient buttonwood is silent and heavy, and the leaves with big palms are gently spread on the ground, giving the earth a feeling of high sky. It takes about a small round trip from one end of the road to the other. Time.

How many things can a couple do in an hour? You can play the songs in MP3 for an hour, and Faye Wong sings in his ear: "Remember the number of the hotel that day and leave with a smile? Statement ... "

This is the first time that Roushan saw love, and its background color is warm and sad.

Who cares about finding a child's secret love?

Soon they took the college entrance examination, and Shi Jun got an average, barely enough for a local university. Du went to Beijing. That summer, Roushan only saw his handsome side at the Xie Shi banquet in Tang Xiao. He sat at his classmate's desk, sincerely happy for Tang Xiao, and his back was somewhat lonely. Roushan went over and patted him on the shoulder. He smiled when he saw her. "I heard that you won the first place in the middle school entrance examination."

"A high school with you. Which class were you in when you were a freshman? "

"We are Class Two."

"Then I'll go to Class 2, too."

Shi Jun smiled again and thought she was very interesting.

Late at night, Roushan got a call from Tang Xiao, saying that Shi Jun had drunk too much at KTV. Of all the students, he was the drunkest and sang "Love Me, Don't Go" foolishly. She sighed as if she were helpless? Son.

"Will you break up with him in the future?" Roushanwen

I don't know. I don't think so. "Tang Xiao hung up the phone.

Roushan turned on the desk lamp in the middle of the night and listened to the song sung by Shi Jun repeatedly in the silent night. "Love me don't go, if you say, you don't love me. Didn't hear you really say it, give me another reason ... "

People who write songs are the most heartless, and people who listen to songs cry like fools.

In the following years, although Shi Jun and Roushan were in the same city, they seldom met. One of the few faces is also winter and summer vacation. Tang Xiao came back and went shopping with her. Tang Xiao loves beauty and always spends a lot of time doing her hair and nails. Shi Jun and Roushan sat in rows waiting for her.

Shi Jun asked, "Are you bored?"

Roushan shook her head. Now that she has grown up, Shi Jun no longer calls her little sister, and she is embarrassed to call her name, so she always omits her address when talking to her.

But later, when they were no longer separated by Du, he called her name. Roxanne, Roxanne, my heart is broken. He was depressed. "Roushan, why can't people who love each other live forever?" It's far. "

When he said this, Roushan stood in front of him, holding a carton of gifts that Tang Xiao asked her to send, at a loss. Du broke up cleanly and even refused to comment on the last side. Roushan is holding the carton and Shi Jun is deadlocked on the road. There are notebooks, scarves, dolls, ring boxes and Jay Chou's CD…… in the box ........................................................................................................................................................ She wanted to hug Shi Jun, but her hands were tied and she didn't have the courage.

In 2006, Daisy premiered in China, and it was almost midnight. Shi Jun in a T-shirt and Roushan in a school uniform are walking in the silent spring night, and the air is filled with the fragrance of those unknown flower trees. The love in the movie is very touching. Du had been waiting for a long time, but he didn't expect that when the film was released, they were no longer together. Shi Jun wants to know why the children who are about to take the college entrance examination must ask him to go to the movies.

So I walked all the way to the outer wall of Roushan School, and Shi Jun gave her a gentle lift, and she quickly climbed over the wall. She sat slightly higher and looked at him with a smile. There are two small pear-shaped eddies around her mouth. She said, "Shi Jun, I like you. The college entrance examination is coming soon, and I have to go to a far, far place to study, so I want to tell you that I like you. "

When Jun stood there and came to his senses, Roushan had jumped off the wall, leaving only a low old wall in the night. He leaned out to look at his mother's smile, and his son immediately raised his hand and gave his mother a military salute. "yes! I'm leaving! " The branches of wild cherry are soft and beautiful under the street lamp.

On the way back, I remembered that when he and Du Gang broke up, I received a short message to the effect that he was excellent and needed to refuel. Now that I think about it, it's probably from this little guy.

The little girl's infatuation can't be called love, but it also warms people's hearts. Just like the spring breeze on the warm street at night, when I was depressed for so many days, Shi Jun finally smiled from the heart.

July fire, Roushan's fate settled, and she was admitted to Wuhan University as she wished. After the ecstasy, it is the sadness of parting. She packed up all her schooldays in her room, and made up her mind to hide her love for Ji Jun, accept the fact that she would never be with him, and move on with her life. His warm and harmless answer of "thank you" made everything between them disappear.

Luojia Mountain has beautiful scenery, like a Little Paradise, which makes people hide and feel at ease as mountain people. During his college years, Tang Xiao had the most contact with Roushan. After graduation, Tang Xiao stayed in Beijing and had a stable relationship with a like-minded person. Occasionally, I mentioned Shi Jun. I heard that he entered his father's factory to do odd jobs, and probably embarked on the road of blind date, marriage and having children. Tang Xiao commented that he was too lacking in rebellious spirit to be an interesting person. "It's strange that I have been in love with him for so long."

Roushan hung up the phone, a little sad. In recent years, she also secretly loved others, but it was too shallow, just a ripple on the lake, which soon calmed down. Although I haven't contacted Shi Jun in recent years, her love concept has formed, which is the movie she watched with Shi Jun as a teenager. Her love is the same, old-fashioned, affectionate and inarticulate.

Love happened when I was young. At this time, his temples were frosted and she was as hot as snow. Years old, the family is still poor, he took her hand for a walk, he sang songs that he sang to her when he was a child, and she looked at him and smiled like a baby, but she held his hand tightly. Love, if extended to adulthood, is not just the original heartache. Roushan began to write about her secret love for Tijun when she was in the third year of high school. She is an intern in Shanghai, and she is always in fear. Tijun is the warmest memory. In the rented house without air conditioning and heating, she wrote down her attachment to Ji Jun for so many years with cold hands.

I didn't expect many people to pay attention to me on the forum, and I didn't expect to get a call from Shi Jun one day. His voice is like a tear in my heart for years. He said, "Roxanne, where are you? I want to see you. "

20 12 however, within a few days, she immigrated to Ireland with her family. I didn't have the courage and ability to keep her, so my first love ended like a epiphyllum, but the epiphyllum was beautiful and so was my first love. In winter, Shanghai is cold, rainy and snowy. On the day when Shi Jun came to see Roushan, it cleared up a little for a while. Both of them, wearing gray coats, came from one end of Fumin Road where she worked as an intern. Adele's songs are all over the street, and people often park hatchbacks in the back seat to sell this disc. Shi Jun stopped and bought her a CD, another one and put it back in her pocket.

This is the first time they have had the same thing, and Roxanne is very enthusiastic.

It was so cold that I turned into a roadside cafe and sat down for a drink. I sat face to face, and there was thin snow outside the glass window. Grandson has fallen asleep in Liu Yi's arms. She kissed the child on the cheek: "Son, do you know who those young people are?" They smiled at each other, probably remembering the experiment we did together that day when we were children. I have practiced many times in advance, and now I confidently walk onto the platform, smile at my classmates, grab the scalpel and start working. Sue remembered that pillow grass was the time to come back.

"Is the pillow grass still there?" Roushan asked.

"Still there. Only the boss has changed. I'll take you next time you come back. "

Between Roushan and Roushan, Du's topic is isolated. In fact, gossip has nothing in common with the past, so most of their gatherings are silent. We had a light meal here, and the barista brought the wine list and recommended Mojito. It is said that Hemingway's The Old Man and the Sea has a special chapter, which is also world-famous because of Hemingway.

What a good story! They drank for a few days in July of 1998, and heard that there would be a meteor shower in the night sky. In the evening, Feng He sat side by side on the terrace, looking up at the starry sky and waiting quietly. "If you wish under the stars, the stars will help you realize it." Zhang told me that her wish was to repay her family's kindness in the future! Zhangyan cried as she spoke. "Why are you crying?" "I'm afraid that one day we will be apart." At this time, Zhang Yao has received a notice from Harbin Academy of Fine Arts. The two originally wanted to go to college in the same city. Studying art, Feng studies computer. However, Feng didn't play well and was admitted to a university in another city. Cup, it was dark outside the window, and the snow fell silently. If indoor music sounds useless, someone makes people cry like you.

Shi Jun wanted to catch the night train, so he said goodbye to Roushan. After a gentle hug, Shi Jun asked, "Will you come back?"

Soft shan nodded, "yes. You took me to pillow grass again. As before. "

It's puzzling, but the short meeting in the past is so unforgettable. But affectionate people make the world lovely.

Two years later, Roxanne returned to her hometown and became an English teacher in the town middle school. Mother was finally able to intervene in her marriage and arranged several steady and honest people to date her.

Love is not your choice, just like eating pollution-free vegetables, it is harmless to the body, but it hurts the soul and completely destroys your appetite for love.

I don't want to find Shi Jun, but the reality is very depressing.

However, this is only a small county, and Shi Jun will always meet it. I saw his side face in a delicious breakfast shop. He drove his mother's old Mercedes, frowning and waiting for the crowd to pass by. At the age of 30, Shi Jun is still a good-looking man, but he is still in a mixed state and his reputation has become less good. Probably, he dated a lot of girls and didn't give anyone the result.

Rushan hesitated, not knowing whether to call him. ShangJun saw her in the rearview mirror, strode down, eyes have the joy of reunion after such a long separation, "you go to the bottom of the tomb. With the delicacy and sensitivity of women, Butterfly Week found that Ma Zong, who is cold and irritable, is actually very generous, caring and caring not only for her, but also for all her subordinates, although the way she shows it is often blunt. With the deepening of her knowledge and understanding of Ma Zong, her unrequited love has become stronger and stronger. In fact, as a beautiful young girl, Butterfly Week's heart is already obvious. But the horse always turned a blind eye and was indifferent. The cold reception of unrequited love made her unbearable, so she chose to leave. She wrote a letter of resignation and gave it to the general manager Ma. Let's go. "

"Well, I'm back, and I won't leave."

When did you officially get together with Shi Jun? Maybe we went to eat seafood together and the road slipped. He held on to her hand. You can also go to pillow grass together. In the middle of the night, he kissed her gently. She closed her eyes and dozed off under the chandelier ... With Shi Jun, she naturally looked like flowers of the four seasons.

Parents naturally objected, so they secretly dated and climbed down from the small balcony on the second floor, full of stars. The two of them listened to Adele's old CDs in the car together, as if they were sleeping separately.

Tang Xiao, who has settled in Beijing, heard that every time I go out, his wife will say this sentence, which has become a mantra. Today, this is the nth time I can't remember clearly, but my wife finally stressed, remember, don't delay! Message, call me, "Roushan, you don't mind our past. I bless you. Shi Jun is a good man, but he is easily disappointed most of the time. You must be able to bear this disappointment. "

Life is so exciting and disappointing, isn't it? Love a person is to bear the crush of his life? Movies.

When I woke up that morning, Roushan reached out and touched the glasses beside the bed. Suddenly she stopped, and her fingers touched a small, terrible thing, a small ring with a handful of jasmine beside it, as white as a crescent moon and as fragrant as a dust dream.

Roushan leaned out of the window, and Shi Jun's car was parked downstairs. It rained last night and the roof fell down? Flowers.

Her innocent lover comes from the drizzle of apricot blossoms. Indeed, in Wei Zongwan's view, husband and wife are inseparable when they are young, take care of each other when they are middle-aged, and nag each other when they are old. This is true love. His wife gave him a home, and he wanted to give her all his love. Come out.

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