Destined love, how to continue?

LZ, as a post-90s generation, lives a life state that does not belong to post-90s generation. She/Kloc-graduated from junior high school at the age of 0/6 and entered the society because of poor family conditions. This foot doomed my fate to be incomparable with my peers. When I met my first love at the age of 65,438+07, the love at that time was so simple and irrelevant, but it disappeared after one year. I don't want to lie to myself. This relationship is the most real, and I remember his kindness. But today, many years later, I can only say that I will recall the feeling of the telegraph pole that my first love gave me. I accidentally bumped into it when I was walking, and then I had to walk around it, but the pain of being hit has always existed, but it is not easy to remember. . . Missed is a lifetime!

At the age of 22, I met little H (ex-husband) at work. There is no denying that my emotional path is not smooth. My personality is too straightforward to hide anything, which is where I suffer. He caught my soft spot, but I didn't understand his psychology in the end. Men's hearts are sometimes hard to guess. Many things happened in the middle, so I won't explain them one by one. My parents strongly oppose this relationship, because little H and I are not in the same city. Full of male chauvinism, my parents are afraid that I will suffer from him. I didn't listen. It is too easy to give in to the so-called love and trust a person, but I really didn't know at that time that I trusted a person too much, which made my next road undergo a series of earth-shaking changes. Later, we lived together, and then he followed me back to my city to work and live. I was pregnant and became a mother at the age of 23. As a result, the whole pregnancy was constantly arguing about trivial matters because of each other's temper. In this way, until his son was born, he didn't feel better. Less than a month ago, he returned to his hometown and never heard from him again. He was immersed in pain for a long time. I went to work when my son was one month old. That time was particularly dark and difficult for me, and there was not enough milk. Children need milk powder to get wet and clothes need money. My salary can only make do. I was helpless then, and I am still helpless now. Three months after little H left, I met little C (my current job), which I met in the same city divorce group. I didn't like to talk to strangers at first, but later I became familiar with them and talked more. At that time, my feelings were blank, especially painful and helpless. My family advised me to divorce, and my son gave little H, which I could not bear. Many friends advised me not to have a son, which will bring you lifelong trouble. I didn't listen. I didn't expect what would happen. I was in a similar situation to him at that time. He and his wife have been separated for a year. I'm only a few months old. He has a son who takes the woman's surname. Our wedding form here is to stay overnight on both sides. They each have a child, a boy and a girl. As a result, the woman took his son's surname, and the two families broke up in discord. How many things happened in the process? I was in a bad mood, so I talked to him. A month later, I filed a lawsuit in the local area and prepared for divorce. At that time, my son was five months old and I knew little C for three months, but I never met him. I said I wanted a divorce. I said I was in too much pain, and I would find a sustenance to forget these things. I can't bear to be separated from my son. I tentatively asked him, if it were you, would you accept a woman with a son? He said, keep it if you want! I didn't say much, so I didn't ask any more questions.

After a long chat, we made an appointment to meet and went home after watching the movie. From that day on, I asked him directly, how did you feel when you met me? He asked, how do you feel? I said, do you like me? He was silent for a long time before replying to this message. He said he liked it, but he couldn't give me anything for the time being. Let me wait and give it to me later. "Ha ha" I smiled happily. At that moment, I was very moved. I especially hope that everything I have done for him, even if it is a mistake, is worth it. Women are stupid, it's too easy to have sex!