Zhaizhuang Zhongzheng

I am not sure whether what I write on paper can truly express what I am thinking.

“Zhaizhuang Zhongzheng”, my first exposure to this term was when I was learning cross talk. There is a sentence in Guankou's "Praising the Residence" that goes like this: The two doors and four green screens are sprinkled with gold stars, and the four fighting parties write "Zhaizhuang Zhongzheng"; on the back is "serious and neat".

The Xijinzhai in Prince Gong’s Mansion in Beijing also has these four characters, with gold characters on a red background, which is very eye-catching.

I checked its meaning on the Internet earlier, and it specifically refers to being clear of distracting thoughts and solemn and self-sustained.

The reason why I want to write an article using these four words as the title is mainly because I want to give these four words to myself, with no distracting thoughts, solemnity and self-control.

Yesterday at the class party, after eating and drinking, he returned to the dormitory and lay on the bed to rest. When he got up to drink water, he received a text message from his father.

"Hello son, are you resting? Do you have time to call me back?"

I always find it interesting that my father is always respectful when he texts me. But he never asked me to call him back like this. For a moment, I felt guilty and worried that something had happened to my family. Grandpa is eighty and a half years old. Is there something wrong with his health? I don’t know how many people of the same age who are away from home are like me. They are growing up day by day, and their families are getting older day by day. They call home regularly but dare not answer their family’s calls, for fear of what kind of things are coming from the other end of the phone. Bad news.

After reading the text message and thinking for a moment, I dialed the phone back. I don’t know if it’s a matter of my investigative profession, but I always think too much about the well-being of my family.

The father on the other end of the phone said that he and his mother went to the mountains today and asked a master to perform a divination for me. The master said that the flowers in my destiny bloomed too early. I have been surrounded by too many girls since I was a child, and I have distracting thoughts. Not a good thing.

Parents are like this. They are worried about their children's future. The elderly have some feudal superstitions. They have seen some half-fairy queens nagging their children.

As a college student in the 21st century, even though I have received scientific education for more than ten years, I still do not deny that I believe in the theory of ghosts and gods and Yin and Yang Feng Shui.

My parents are over fifty years old. People of their age have experienced everything. Putting aside feudal superstitions, you should still listen to your parents' instructions.

I happened to be thinking about how to treat love as a student in the past two days. After thinking about it, I felt that "love" is a course, but not an assignment. There is no need to complete it. So realistically speaking, love is not that important. It is better to come later than the future prospects.

Last night I was chatting with a friend who has been playing since childhood, and I said: "My dad said that I had a bad life since I was a child, and I had little girls around me since I was a child. Please help me analyze whether it is really accurate. ”

My friend said: “Smellful.”

Then my friend mentioned a few names, but they were vague.

Some things come too early and you can’t get them. Many years later, you can’t even remember what they looked like at the beginning. Why bother?

Life is divided into stages, one of which is called "getting married and establishing a career". Now I feel that this stage is reversed. As a man, you should start a career first and then start a family. So as for love, don’t force it if you can’t get it.

It doesn’t matter whether my life is really calculated accurately. What matters is that I have a coordinate in my life. The coordinate axis is engraved with the year, achievements, expectations and responsibilities.

Parents see their children most clearly. Mother said the same thing, she has distracting thoughts and is restless. All things are interdependent, and there is always one thing that can stump you. It may be material or emotional. In the unknown life, sufficient material, happy love, satisfying career, etc., everyone's choices are different. As for what I choose, I should carefully consider it. As for what time should be done and what things are more appropriate, there will also be trade-offs.

Faced with the shortcomings that were mentioned repeatedly, I thought of "Zhaizhuang Zhongzheng" and wanted to give myself these four words, a person who lives in the world with no distracting thoughts, solemn and self-sustained. At the same time, I also give it to everyone who sees it, and encourage you.

——Dark Blue

2016.3.13