What kind of experience is it not to receive blessings on your birthday?

It will be very chilling, that is, you carefully selected the gifts and prepared a surprise when they got what they wanted. Last year, I even stayed up until two o'clock in the morning to cut videos for my friend, just because I wanted to surprise her. I don't think I should do all the work between friends. I'm so tired. I was very sad last year. I spent a lot of time choosing gifts carefully. As a result, I didn't receive the blessing. Maybe I'm too sensitive and fragile.