The mental journey of migrant workers' drivers from kindness to madness

Folk story is an important part of China folk culture, which has a far-reaching impact on the lives of ordinary people. The following is my mental journey from kindness to madness:

Work and life are bitter and sweet.

The driver of the dump truck is Luo, 34 years old, from Suizhou, Hubei. 1990, Luo dropped out of school to study electric welding in nearby Xiangfan city. Since 1998, he has been wandering in Guangzhou, Zhongshan and other places, wandering on the way to work.

In 2005, Luo fell in love with a girl from Yiyang, Hunan, and became her son-in-law. Later, the couple came to Bai Jiao Town, Doumen District, Zhuhai. Luo used a tractor to transport bricks in a red brick factory and worked as a general worker in an electronics factory. The next year, their son Yang Yang was born, which added a lot of joy to them.

In May 2007, Luo got a driver's license and planned to buy a van. However, with the birth of the child and the unpaid maternity leave of the wife, the family's economy suddenly became tense. I couldn't even afford to live in a one-bedroom apartment with a monthly rent of 100 yuan, so I moved to a shop without doors in Bai Jiao Trade City and rented 50 yuan for a month.

The simple living environment has not dispelled Luo's enthusiasm for life. He picked up colorful boards and battens and made his own "door" and "wall", leaving a big gap at the top of the "wall" for lighting. He also built an attic, downstairs is the living room and kitchen, upstairs is the bed and wardrobe, and there is a simple wooden ladder made by himself, which can be climbed up and down. Although his home is surrounded by walls, he bought his son the latest children's hanyu pinyin table and children's understanding of animals wall chart to hang on the wall. For the livelihood of his family, especially the needs of his children, with the help of his parents-in-law, Luo collected 20,000 yuan and borrowed 30,000 yuan from others. In April, 2008, he bought a single-row second-hand dump truck with the brand name of "Meng K 15484" and went through the relevant formalities. Neighbors helped him contact a construction site to build a clothing factory to transport soil and sand.

Luo drives his own car, not to mention how happy he is. He gets up early and goes to work in the dark, and he goes in the wind and rain. In order to save money, he doesn't eat a box lunch with more than 5 yuan. He was reluctant to buy a bottle of mineral water for 3 yuan, but bought a big bucket of pure water and put it in the car. After a hard day's work, he came home and ate steaming food from his wife Doby's babbling son. He felt very happy. He fantasized about making a lot of money and paying off his debts as soon as possible. He promised his wife that when he made money, he would rent a big house to make the two girls live comfortably. He also plans to use two years to earn enough money for the first mortgage to buy a house, provide a big house in the "Jinbi Lijiang River" garden opposite the Bai Jiao Trade City, take his parents-in-law to support the elderly, send Yang Yang to receive a good education, and open a grocery store for his wife, so that the husband and wife can work together to get rich and change the fate of the whole family. He also figured that after earning money, he would also send some living expenses to his parents in Hubei on a monthly basis to repay the kindness of raising. Although his life is difficult at present, he is full of hope for the future.

The financial tsunami is so strong.

At the end of 2007, affected by the international financial turmoil, the overseas orders of that garment factory were greatly reduced, and the construction of the new factory was suspended. Luo has no work to do. The boss still owes him thousands of dollars in salary. Luo had to find another way, but with the closure of enterprises in the Pearl River Delta or the reduction of construction scale, he ran into a wall everywhere and could only take some sporadic jobs under the introduction of acquaintances, but he also spent three days fishing and two days drying the net, making ends meet. He just lies at home and sleeps every day.

But unlike those who have been poor together, I am frugal. Now, he is more frugal about food, suffering from the economic cold wave, and he and his wife even rarely touch meat. To this, Chen Xiaofang silently endured. Until one day, the child ran out of milk powder, and she reached out and asked her husband for 1o0 yuan to buy milk powder. Luo touched her body for a long time before taking out 30 yuan's money. Chen Xiaofang couldn't help quarreling with him: "It's bad luck to marry you!" Others wear gold and silver, and I can live on bread and water, so I don't care, but my son is in a developmental stage and cannot live without milk powder. "Luo Xiaoji said," I want to cook some rice paste for my son. It saves money and is nutritious, killing two birds with one stone. " Chen Xiaofang said sarcastically, "Only people like you can come up with such a small plan, but you keep bragging about buying a new house and opening a shop. What did you cash? If I had known you were so incompetent, I shouldn't have married you. " Her words, like a stuffy fist, hit Luo's soft spot, and he said nothing but submit to humiliation.

In September, 2008, this newspaper disclosed the news of infant calculus caused by eating Sanlu milk powder. More than 30 cases were found in our city, and Yang Yang had eaten Sanlu milk powder before. Luo and his wife quickly took their son to the hospital for examination. Sure enough, Yang Yang suffered from stones, and the doctor told the child to be hospitalized as soon as possible. At that time, the country had not introduced the policy of free treatment for children with stones, so the couple had to bite their teeth and take out their own savings of several thousand yuan to let Yang Yang be hospitalized.

After half a month, Yang Yang's stones were solved and his money was almost spent. At this time, the doctor accidentally discovered that Yang Yang had a heart problem and needed an operation. It cost tens of thousands of yuan. Luo was puzzled. He looked up at heaven and lamented that it was unfair to him. The couple discussed it and decided that it was important to make money first. Don't let your son have an operation until you have saved enough money.

During that time, Luo seemed to be possessed, and all he could think about was the word "making money". Where is the way to make money? One day, while wandering outside, he overheard a conversation between two motorcyclists carrying passengers: "How much did you pull today?" "It's just so-so, 100 is just over a dollar." Luo patted his head and had an idea in his heart: the traffic network in Doumen District is relatively backward, and there are many traffic blind spots. There are motorcycles in the streets and even in towns and villages to carry passengers back and forth. Why didn't he think of this way to get rich before?

Luo Rang's wife borrowed 5000 yuan from her family to buy a motorcycle. His wife resolutely objected: "You haven't paid back the 10,000 Yuan You you borrowed, so how can I borrow it again? You are shameless! I am very embarrassed! " It's really not a taste to say that Luo's face turns white. The very next day. His sister and brother, who work in Zhongshan and Zhuhai, came to see him together, so he told them his plan. Seeing that he had no financial resources, they all agreed that he should drive a motorcycle. And promised to lend him money to buy a car. Luo is very happy. He made an exception by buying chicken and fish, cooking in person, entertaining his younger brothers and sisters, and then shopping with them to buy a car. There is a man from Jiangxi who is anxious to sell his car back to his hometown. 60% of the new motorcycles only cost 4,000 yuan, and Luo reduced the price to 3,000 yuan. His brothers and sisters clubbed together to buy him a car.

When Luo sent his younger brother and sister away and rode his motorcycle home excitedly, he was scolded by his wife: "It's no use buying a truck, but now you have bought a motorcycle." You make your own decision on such a big matter. You didn't even see me? Also, your brother and sister are here, and you buy chicken, fish and meat. Usually, my son and I can't even eat a little meat. I can't live this life, only divorce and dismissal. " Luo was also annoyed and said in a tit-for-tat manner, "Go if you want. I don't care about the day when the door is inserted backwards! " The couple turned their backs on Maimang and made a scene. Even the TV set was smashed, and Chen Xiaofang returned to her parents' home with her child in her arms.

To make matters worse, the car is gone.

After Chen Xiaofang left, Luo regretted it and felt very sorry for his wife for not buying NianLia something to eat, especially before he kissed his son. I don't know when he will meet again-he and his wife and children haven't even taken a family photo yet. He immediately chased the station by motorcycle, and his wife and children were not seen in the waiting room. He asked around and learned that the bus in Yiyang, Hunan Province had left. So, sitting in the chair in the waiting room, he sent a message to his wife tenderly: "Wife, I am really sorry for you. I chased you to the station, and you had already left. I suddenly feel particularly empty and lonely. Now my family is in economic crisis, and your mother and son are suffering together with me. Might as well go home for a while. I will make money quickly, make a lot of money, take your mother and son back to Zhuhai as soon as possible, and let you live in a big house and a new house in a few years, so that you can live a good life! What I said must be fulfilled, and I won't stop until I reach the goal ... "

When Luo came out of the waiting room, he suddenly felt a tragic and relaxed feeling. He thought, now that I am naked, I have nothing to worry about, so I have to concentrate on making money. At this time, the passenger who got off the coach saw him riding a motorcycle and asked him if he was carrying passengers. He nodded at once. In this way, Luo ran to the motorcycle. He warmly welcomes guests and provides security services. He opened his business that day and earned more than 30 yuan. From then on, he got up early every day to solicit customers, often wandering between Bai Jiao Town and the station, looking for customers. In the afternoon, I usually go to the north gate of Chengdong Middle School to wait for customers, and skillfully use motorcycles such as private vans to "grab customers".

On the morning of October 22nd, 2008/kloc-0, Luo pulled a woman with a child at the long-distance bus station and agreed to accept 5 yuan money. Along the way, he saw traffic police on the street playing slogans to carry out the "100-day rectification" action, and traffic police at the intersection were investigating illegal vehicles. He was surprised, thinking that he should never run a red light. When he passed a red light intersection, he stopped and waited honestly.

At this time, a traffic policeman came over, gave him a gift, told him to drive to the side of the road, and then solemnly told him: "You have three violations: the motorcycle can only carry one passenger, and you are overloaded; /kloc-children under the age of 0/2 cannot ride motorcycles; Motorcycle passengers did not wear helmets. " Subsequently, the traffic police asked him to show his driver's license and driving license. Luo obediently showed his certificate and took out his driver's license from his pocket. The traffic police also collected it. After checking his driver's license and driving license through "Mobile Policing", the traffic police said to him seriously: "You are a fake license, which means you have no license, and your driver's license is not a motorcycle driver's license. You have seriously violated the law, and you have violated many rules. Your vehicle and driver's license have been temporarily detained. Please come to Doumen Traffic Police Brigade to handle it within three days. " Said, handed him a penalty sheet and directed the coordinator to load the motorcycle into the police car.

Luo was startled. He just watched the car being towed away by a police car. He stood by the roadside for a long time and burst into tears. Oh, dear, I was cheated and bought a fake car. What are we doing? The traffic police also said it was serious. I don't know what to do with it. He couldn't help shivering. With heavy legs, I went back to the rental place, didn't eat or drink, slept in bed for two days and two nights, and thought for two days and two nights. He thought, why am I so unlucky? There was no business in buying a van, and a motorcycle was confiscated.

On the third day, Luo suddenly remembered that his neighbor was a local with a wide face. He got up and called the other party, told him about the motorcycle, and asked him to help the traffic police team talk well. Chen Mou readily agreed. A glimmer of hope rose in Luo's heart. He adjusted his clothes in front of the mirror, only to see in the mirror that he seemed to be seriously ill, sallow and emaciated, with gray temples. A man in his thirties aged a lot overnight, as if he were a little old man. Desperate to brew a bloody case

The next day, the traffic police brigade who went to Doumen got Luo's car and driver's license back through acquaintances, but the traffic police sternly refused, saying that this matter should be dealt with fairly, and Luo should be punished for breaking the law first: a fine of 1000 yuan, a deduction of 12 points, and the driver's license and motorcycle can only be returned after passing the examination.

After listening to the retelling, Luo complained bitterly: Now that I have no money and lost the way to make money, what should I do to pay the fine? Extremely anxious, he called his wife and told her the truth in frustration, thinking that he could get some comfort or have an idea. Unexpectedly, when Chen Xiaofang heard that his motorcycle had been detained, he flew into a rage, scolded him a few words and said coldly to her husband, "This has nothing to do with me. Anyway, I want to divorce you, you loser." Luo Xiaoji's heart fell into an ice hole. A few minutes later, he called his hometown trembling, and his mother answered the phone. Luo said to his mother, "My son is unfilial. You have never enjoyed my blessing. Just pretend you never gave birth to my son. " As soon as the mother heard her son's tone was wrong, she quickly asked what was going on. Luo told the story of the motorcycle being detained. He said angrily, "They broke up with me and I won't let them feel better." Say that finish, he hung up.

At this time, Luo felt that life had reached the edge of the cliff and there was no way to go. He is determined to have a larger foe. He sat at the table and wrote suicide notes to his wife and parents respectively, indicating that he didn't want to live. After writing, he remembered that his parents' kindness in raising him had not been reported, that his promise to his wife had not been fulfilled, and that his son was still in infancy, and he could not help crying.

1at 2 pm on October 5, Luo made one last effort. Accompanied by Chen Mou, he personally came to Doumen Traffic Police Brigade to consult about punishment. He also stated his own difficulties, demanded to get the vehicle back to operate first, and promised to pay a fine in a few days. The traffic police's answer is still that you must pay a fine first and pass the exam again before you can get the carriage return and documents. Luo was completely disappointed. At about 15: 30, he and Chen Mou left angrily. On the way, Luo was silent and suddenly took out his mobile phone and dialed 1 10: "Don't return my motorcycle and driver's license, or your child will be beaten at school!" Chen Mou was surprised and tried to dissuade him. But LuoXiaoQi left while Chen Mou answered the phone. Chen Mou immediately went to the Bai Jiao police station, and the police station immediately reported the situation. At the same time, he sent police officers to Baitenghu Primary School, but there was no sign of Luo.

Luo returned to his residence. He took out his few tens of dollars and bought fish, tofu, vegetables and so on. I cooked a hearty dinner, ate it alone, put on clean short sleeves and pants, and went straight to the dump truck parked at the door. Neighbors greeted him, but he didn't respond. As soon as he got into the taxi, his brother arrived sweating profusely-he arrived after receiving a phone call from his mother. He was keenly aware of the bad situation, followed his brother on the bus, pulled out the car keys, and tried to persuade him to get off. But Luo is determined to do something "earth-shattering". He kicked his brother out of the car, then quickly ignited and stepped on the accelerator. The dump truck bounced out like an arrow, and the direction was Chengdong Middle School. ......

Tragedy happened.

Afterwards, the police restored the bloody case: Chengdong Middle School is located in the south of Jinshan Market, Qiaodong, Doumen District, with more than 2,000 students, most of whom are between 12 and 15 years old. At 5: 10, the campus is crowded with students coming home from school. A dump truck suddenly broke into the school from the back door, crossed the playground and crashed into the crowd crazily, with a body hanging on the bumper of the front. Many students are too scared to walk and their legs are shaking. Twenty-four students instantly fell in a pool of blood, some shoes and books were scattered on the ground, and three vans were hit beyond recognition. In the process, a comprehensive management team member who usually maintains order at the school gate jumped on the bus and tried to subdue Luo, but was left behind and injured. Another comprehensive administrator quickly reported the police situation to the police station with a walkie-talkie. When two policemen on duty in Bai Jiao police station arrived by police car, the dump truck had already left the south gate of the school, ready to rush to the more densely populated urban area hundreds of meters away. After the police ordered Luo to stop, he fired two shots decisively and killed him on the spot.

postscript

The tragedy created by Luo brought great pain to dozens of families, and also made his family fall into a very tragic situation. After the incident, Luo's father fainted to the ground immediately after receiving the news in Suizhou. His mother has been ill in bed all the year round, so far her family dare not tell her this tragedy, for fear that it will be unbearable and life-threatening. Sister Luo Xiaoyun couldn't believe it. She usually spends less than 50 yuan every month, and her soft-spoken brother will become a murderer. Luo Xiaoyun still hopes that this is just a dream.

Professor Li Jie, vice president of Zhuhai Psychiatric Hospital and expert in Guangdong Province, said: Luo did not take mature solutions when he encountered serious life difficulties, but took excessive actions to vent, which deviated from his normal life in cognition. He is introverted, unsociable, unable to find a suitable way to relieve his inner depression, and difficult to extricate himself from the predicament, which led to the outbreak of tragedy. For this kind of depression patients, some take the form of suicide or "extended suicide", while others may take the form of "curve suicide" to attack and kill people who have nothing to do with themselves, thus ending their lives. This way is not common, but it is more harmful. This is how Luo hit people with his car to vent his anger and endanger public safety. It is hateful and pathetic.

Now, the school has restored the normal educational order. In this accident, 22 students died or were seriously injured. Twenty-eight psychologists led by Zhuhai Education Department have gone to the hospital and the incident school to give psychological counseling to students and teachers, and then the primary and secondary schools in the whole district will give psychological counseling. "This incident has dealt a great blow to the teachers and students of Chengdong Middle School. Many people have negative emotional reactions such as grief, fear and despair to varying degrees." Zhu Hai, deputy director of Zhuhai Mental Health Guidance Center, said.

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