I want you to be with me, no matter what your status is.

You are handsome, I am not beautiful, but we met.

You are tall and I am short, but you don’t mind me.

You love me and I love you too, but we are separated.

You are married and I am single, but we still have love.

You don’t say anything, I don’t say anything, but there is a tacit understanding.

They say you can’t miss people at night, but I just can’t do it! During the day, I am busy with work, TV series, and trivial matters in life. However, I can't sleep at night, just because of you.

If, I say if, without these, I think I will still miss you a thousand times! Because there is always an invisible and intangible you living in my life.

"Time will help you forget someone"? I think this is not really forgotten, but just a dusty memory. I stayed up late last night and watched "Titanic" again. This wasn't the first time I watched it, it was just the first time.

Rose, who is already 102 years old, clearly narrated the story about her that happened on the Titanic 84 years ago in the diving cabin. It's like typing out the story that belonged to us 3 years ago word by word now, everything is so clear, as if everything happened yesterday.

In front of true love, there is no reason to speak. Rose and Jack's love also begins with zero sanity. When Ruth was about to marry the "powerful" Karl, she madly chose Jack because she felt the joy of life with Jack.

Happy because of love. It used to be a joy to get along with you, but now every memory of you is sweet.

I was 23 years old that year and had just graduated from college. A high school classmate introduced us to each other. You were in Wuhan and I was in Chengdu. But our hometown is in the same place (after all, we are still half schoolmates, you are one year above me). I learned this after getting along. At that time, I thought that this might be the so-called fate and destiny. …

We rely on online connections. I have always been aloof to strangers. If you come to me, I will respond; if you don't come to me, of course I will not take the initiative to come to you.

At the beginning, you did not gain my trust. Every day, I communicate through a simple greeting from a penguin. I don’t dare, or even can’t, to put my feelings on a “net friend” hastily.

For girls, as long as the boy looks decent, they won’t be disgusted (hehe, the group leader of the Appearance Association). At least that’s the case for me. Judging from the chat, you should be a knowledgeable boy. Even if you know a lot, you are still the real version of the Life Encyclopedia Assistant.

A video every day before going to bed, and a phone call to greet me in my spare time. To others, we are just a young couple in love.

Actually it is not the case. Our first meeting was in April of the following year. Because during the Spring Festival of the year we met, I didn’t keep the appointment. I don’t know if it was because of this that we lost contact for several months.

The first time we met, you always said that this was something you would never forget. Because I criticized you, saying that everything was wrong with you, I was beaten to pieces.

"Speaks loudly, slams the table when excited about eating, and makes a squeaking sound when eating..."

Just when you ask me how I am? When I see if the real person is disappointed...I will tell you all these shortcomings in one breath. He also concluded by saying that he is not mature enough and stable enough. I hope to find someone more stable... Oh, I rejected you so cruelly.

A month has passed? It should be. It happened to be Labor Day, and we contacted Guili Xili again. It was because my phone was out of service, so you recharged me 100 yuan.

Then...then I actually fell in love, and I took the initiative to say: "I am willing to get along with you as boyfriend and girlfriend."

In this way, I could feel your excitement and anxiety from the words at that time. , thinking back to my words against you, how could you do this to someone who doesn’t like you everywhere?

Yes, this is how our love journey started. Now that I think about it, I'm very grateful for your shamelessness, otherwise we might have ended without even meeting each other.

Generally speaking, we are happy when we spend time together. Because we are in different places, you are in Chongqing and I am in Chengdu, so we cherish the days together. The distance between us at that time didn't seem to bring us any distance. You called me regularly at noon every day, even if the content every time was: "Have you eaten? Is the weather in Chengdu good? You must give me a lunch break at noon today..." But if there is a day when I don’t have a phone, I won’t be used to it, at least I will have to make all kinds of guesses in my heart, and I won’t even take a lunch break, always thinking that you are going to call me soon.

In the evening, we will receive videos at the agreed time. Sharing with each other what happened today, some happy and some unhappy. No matter what happens to you, you make me feel at ease and you can solve it yourself. Whatever happens to me, you always give me a sense of security, give me advice, and discuss the most perfect solution together.

Gradually I realized that I may be completely dependent on you. When I go out with you, I don't have to think about it at all. Your legs are long and mine are short. The city you live in has a fast pace, and the place where I live is filled with the sound of mahjong.

Therefore, there will always be a step away between you and me... Whenever you can't stop, you will always stretch out your warm left hand backwards and tell me: "Pig, you are here again." "Falling behind"

If I want to catch up with you, I must hold your hand and hold on, otherwise I will be lost on the road.

After a long time, even if you call me stupid or stupid, I still think it is romantic.

When I am with you, you always pamper me, just like the scene between Jack and Rose. You like to cook and I like to eat. Although I haven't done it at home a few times, I appreciate your serious attitude.

At that time, we all had single days off. In order to be able to see the boss, I would work for two consecutive weeks and take two days off. When you come here, you give your boss various excuses for leave (go home to see your parents...brother/brother is getting married...) One time I went to see you, and you had to go to the company in the morning for work reasons, so you left me alone. Stayed at home all morning.

In a few short hours, I never stepped out of the room because I was not familiar with the outside world. I slept with my head covered... watching TV with my mobile phone... I finally stayed up until after 11 o'clock. You texted me I said: "I got off the car, wait until I come back to cook for you."

12 words, just one sentence, at least my eyes are still infected after writing it today. No words are needed to fall in love, just one action and one look is enough.

We also had quarrels and disagreements. Otherwise, why would today's result occur again? In the initial quarrel, you always took the initiative to apologize to me, but looking at it now, I still feel that it was your fault. You should apologize, but we are in a long-distance relationship.

Face to face, we have never had a dispute. We can't get serious when we see each other. All conflicts are in the chat interface and video. Even the "breakup" I mentioned was expressed in words from a different place.

It is said that long-distance relationships are very fragile and it is too difficult to maintain the relationship. Love begins with words and ends with words. Yes, at least I do.

I originally thought that we would survive that winter and be greeted by a vibrant spring, but it all ended in that cold winter.

At that time, maybe you didn’t understand me. Because I hurt you with a few words and you misunderstood me (I learned this after a calm exchange later)

I obviously realized that I had made a big joke and might become an irreparable person. Situation

However, as a result of my inner struggle, I chose to call and text you to apologize and try to win you back.

But there is no way, who knows that you still have a stubborn streak, no matter how others try to persuade us, you remain indifferent.

During this period, you came to my city and told me, but my attitude towards you was very cold, because in my opinion, you no longer love me, and I don’t need to love you too humbly. So much so that even Liang Jingru didn't have the courage to take a look at me.

I think maybe this is what you really think - determined not to look back.

I have been in intermittent contact, and I want to know your current situation intermittently. As soon as I see your profile picture flashing, I will hold my breath. I am afraid and expectant to know the specific content of your post...a mental state of surprise and joy.

However, it all ended in disappointment in the end. What I thought was not necessarily what I thought. Now I know that they all lack the courage, the courage of Ruth and Jack

When watching Titanic, I was thinking that if I had the courage of Ruth to pursue love, what would I have done? Wouldn't the result be different?

The answer may be: no

Because at that age we were destined to be unable to understand some things. Just like what you said later: "In the days when I left you, I was numb every day, drunk and dreaming. You really broke my heart. At that time, I wanted to stabilize. I desperately wanted to get married. , Tired!

"Titanic" Ruth: I have never told anyone about him before today, including your grandfather. A woman's heart is like a deep sea, full of secrets. …

I don’t even have a photo of him, he only lives in my memory now.

It’s not like the line says, women are full of secrets. Dare to express

Recently, I have become fond of the way of expressing words. There are many things that I want to express in my heart, but once I open my mouth, it may all change. I will mention it and dismiss it with two words: "Forget it" and "Nothing."

Just like when reading an English word, I always feel that I can pronounce it accurately in British/American style...but the moment I open my mouth, it is exposed.

I couldn’t bear not to contact you, I couldn’t bear not having you in front of me, but I couldn’t help but miss you. Yes, I will actually miss you at some point. The plot on TV, the lyrics of the songs I listen to, the scenes I see while walking... these will all affect my heart. It’s just that I didn’t dare to tell you for fear of disturbing you.

Always stay with me, no matter what your status is!

No.

When I talked about you before, I was afraid of touching you. Because it is a scarred wound and it will hurt. Will shed tears.

Now, after reading so many articles about emotional public accounts, I find that it is okay to smile about these memories. After all, most of the memories are good ones.

Emotions need to be expressed. At least I will feel better if I express them.

Life is an unknown journey. Everyone who comes into our lives is worthy of our gratitude! Be grateful for the encounter, be grateful for the harvest, be grateful for the growth.

In fact, we should use Ruth’s courage to speak out. Either way, record it! Whether it's public or private! At least one day in the future I will have fragments of memories from that year.