Essays about first love on both sides of the Taiwan Strait that are not considered first love

There are some people and some things, like gorgeous and colorful flowers, blooming quietly on both sides of the road of youth. Although not all of these flowers bear abundant fruits, they have truly bloomed once in the softest corner of everyone's heart, and they have indeed left some sweet fragrance. So the girl picked up her pen and used clumsy words to guard the flowers blooming along the way.

How should I face you after many years?

With tears, with silence

No, with smiles, with brilliance.

We are still friends and buddies.

Encounter by chance

Ying has been in a bad mood, and the boredom during the holidays swallowed her up like a huge black hole, on the evening of the first day of the New Year. She thought she should go out to see the flowers and lanterns. After all, it was the New Year, so she walked on the familiar road. For a long time, in the days after Dan broke up with her without warning, every time she walked this road, she would think of her excitement when walking on this road when she was dating Dan.

I just didn’t expect that she would encounter Christmas today. The park at night was illuminated by the lanterns hanging on the trees. Although it was enchanting and colorful, it was not bright. People came and went to look at the lanterns. There was an endless stream of people, but Ying still accurately recognized Dan riding on the bicycle. She called his name, but he still walked forward. He pretended not to hear. Ying felt a little regretful, but she was unwilling to give in. After calling his name, he finally turned around. When he saw her, he immediately showed an expression of surprise, strangeness and a little impatience. "Why are you going?" she asked, "My classmate came from Jilin. , I went to play with them, you are shopping alone." "Well, goodbye." Such a brief conversation, but Ying was not at peace. He became thinner, his hair style changed, and he looked much more handsome. It seemed that he Living a good life. Ying took the time to look at her clothes again, thinking that what she wore today was quite beautiful and she didn't lose face in front of him, so that's fine.

But how could they become like this? Ying and Dan have been classmates since childhood. When they were in junior high school, they worked together as partners in hosting programs. They are good friends who can talk about everything and appreciate each other. Although we are not in the same class in high school and have less contact, the friendship we had in junior high school is still there. But today, they couldn't even talk properly.

If it hadn’t been for the impulse, today would have been good for both of them.

The events of 18 months ago appeared in front of Ying.

Summer vacation

After 12 years of hard work, she finally passed the college entrance examination. Several of Ying and Dan's close friends did well in the exam, especially Dan. In the days when hormone secretion is strong, the ignorant emotions that were initially suppressed by the pressure of entering a higher school naturally begin to stir up. At an accidental point in time, an inadvertent spark from the eye contact will quickly turn into a flame that burns fiercely and out of control.

They met several times during that summer vacation. The first time was a reunion of junior high school classmates, and they didn't say a few words; the second time was when he called her suddenly - that afternoon, Ying was bored and wanted to take a shower, but suddenly her phone rang. She saw an unfamiliar number, who was it? "Hello" a strange yet extremely familiar voice came from the receiver. Who is it, she thought. "I'm Xia, and I was afraid that you would think it was a scammer and stop answering when you saw it was an unfamiliar number!" Oh, it was him, Ying felt happy for a moment, and what he said was still so interesting. It turned out that he was working part-time during the holidays with one of Ying's friends, Hao, and he got Ying's number from Hao. Ying hung up the phone, took a shower, and went to play with them at their part-time job. Ying still has a small selfish intention in her heart. She likes Hao a little, and she can meet Hao.

The three of them had a lot of fun that afternoon. They also agreed to have dinner together tomorrow. The next day, Ying waited for Xuan's call and discussed going out for dinner. Xuan did the same, so neither of them contacted the other. As luck would have it, another person whom Dan didn't like invited Ying out for dinner, and Dan even found out about it. Dan also complained about Ying to their same junior high school friend Sen. But no matter what, for Dan and Ying, it was just a simple meeting. It was so simple that Dan felt that falling in love with Yingtan was a very distant thing. So neither of them would have thought that a month later, they would become a couple - without that meeting.

Qing and Mori have been good friends of the opposite sex for many years, so good that they do not distinguish between genders. Suddenly the space burst out that they were together.

So everyone started making noises and asked them to treat them. One day in early August, Qinghesen invited several close friends to dinner. It was that small gathering that sparked the spark between Ying and Dan. That day, Ying had a premonition that something might happen, so she put on the newly bought skirt. She was indeed much more beautiful than usual that day. At the dinner table, the two of them had a tacit understanding like a god. Perhaps the mutual admiration they had in junior high school has always been there. After lunch, several people went to the cafe and talked leisurely about the past college entrance examination and the future direction. Without the pressure of the college entrance examination, everything becomes extremely beautiful and gorgeous. Later, they went to Dan's house to play Monopoly. In the evening, they were still not satisfied. Dan generously invited them to eat hot pot, and Dan's mother also asked them to bring a bottle of red wine. He told her to send Ying home after eating. At this time, they still have a simple friendship, and their ignorant feelings are still waiting to ferment.

After eating, on the way to send Ying home, they talked about who they liked and who they liked. The August evening breeze passed through the neon lights in the city and the plane trees beside the road, and the atmosphere suddenly became a little ambiguous. They joked: What would happen if Teacher Yin (their same Chinese teacher) knew that they were together? They also agreed that if they are still single after four years of college graduation, they will stay together.

"I'm afraid you will definitely find a girlfriend. After all, you are so good." Ying laughed that he would definitely break his promise. "I'm just afraid that you will find a boyfriend," Dan countered. His face suddenly became handsome in Ying's eyes.

Heart rush

What happened next was like pressing the fast forward button, happening in a short period of time, which was exciting, fascinating and surprising.

Dan called Ying and asked her to go out for a walk in the evening. He said that this was to prepare for the military training after school started. Ying still clearly remembers how she was looking forward to the birthday news in the afternoon. She kept refreshing her phone to see if she had missed the birthday news. She also wanted to take the initiative and ask him out. However, the girl's inner reserve prevented Ying from sending an invitation text message. However, Dan did not disappoint him, and his news would always come.

In fact, Dan was very busy in those days, because school was about to start, and some social activities were inevitable, but he still left half of the meal every time to meet Ying for a walk. Ying always remembers the scene of Dan walking toward her with long strides. The camphors on both sides of the path stood silently in the soft light of night, becoming the backdrop for Dan walking towards her. Dan handed Ying a bottle of water, and Ying was a little embarrassed. Of course, Ying didn't expect Dan to be so attentive. During the walk, they joked with each other, saying that they told their parents that they were out with friends of the same sex. Of course two people who had just finished high school would not tell their parents and friends of the opposite sex to go out for a walk. However, the more they concealed it, the more excited and happy they became. They cover it up carefully, but they hope to get a warm response from the other party.

On a midsummer night in a small city, the heat and noise of the day have receded, leaving behind a refreshing coolness. The lakes in the city are connected, and the quiet water surrounds this beautiful small city. People after a busy day came out for a walk around the lake. Ying and Dan also walked and stopped along the road by the lake, both enjoying the moment.

The first time they went out for a walk at night, there was a high platform on the roadside by the lake. Ying was a little scared and did not dare to jump off. At this time, Dan suddenly handed over her hand to Ying from below. How she wanted to pass her hand over, but Ying didn't dare. She didn't know what to do. They were just ordinary friends, so how could two people hold hands. However, Ying still thought in her heart that maybe Dan was trying to show her favor to her. If you like someone, you can't hide it.

Another time, two people were lost and didn’t know where to go.

"Xia, I only get lost when I'm walking with you. Normally, I have a good sense of direction," Ying joked. There may be something in this tone that shouldn't be there. dependence.

Dan sent Ying home safely through the navigation system, "I just said, I will definitely send you back safely." There was some unconcealable pride in Dan's tone, and what Ying liked was Such a confident and unrestrained demeanor of his.

They have been walking at night for three consecutive days. Love is still a bit far away for Ying. She doesn’t know where the story will go. But in her heart, Dan is indeed excellent.

The same is true for Dan, they are still young and don't know what love and love are like.

"I don't want to go to the class reunion in a few days. Everyone will be in pairs by then, and I don't want to eat dog food." Ying Xiangdan complained, and there was some expectation implicit in this complaint. Dan also understood this expectation accurately.

They continued walking along the lake and talked about some ambiguous feelings. Dan said he had liked many girls, and he liked Ying when he was in junior high school.

"Actually, I also liked you when I was in junior high school." Ying lowered her head shyly.

"Can we continue now?" Dan raised his voice and asked.

Dan got the answer he had expected.

Dan and Ying were together like this.

The two people’s tentative guesses and hazy little thoughts suddenly became clear at this moment.

That night, after Ying returned home, she asked him on her mobile phone, "Are you home?"

"Are you here."

"I'm relieved." Later , Dan joked to Ying: "As soon as the relationship was established, the tone of speaking was different."

After a while, Ying saw Dan updated an update, with only two words "feeling".

Late that night, Ying and Dan were both on their little beds, sending messages on their mobile phones.

Look."

That night, Ying slept soundly, but Xuan suffered from insomnia. However, both Ying Antian's dreams and Dan's insomnia are all because of love and sweetness.

Love

In the early morning, Ying woke up with joy. When I turned on my phone, I saw a message from Dan. He was walking by the lake. The two couldn't wait to talk on the phone. They said they would go to have breakfast together. Ying got up and cleaned up, a little slower. When she arrived, Dan had already been waiting for a long time. She saw from a distance the birthday waiting for her under the paulownia tree in the early morning, and felt a burst of joy in her heart.

"You won't be anxious when you wait for the person you like. If someone else asked me to wait for such a long time, I would definitely be anxious." Dan said to Ying, and Ying was touched by this thought again.

During breakfast, Dan refused to eat eggs. Ying said she didn’t want any anymore, but she still insisted on getting one for Ying. Ying ate the eggs, but Dan Xiangying complained, "You said you didn't want to eat them." Dan should understand Ying's shyness at that time. After a while, the two of them were full and there was still a lot left. Ying felt it was a bit wasteful, so Dan generously said, "It's nothing to waste a little for you." Then Dan sent Ying home, and they also said that they would get married in the future. Who is responsible for cooking and washing dishes, who is responsible for doing laundry and so on.

That night, Dan asked, should we tell our good friend Zhou? He also came up with a bad idea - not to tell Zhou that they were together, but to just make a three-way call on the mobile phone and let Zhou guess on his own. So, late at night, the three of them made a long phone call, Zhou was kept in the dark, and Ying and Dan's evil smiles came from time to time. Later, Zhou finally came to his senses, and the three of them were ecstatic again.

The class reunion is here, and Xing is looking forward to it. He says that he will announce it to everyone then and drop a "bomb". Although Ying wanted her classmates to know about her affair with Dan, she didn't quite agree with this method. However, seeing Dan's cheerful expression, she still acquiesced. She even thought that if it was made public in this way, the two of them would not break up soon. Probably, Ying had a vague premonition at that time, a bad premonition. But Ying still remembered the surprised expressions on everyone's faces when Dan announced the news at the dinner table that day, and the sweetness in their hearts.

Oh, the day of the junior high school reunion happened to be the Chinese Valentine's Day. Xuan didn't give Ying any expensive gifts. He only had a love letter and a box of postcards that Xia brought back from his previous trip to Suzhou. In fact, these were enough. Well, for them at that time, nothing was more important than their thoughts.

In that letter, Dan unreservedly expressed his cherishment of Ying and his expectations for the future. Ying read the letter for a long time, reading it again and again. Of course, Ying also wrote passionate words to express her feelings about Nats.

They also told their teacher the news, and the teacher deeply blessed them and thought that the two of them were a perfect match and might be able to stay together for a long time.

At this time, the day of school is not far away. Dan is going to study at a well-known university in the north, while Ying is going to study in the south, but the school will start later. Both of them were immersed in the sweetness of their new love and didn't understand the pain of separation. Ying sometimes thought about the problem of being in a different place and felt that they would not last long. However, Dan has been comforting Ying and is full of confidence in their future. He plans to go to Suzhou together and honeymoon abroad like his brother and sister-in-law. "Sometimes, the more impossible you think it is, the more it will happen."

When people are young, they are always very simple. They think that all problems are not problems. They think that if you love someone, you will love them forever. They completely do not understand that drastic changes in the real situation will change all the naive ideas in people's hearts. What's more important is that it's not love at all, it's not a relationship, it's just a hormonal impulse. After a lot of time has passed, Dan and Ying don't think the two have been in love, so what does it count? I don’t know, even though those facts really existed and happened, the two of them no longer think about them.

The day before Dan was going to school, the two met and then parted. As usual, there was no reluctance at all as there should be in the novel, and they even looked at each other with tears in their eyes, speechless and choked.

After Tan started school, Ying's life at home was as usual. However, she was used to checking her phone after waking up every day. She knew there would be news about Tan. Although the two of them are far apart, they often keep their phones in their hands and send messages as if the other person is right next to them.

Ying thought that Dan must have been attentive and serious at that time. Once, Ying went to take a bath and did not reply for a long time. Dan was very nervous, thinking that he had done something wrong, so that Ying could not He was so happy; Dan once introduced Ying to his new roommate through the Internet; he also once spread dog food in front of his roommate.

Crack

How should I describe that day? Ying never understood what happened that day.

Dan was at a college gathering, and he and Ying were chatting online. Suddenly, they stopped talking. Ying didn’t care, but that night, Ying didn’t wait for the customary “good night.” , the next day, there was no news again, Ying had a bad premonition in her heart, and finally around 8 o'clock in the evening, Ying couldn't help but send a message. Dan explained that military training had started, and she had handed in her mobile phone during the day. Ying didn't say much.

Since then, the two of them no longer talked frequently online. Although Ying wanted to contact him very much, she refused to put down her dignity and take the initiative to find him. She also thought about the roommate who gave birth a few days ago. Wanting to see Ying's photos, Dan asked if there were any good-looking ones of Ying with makeup on. He subconsciously felt that Ying was not very good-looking. So Ying updated a post on the Internet, "Distance is to feelings, just like wind to fire. It can blow away those that are weak and encourage those that are strong." After seeing the news, Dan called, but both of them sounded strange.

Perhaps Dan wants to understand something. He rarely contacts Ying anymore. Sometimes, when Ying sees Danfa’s news on the Internet, she knows that he has time to look at his phone but just doesn’t want to. Just contact her again. The classmate comforted Ying and said that it was normal for Dan to be a little busy since school had just started, and told Ying not to think too much about it. However, Ying knew in her heart that the two of them might not last long.

For two days and three days, they had no contact. Ying discovered something even worse. Dan had locked her space. Dan explained that it was because she had just left home and had some problems. Sadness is written in the space and cannot be known to others. Ying knew that they were finished, even though Dan didn't say goodbye.

It was September, and Ying was about to start school. Ying’s mood dropped a little bit. He was looking forward to the news of the birth, but there was no news. The night before Ying left home, Ying took the initiative to find him. Dan told Ying that he was running for squad leader, so he had no time to contact her. "You have to leave tomorrow, so I can't wish you well in time." Ying was keenly aware that Dan's tone seemed concerned, but it was not the intimacy between lovers.

Two days after Ying came to school, the two of them had no contact. Ying fantasized that maybe Dan Hui would send a message at a certain moment to contact her who had just arrived in a strange environment. Unfortunately, no.

Turn around and leave

The next night, Ying couldn't help but called Dan.

"What's wrong with you?" Ying

"You don't feel it anymore," Dan said calmly what was in his heart.

Ying knew it was over.

"I have always wanted to get into Tsinghua University. During my four years of college, I wanted to study like a high school student. I used to watch others become successful people and impart life experience. I also want to be a successful person. I don’t plan to fall in love in college. ." Xuan gave the reason.

"I did like you when I was in junior high school." "Maybe we will both be sad tonight." "We will still be friends in the future. Maybe I will treat you to dinner when we go back on November 1." "First love is always very unforgettable. "My roommate said that he still thinks of that girl sometimes." Dan comforted Ying one by one.

Xiao Dan was even afraid that Ying would be confused and do something stupid.

Ying has now forgotten what she said that night, only remembering that she calmly accepted the result.

At this time, only 27 days had passed since the night they confessed their love.

Ying thought she would have insomnia that night, but it seemed as if something she had been worrying about all day finally happened. She felt much more relaxed and fell into a deep sleep.

Ying woke up very early the next day, feeling severe pain in her heart. The two of them would never meet again, and he no longer belonged to her. Ying didn't dare to let this emotion spread, so she quickly got up and went for a run on the playground. On the track, Ying felt that everything was like a dream or a nightmare. She had also imagined that she would cry loudly on Santa's shoulder, and then the two of them would reconcile as before. However, separation was really not a dream, and the fantasy was just a fantasy after all.

Ying did not dare to let herself be idle for a moment. Ying went to the library to study, and Ying and her new roommates went to apply for mobile phone cards and broadband. In September, autumn has already entered in the north, but the scorching sun in the south is still unabated. In the afternoon, Ying felt dizzy and weak. Ying had a fever, and the infirmary was off work again. In this big city where Ying had just been here for three days, Ying was extremely helpless. Fortunately, her classmates were very friendly and took Ying to the hospital in a taxi. In the taxi, Ying's consciousness was blurred. She thought of her mother and her unfamiliarity with this city. How she hoped that the fever could be like a fire, burning away all the memories of him and her. But, no, she is destined to bear the pain of lovelorn for some time to come.

After the National Day holiday, Ying has been waiting for Xing to give him news and ask her out. In other words, give her an explanation, but there is none. Moreover, during the National Day holiday, she received another piece of news from her classmates: Dan fell in love with another girl again. Ying wanted to cry, but there were no tears.

Meteor passing by

Later, in college, Ying learned how to dress up and became more beautiful: Later, Ying dated a better boy, and Ying was very happy. However, Ying has always been dissatisfied with Dan, not because of the breakup, but because Ying felt that she and Dan were interrupted rudely and without explanation before things between her and Dan could start.

A year after the incident, Dan found out that Ying had found a good boyfriend shortly after they broke up. He was a little surprised.

Another summer vacation, at a class reunion, they met again. Ying Xiang showed affection to Dan, as if she was letting out a sigh of relief: Look, you looked down on me at the beginning, but now I have become good-looking and friendly. Get a better boyfriend than you. In fact, Ying didn't have any malice in her heart, she just hoped that she could regain some dignity. After all, Zeng Dan didn't give her a reasonable explanation. Of course, after hearing Ying's words, Dan was not to be outdone. He told Ying how outstanding the girl he was pursuing now was and what kind of offensive he was going to launch against her. The two talked for a long time, but never mentioned what happened at the beginning. However, the hearts of the two people may not be without turmoil.

After that meeting, Ying felt much relieved. After all, she had regained some dignity that had been pushed away at the beginning.

A few months after that meeting, Ying went to Hunan to participate in a local research project. When playing a game, Ying lost and asked to call her ex-boyfriend and said, "I miss you." "How are you doing?" Ying couldn't help it. I had no choice but to dial that distant number.

“Hello, I’m Ying.”

“Oh, it’s you. My phone is out of battery. Let’s do this. If anything happens, I’ll talk about it back to the dormitory.

"

Ying was disappointed in her heart. They really couldn't even be friends.

But after a while, the truth came over. Perhaps it was the ethereal landscapes of Hunan that made Ying's soul Feeling soft, Ying thought of the sweet past they had had, and she actually said a lot of emotional things, and she was speechless. They also said many other things, just like they were good buddies in junior high.

Ying knew that the reason why Dan called him was not because of old friendship, but because he thought something must be wrong with Ying calling him so late. As an old friend, he was afraid that something would happen to Ying. A touch of touching.

When we met again in the New Year, the two of them didn’t say a few words. Maybe that’s how it should be.

In the New Year lantern market, Ying continued to walk after meeting her. An hour later, Dan's voice came from the dark place of Nanhu in the small town. Dan was playing with her classmates from out of town. But this time, Ying didn't say hello. In the darkness, two people came towards her. He walked away again. I don’t know if Dan recognized Ying, but when Ying turned around, she saw a figure turning around.

The sky is blue.

Ying took this paragraph. The story is written here, not so much as a reminder, but as an explanation to myself. It is not a love at all, although there are many beautiful memories left in it, which were the product of hormonal impulses in a specific period of time. , Dan once liked a girl, and He Ying's story was just an accident, a dream that happened by chance.

As time goes by, Ying will understand why Dan suddenly fell in love. He pulled away because there were too many prettier and outstanding girls than Ying in the university, but Ying still hoped that Dan could give him an explanation in person, not because of how good Dan was or how unforgettable the story was, but because she wanted everything. Can be clear and clear. If two people have been talking for a while and find that they are not suitable and separate from each other, Ying will not feel resentful towards Dan, but because the story has ended before it has begun.

Ying thought that maybe one day, Ying would show these words to Xuan. Ying also thought that she should return the original love letters to Xuan, because there was a time when Xuan was childish and shy, but also extremely innocent and sincere. , that is a fairy tale.

Thinking about it now, it is a very far away thing. Did it really happen? Did it really exist? Compared to that, it is too insignificant.

The sky becomes bluer and bluer, and the unforgettable people and moments will become more and more ordinary.