Why don't you ask your parents for money when you grow up?

The first time I went out to play with my friends, they bought snacks and invited drinks to share with each other, but I had to carefully calculate whether there was enough money in my bag, and it was hard to let go of who invited me to drink. I sent four short messages to my mother that day. When I went back, she knocked on chopsticks at the dinner table and scolded me for sending so many text messages at twenty cents. I really cried that night. Now studying art, I like painting when I was four or five years old, but I haven't attended a remedial class, and my family is ok. My parents only have one girl, but they wanted a boy, but they didn't succeed. My mother occasionally sends me quilts, blankets and other daily necessities. My father never asks me anything, and I never ask him for money. Every time I ask my mother for money, I am particularly embarrassed. She sent me 200 red envelopes and asked me if I had enough. I have been very sensible since I was a child. Other children want things, and I never want them. My parents said they would buy me something, so I didn't want it. They will praise me, but since I was a child, I feel particularly shabby and don't take the initiative to ask for things. In fact, every time I ask my mother for money, I feel particularly sorry for her. I feel troublesome at home, and I envy that kind of confident girl too much. Even if I can pretend to show my teeth now, I feel inferior in my bones.