Did you know that first love will affect a person's outlook on love throughout his life?

For me, love is untouchable.

Everyone says that first love will affect a person's outlook on love throughout his life. And my first love was particularly bad. I don't want to hate him anymore, I just feel that he shouldn't be forgiven.

When I was with him, I was happy, but most of them seemed to be unsatisfactory. When I think about many things now, I almost realize that I am a big fool.

For example, he put me in a group with several ambiguous girls he had relationships with, and then told me that he only liked me.

For example, when we were having an argument, he changed the wallpaper to a photo of his ex-girlfriend. At that time, in order to relieve the embarrassment, he said: Haha, look at how pretty she is.

For example, when we go out with his friends, other girls will act coquettishly and ask for things from his boyfriend, but he will just ask: "Do you want it?"

For example, during the time we were together, he only bought me a dough roll and a real stick.

For example, he complimented my bestie on her good figure in front of me and said some very disgusting things.

For example, in order to get me to remember his phone number, he lied to me and said that he knew my number by heart, but the truth was that he didn't even pay attention to the first three digits.

For example, when I spent my own money to buy clothes and food, he also taught me that I didn’t know how to run a household.

For example, in order to celebrate his birthday, I saved up money for a long time and bought a pen worth more than 100 yuan. The moment he opened the gift, the happiness I had been waiting for was not there. All that was left was the disappointment in his eyes and on his face.

For example, two days after celebrating his birthday, he seemed to disappear from the world, did not answer phone calls or text messages, and did not even have the courage to break up.

For example, you dare to come back to me after being a scumbag for so long.

So many, it’s disgusting. Do you think I am too stupid?

I thought that I could get you to take me seriously with 100% of my heart, but I never thought that you don’t even want to give me 30% of your love.

So, now I worry too much about gains and losses. I hide my heart in thick shackles and dare not take it out. Later, I met some people who were attracted to me, but those loves died in the bud. I'm afraid that after I fall in love with someone, the response I get will be so bad. My heart is too fragile, so I have to protect it well.

When I first started my freshman year, I met a very interesting boy. He said that I was too naive and he was afraid that he would hurt me. It took a lot of effort to convince myself to take the initiative, and he also made it clear that he liked me. But, in the end, the result is: let’s just be friends.

What a fart, how could we still be friends if we liked him, so I blocked him and never contacted him again. The difference is that now I still feel happy when I think of this memory. He was very interesting.

Later, I met another boy and became friends through some magical method. Online dating. In my opinion, it is unreliable.

The conversation was very interesting and I felt comfortable getting along with him. But the Internet always makes people feel so unreal, not to mention, how can we talk about liking each other before we have met? He began to express his feelings to me, whether he was joking or serious, but I confused him and changed the subject. After that, he said he would come to me.

It is said that a person’s habit formation period is 21 days, so I got used to his existence. I don’t know what liking means, I just find that I always smile when I think of him, or look forward to the pop-up dialog box of his message.

But I still dare not express my feelings. Online dating, long-distance love, and no basis for love, these uncertain factors make people too troubled. When I was about to open up my long-closed heart, I heard from him less and less, and every time I chatted with him, he was lukewarm and indifferent. You see, I told him that I was not suitable for a relationship. How nice it is to be a person who doesn't have to worry about these nonsense.

I am a very decisive person. If you don’t like me, don’t contact me again. Let’s not disturb each other. We don’t have to worry about gain and loss because I am already insecure in love. If you don't like it anymore, then goodbye.

It's night now and I want to save this decision during the day.

Those girls, protect yourselves.

To be an independent girl, keep 30% of your heart to yourself. You cannot afford a love that is too heavy, and this may also make him breathless.

Those boys, I advise you to be careful when you are in love. Would the scumbag in the article know that his actions had hurt a girl who was just starting to fall in love?

I hope your love, at least your first love, is so beautiful.