Living is just a journey.

Since it is a journey, there is no need to be too attached to anything, and eventually we have to "go home."

However, many times, in the process of traveling, we are obsessed with the scenery of other places, even for a long time. We know in our hearts that this will never be our destination. Why bother yourself because of lingering, why miss the scenery in front of you because of obsession.

But we can't get rid of our distractions. Thinking about work while eating, but forgetting to taste the current food; While working, thinking about what to drink in the bar at night may delay work. It is this nonsense that affects our quality of life. Just like when traveling, I always think about the personnel at home; At home, I always long for carefree travel.

This is the contradiction. Perhaps this contradiction is the normal state of life. For example, I'm just comforting myself by saying this, which is just my psychological expectation. I can't do it. My pain may be here, trying to calm myself down, but the more so, the less calm I want.

Xiaoyu has been seeing a doctor in Xigu 18 days, more than a month. The little guy still coughs and has phlegm. The wife said that the child's skin was broken after sticking the medicine, but she only cried twice when taking the medicine, and she didn't cry at ordinary times, so she was very strong. But the child is very strong, and I cried when I read this message.

I was hospitalized for the second time since I was a child, and the women and children in the province were taken blood by nurses as pigs. I was really going to collapse. I know, the nurse can't help it. This is the only way. But as the father of a child, as the father of a child who is only three months old, I really can't control my tears. After this incident, I always burst into tears because of various things. I am not a coward, I can face it and accept it, but I just can't control myself.

One night the other day, Sister Yu strongly invited me to see his son's birthday party. Before eating, because there is nothing to do, we will arrange for everyone to speak. The friendship of the students, the embrace of their mother and son, and my own words all moved me. When tears flooded my eyes, I knew I was becoming more and more sensitive and concerned about all kinds of possessions in my life.

I work during the day almost every day. After work at night, I drove to Xigu just to see Xiaoyu and Doby Xiaoxue, listen to my mother's voice and touch my wife's head. It went through two long trips, but it only stayed for half an hour, and then I had to return. For the next day's sign-in and early reading. 63 children at home and in the classroom are all I have now. So I chose to run back and forth, chose persistence, and chose patience. Last Wednesday night, on the way back to Yuzhong, I was so sleepy that I almost fell asleep while driving ... When I was joking with my father, my father had tears in his eyes and firmly said that he would drive me back later.

I looked at my father's gray hair and was speechless.

I remember when I was a child, I would quarrel with my mother because my father drank and played cards. My brother and I both hated my father. I will also blame my father for his laziness. Then I went to college and worked. My brother and I got married and got married. It seems that without our father, our fate may be changed again. Today's father, because of the busy work and a lot of darkness, because of the complicated family relationship, has become old and silent. Thinking about this at this time, I feel that my father, who is almost sixty years old, is thinking about his own life. No matter what he went through before, he finally returned to peace. Those who care don't care, those who care don't care. In the end, it must be good health and good mentality, and then enjoy the scenery in the last stage of life in the realm of eating, drinking and sleeping well.

But this is easy to say, but the reality is always unstable. Xiaoyu's illness not only makes his father run back and forth, but also makes his mother watch and worry from morning till night. Mother's blood pressure, which was already stable, began to rise again because of excessive tension, fear and overwork, coupled with long-term insomnia and fatigue. Mother was either dizzy or sick. All this, what is the mother for? I think my mother has been working hard since she married her father, and she has never been free for a day. When the supercilious look in hard work and the contempt in hard work are finally eliminated in the marriage and career of two sons, who knows that they are worried about their children. In my mother's life, have I lived for myself? Maybe for my mother, her life is dedicated. In her heart, there is no self. My cold has never been taken seriously. Unless I can't get out of bed, I will lose fluids for a few days under the supervision of my father and me. And like ordinary diseases, they are all brought. Even now, with two children, I have to cook for my wife and me at work. I nagged and complained in my heart, but I never gave up my commitment to my family. And this more than a month, but also for my children, I do not know how much I have paid. My guilt about my mother is even more depressing.

Parents' life, the journey of this life, perhaps the most beautiful scenery is to see their children healthy, their children promising, and their children growing up safely. However, when has a child ever enjoyed the teetering life of his parents?

Now my wife and I have become Xiaoxue and Xiaoyu's parents. When I become a parent, I often forget my parents. Xiaoxue's clothes are dirty, and I will wash them unequivocally, even if I am very tired. However, in order to take care of the children, the mother always ignores the father. My father, who is nearly sixty years old, will squat in the bathroom to wash his clothes after work. You know, since my parents got married, my father has been taken care of by my mother, and even my toenails have been repaired by my mother. Since my mother took care of the children, I have watched my father trim his toenails many times. It's so clumsy, but I never have the courage to help my father fix them. We were all anxious when our two children caught a cold, but how many times did I feel anxious when my mother was ill?

In this vivid life, we always look forward to the distant scenery and always return the scenery behind us to the camera and dusty photo album. In fact, many times, we don't need to take photos during the trip, let alone set up an album and bury it with the passage of time. We may do these things under the guise of "leaving a thought". Deep memories don't need these, but they ruin the mood of the scenery you saw during your trip and your thoughts at that time. We'll live in a picture frame. Not the whole landscape. In this life, many times, we just live in a photo frame and can't jump out. I will be happy for myself in the photo frame and feel sorry for myself. In fact, when we jump out of this photo frame and regard every stage of life as a trip, which includes beauty and evil, joy and sorrow, good and bad, truth and falsehood, we will smile at the beauty, joy and goodness at that time and be anxious about evil, sorrow and falsehood at that time. In fact, when we put every stage in the long river of life, everything will become small. If we put life in the universe, we will be happy and sad. Think about a sentence that Su Dongpo lamented in "Red Cliff Fu": "Lament for a moment in life, envy the infinity of the Yangtze River", how ridiculous. Why mourn and admire? Is written by in the name of people, see through the officialdom, don't want to be promoted Sun Liancheng wrote well:

Especially in recent years, after he fell madly in love with astronomy, he realized the vastness of the universe and the infinity of time and space. What is a person? Ants? Dust? I'm afraid I'm flattering myself, too What is Dakang Li? What is high? What is sarin? Ant powder. Sun Liancheng excused himself and was relieved.

Thinking of this, I have a feeling of letting go gently. The heavy heart has another feeling in an instant, which is much easier. I know that I can't let go of many things and many people, but I can make my soul easier in this way. The heaviness of the body is nothing If the mind is bright, everything will be bright.

I think I will definitely jump out of today's photo frame and go to the next scenery. At the same time, I also believe that the scenery in the next place is beautiful, because the mentality has changed and everything has changed. Every scenery in this world is beautiful, which is the gift of the Lord, Buddha and God.

Everyone's nature is always doomed, let it be, forget it, forget it, look forward to it. In this way, everyone's one-way trip has another layer of positive significance.